WEDNESDAY 27th MARCH 2013
This morning goes quickly; I spend all my time with my son Mike. He has turned out be a real rock. At 2pm the words from the Court Clerk Sofie shout. “We have a verdict.” So it’s back in court. This time I go in the dock and as soon as the jury comes back they do not look at me. That tells me what I knew. The foreman is the man in the first bench who looked at me all the time with despise in his eyes. The fact he is not holding any paper in his hand tells me it’s a unified verdict….Guilty on all!!!! The judge wants to sentence straight away but the Crown produces a new charge. I collected £150,000 in 2010 on behalf of a Cypriot lawyer who I had defended in London and I passed the money to him. But now it all looks as if I stole the money which I did not. Knowing that if my repatriation plan is to work I must have no outstanding matters I argue with my lawyers telling them I must plead guilty. Gary Bloxsome is furious because I have no papers, no charge, no nothing! But I insist!!! That night I am remanded to Wandsworth Prison. I quickly settle in and many prisoners ask if I need anything. I share a cell with an immigrant who is a nice guy. The morning will be sentence day. I sleep soundly after I call my son Mike. How do I feel? Actually O.K
This will soon be over because when I get back to Italy the sentence that the judge imposed will be shortened as I will be resentenced in Italy and out.
THURSDAY 28TH MARCH 2013
I am awakened at about 7am and by 8.30am I am on the horsebox to the Court. Today I am the only one on the ‘horsebox’. When I arrive at the Court cells there is a Romanian who speaks perfect Italian in the cell waiting to be called on traffic offences. Ian Smith Q.C. and Gary Bloxsome come to the cells to see me. Gary does not want me to plead guilty because quite rightly he says this is all irregular and we have no papers, no charges, but I am adamant on this one and the judge accommodates me really knowing my game plan.
He sentences me to a total of 14 years and it has no effect. I have no worries. No concerns, because whatever sentence I will be resentenced in Italy. To less than four years with an amnesty.
I get taken back to the cells and there I meet a really nice guy who had failed to surrender on Monday but gave himself up and asked the judge to put him in custody.
We end up going back to Wandsworth and share a cell. I help him out. When I am in my cell many come to ask how I am and if I need anything. ‘AC’ who I have not seen since 1984 is here as are many others.
How do I feel? I have been sentenced to 14 years and should be worried but I really am not for one second.
By an act of destiny my nationality readdresses the injustice that I have suffered.
In the morning I will kick off the repatriation, ironic it’s Good Friday. I miss my family but dare not think of them. I have to face this alone.
FRIDAY 29TH MARCH 2013
For some strange reason today is the beginning of a new dawn. I slept really well last night. I want to try and put out of my head that I have a family otherwise I will not survive this obvious injustice. The judge knows who I am and yesterday he did me a favour in doing everything quickly. Today I must make sure I get the request in for repatriation. This is the way out and to rectify the pre-planned injustice, if I am betrayed then its seven years of my life. Well, many have been in my situation. I think of Bruno Contrada the Head of the Italian SISDE (Intelligence and Democratic Security Service). How can my family ever understand? But if I am not betrayed then all will be well. The only question is will it be too late for my family? They will have read terrible things about me, it must play a part, but I hope they know all this was pre-planned! If not then I must start all over again.
SATURDAY 30TH MARCH 2013
Yet again a good sleep last night just a touch cold but by and by all ok. This morning AC came to see me from the hospital wing and he said he would speak to the officer in charge to have me work down there. That will be good and I will help him with his extradition to Argentina. There is a Cypriot guy also serving nearly more years per pound. I give him the information he requires to be repatriated. I am doing well in blocking from my mind my family. I make no calls today and probably never will for the next good while. This job only works if one can stay strong because if not one places one’s life in serious danger. I will take back my family when these next two months pass. That is if they have been able to survive. I know my son Gianni will hate me. I have ruined his prospective but somehow I just know he will make good! Life is about decisions. I do not know if I have ever made the right decisions. I just did my best under terrible circumstances. This afternoon I received to email letters from Caroline. She is a treasure and tower of strength. It is quite incredible the support I have received. Those that count all know what has happened and that the prosecution is pure false but allows me to escape. I have had enough of wars, deaths and trying to change the system that refuses to change. This afternoon has gone good. Tomorrow going to church to pass the time given though time is passing quick. I try my best again to put out of my mind my family. It is not easy but necessary otherwise I would simply freeze and not survive. I am looking forward to the job in the hospital here, if that does get arranged. As all in life I expect nothing and as such seldom disappointed. So far so good! I hope it continues.
SUNDAY 31ST MARCH 2013
Last night did not sleep well. Tonight we stole one hour of time because the clocks went forward. One wonders if the government will indict me for stealing one hour! I was rather hoping to go to church today as it is Easter Sunday but for some reason that did not happen. Prison is about accepting the events and decisions if you want to get on. I do not think about my family I just have to accept whatever happens. Nothing administrational will happen until next week so just need to organize myself a job which will make life easier. Today was one of those days that I could call psychologically hard to obliterate all the memories of family. Yet, I have to do it. I have to forget the houses we lived in forget the children and simply not think of anything that might trigger any memories.
The question I ask myself is did I know this would be the case on 17th May 1972? I was just a boy. I was about to go to University reading English at Furzedown College part of London University. Then all changed - the result being serving a country that is not my own. Why did I do it? It has cost my family and children much. I dare not think of how, or if, my family are coping because if I do I will suffer. I suppose some may say that I should suffer but all that know me will realise that my trial and sentence are entirely politically dominated! I guess I am lucky I never surrendered my Italian citizenship. It will save me in due course. I just have to deal with the time. I am lucky because I am sharing with a truly decent person DB as it could be much worse. Tomorrow another holiday which means mostly, being locked up. But soon the working week will commence and I hope that conditions will improve.
MONDAY 1ST APRIL
Last night for the first time I dreamed about my wife and family. I dreamed that I received a parcel with bread the same kind that Harry’s bar used to supply me. I also dreamed I received a card with the word “Nonno” meaning granddad and that another baby came into the world. Then I got in my old Jaguar car going round and round. Today I wake up at 8.10 am a bit late but within a whisker the Chaplain came and asked if I wanted to go to Church next Sunday I said ‘yes.’ Later in the morning the induction course - all on the computer. Then a small lecture for my sins, and for attending the prison service add 1pound to my phone pin. Not that I will use it. I do not call anyone because I fear the news. Tomorrow I will probably put in the repatriation request even though earlier last week I had already done so. I maintain the total blank from my mind of family and situations. The only way one can survive is by being alone, having no family and I reiterate I must survive to prove my innocence. This job I do is dangerous and yes I feel afraid more so than when I was in Iraq or Serbia. Is though what it is!!!! My whole life has never been properly revealed. History will do that for me – I hope!
This afternoon I resist the temptation to call my son because I do not want to hear anything from the outside. It may sound odd but once again for me to survive, I need a clear mind.
Good news this afternoon I have started the repatriation process. The officer took my application and sent it to the prison immigration office. Boy is that a relief. Now I have to bide my time for the next 90 days so by 1st July 2012 all should be in hand and within six weeks the Italian sentence should be affirmed. It does not matter the sentence I can deal with it when in Italy. Frankly the day I leave England I will never set foot on English territory again and probably not even utter a word of English. Well we will see how it pars out but if I am to be betrayed I prefer it to be from my own country – Italy- rather than a country I served for 42 years and has betrayed me in such a way.
TUESDAY 2ND APRIL 2013
Yet again a very good nice sleep, this time I dreamed of Rev Page and the night my grandmother died and we went to Petrella Tifernini and stayed there a few days. Last night watched a nice film called “unknown” with Liam Neeson. My friend DB has decided not to go to Court as he was ill in the night but in the morning he is conned into going to Reception. There is much today on the news Paolo Di Canio and the media has made much about the political views he holds.
My friend Ken Bates Chairman of Leeds United Club needs a new manager. I wonder if my son Mike could get TF in, he speaks to me about him quite often very highly in regard with his managerial ability! Today I write to Caroline Bayford my saviour. I will never forget her loyalty. The political situation in Korea is escalating. I worry much about that frankly. Now and then I go through the total summation of my life. Has it all been worthwhile? I doubt it! What is unforgivable is the harm my life has caused my family. I have given loyalty to a country and a job that has continually betrayed me, yet I kept going back. Not anymore but I fear it is too late for me to recoup my relationship with my family and who can blame them! This afternoon my friend AC came to see me who told me that next week I will be working in the hospital which will be better because one works from 8.00am. to 8.00pm every day. I was also collected by the nurse in this new healthcare centre which is part of the NHS. The prison service has developed considerably over the past thirty years and it is much improved. The staff nurse has told me that one of the orderlies would be leaving next week which of course creates a space for me – one hopes! Prison promises do not always come to fruition because they are all subject to the usual covert. So far I am quite ok. I must deal with this tragedy and betrayal by simply shutting off to all. I also mean my family though but must deal with this as stated: - I am alone.
WEDNESDAY 3 APRIL 2013
It is quite incredible how I am able to sleep at night with a really deep sleep. I guess the tension is over and the act of betrayal completed. Last night DB returned from court. This morning I was taken down to what is called the ‘Resettlement Centre’ and interviewed by a lovely lady called Catherine. She recommended me for the jobs of hospital orderly or reception orderly. The officer told me that because of my sentence of 14 years my security grade would be B. Good job I am going back to Italy. I cannot but help think of my family today but its best to wipe all traces from my mind. One part of me tells me to call them, another tells me to just cancel everyone. This wrong must be righted but I cannot do anything until I reach Italy.
It looks today that in the next day or so I could be moved from E wing to C wing. Gosh today it’s been a credit here. Time has truly passed quickly. I wonder who will read this. If anything happens to me while in English prison, I hope that my children will leave no stone unturned. This afternoon I showered and then called my son Mike. I knew I should not have called. My wife is angry as hell but at the end of the day it is so easy to criticise me now that I am in a position of being defender. At the end of the day I did my best and history will absolve me. It will be hard to explain my actions but I always knew the risk of my job and what I do… may compromise my position with my family. Mike wants to come to see me so he will come on Friday he said. I can only but do my best, but there are things that for his own safety he cannot honour. I am sad tonight because of the situation with my family and my wife being upset. I hope she understands one day but I must move ahead and work only on repatriation which today I am told is on track.
THURSDAY 4TH APRIL 2013
Once again a good night’s sleep with a strange dream about a show call impersonating one another. Very strange but who knows what dreams mean any way. In the event this diary is read by my children and anything happens to me before I am released I hope they will make sure the matter is properly investigated. This morning I went to the Education Department and concentrated on Mathematics and English. It is surprising how the brain goes to sleep. Some of the questions I would normally have answered quickly, but this took me a while. This morning I again defragmented my mind erasing as much as possible the whole memory of my family. It will make life so much easier for the family to think badly of me, than the truth of what I do and have done for 42 years. Still in the interaction wing but hopefully soon should move to another wing. Today the Philpott family who killed six of their children in a deliberate fire was sentenced; the father received life… recommended serving a minimum of 15 years and the other two 17 year’s only three more than me!!!!!!!!!! Killing six children = 17 years yet my invented offence of fraud 14 years! Today I have a dilemma of what to do regarding Paul Bush a totally innocent man serving life in jail with 17 years recommended. His appeal has been refused only to ensure my conviction, an innocent man in jail, who has lost all. What do I do?
I am starting to feel a little tired as my eyes hurt. There is something strange going on because the officers on the section have doubled. Tomorrow I think my son Mike wants to come to see me. It’s not such a good idea but I have no choice… he wants to see me. Today I realise that at 57 years of age I am my age. I am tired of life and the job. Still must wait the necessary time to get back to Italy and then Je risolvo what affect will this have on my family? Only time and testing will tell. For the moment I must survive until I am repatriated.
FRIDAY 5TH APRIL 2013
Last night did not sleep so well. At 1.40am I wake up with a massive headache. Can’t sleep well every night I guess. Today my son did not come or maybe he did and was not allowed in. All in all I was rather glad, even though out of all of my children I do believe Mike is the closest to me but maybe Gianni is the same. Anna loves me as does Antony but they have their own lives. Milan is a great boy who may feel he has lost yet another dad. My job and what I do may well have cost my family far more than I thought. How do I feel today? Well I am able to obliterate all feelings but now and then I do get that lonely feeling.
As I have said before my family have lived in many houses all over the world but my house has always been my wife. Now I guess no more and I must accept it. There is little I can do and I know that my deals struck in prison are always subject to all the usual caveats and thus not valid. Today received an email from my angel Caroline. She is truly a loyal friend and a great editor. 17.23pm. - Well what a turn up for the book! Today at about 2.00pm I was called down to see the immigration department who told me they had a lot of phone calls about me. In short within the next couple of weeks the officer will do my deportation papers to deport me from the UK. Thank God what a blessing. I called my son who was happy and said he would call my wife. That means within the next 85 days I could be gone… out of here… to Italy and then of course deal with things from there. My book is doing well. I think that the people who really count understand all. Martin Brunt from Sky news sent a nice email. I had shared with him in advance what would happen to me so he was not surprised. Now basically it’s just countdown.
SATURDAY 6TH APRIL 2013
13.03 pm - Today I wake up at 8.15 am because last night I watched a film until past midnight. Monday Sarah Hall will be visiting me from Blackfords Solicitors. The weekend is always somewhat boring but time stands still for no person. Today I avoided using the phone especially as I have only very small money to spend and that must last me until I get back to Italy. I hope next week I can start to work. The situation in North Korea is getting worse by the day. After 10th April the situation will get even worse. The Americans, think that North Korea doesn’t have long range missiles with nuclear warheads. What a big mistake - they sure as hell do and they are not afraid of using them. Iran also has nuclear capacity and has had for the last six years. The weekends are always more tedious than the week but I try my hardest to put my family out of my mind. Sometimes I just cannot. For over two decades my wife has been always at the centre of my strength, although she will probably never know or believe. As I have already said one must understand although I have lived in many houses my home has been my family. But in my job one has to be able to simply walk away within milliseconds any damage from all. My problem is that whilst I can shut my mind off... I cannot walk away. But I will not be in contact until I am in Italy.
19.20pm - This afternoon I watched David Copperfield. I never tire of Charles Dickens books and the film versions. I quite like David Copperfield. I also will have to go away for a period of time before I can return to being myself again. This interim period is somewhat boring but when I signed up to all this I knew there would be times that time simply had to pass before one could move forward. It’s just as though that time does move forward, anyway regardless I had an awful thought today. Paul Bush was subpoenaed to ensure my conviction. That is pure evil from the state.
SUNDAY 7TH APRIL 2013
10.28am - One of the things you must remember in prison, is never to be disappointed, when you are expecting something to happen and it does not. Today I was expecting to go to church but was not opened so no church but enjoyed an episode of Roger Moore’s ‘The Saint’. Last night I reviewed the paper in the Paul Bush case. What a sick travesty of justice. To allow an innocent man to remain in jail for over twenty years simply to obtain a conviction for me! It is a sick government when that policy is followed.
Last night, again, a good sleep and woke up at 07.34am I made some tea and on BBC 2 watched a film. Frankly I cannot wait to get put on a plane back to Italy but that won’t be for a while yet and in the meantime my concentration must be work. Tomorrow Sarah and Gary will be coming to see me. The routine here is easy. Lunch is at 11.30 – 12.00 pm then dinner between 4.30 – 5.00pm but at the 4.30 – 5.00pm dinner we are given milk and cereal with tea bags for breakfast. There is a kettle in the cell so can make tea or coffee anytime. 10.38am whilst writing this cannot help but think of my family. Must do my best to clear my mind, as cannot afford these thoughts, if… I am to survive. 15.58pm - As all things in prison when you least expect it, it happens. The Roman Catholic Church was opened this afternoon so I attended. It passed at least one hour away and more important for the first time in ten days I breathed air and saw the sky. It was only for a very short time but enough to have an effect. Today it’s a cold tea which means cheese and bread but that it is ok. 17.06pm - Had a cheese sandwich with tea. Today is a particularly drag of a day, and I would not want anyone reading this to think it is easy. Yet again I try and I blank out of my mind my family but they are imprinted in my soul and will always be there. I have not heard, nor I guess will I hear, from my son Gianni. What a wicked world and a cruel job I have.
MONDAY 8TH APRIL 2013
10.05am – This morning at about 8.00am I was told to pack all my stuff and move to another wing. Of course there was anxiety simply, because one never knows who one will be sharing with and where one is going. My philosophy though is this is prison so where one goes matters not. So it’s B-13 and I enter the cell but do not know who I will be sharing with. Whoever it is I will simply adapt one way or another.
15.52pm – Well prison is full of surprises. After one hour in B-13 I was moved to D2-15 with a very nice guy who goes to education classes each day. This afternoon I saw Sarah Hall and we went through lots of things regarding confiscation. She will return tomorrow again. I saw also an old face who I had not seen since 1986. He is a true academic and one of the most knowledgeable persons I have ever met. His knowledge on architecture is without level. The cell in D wing is ok. This is basically a detox wing for drug addicts who have their doses of methadone each day. I called my son and it was great talking to him. He told me that my wife is in Rome and Gianni is home in Palma. I can do nothing… one of the facts of prison is that friendships or associates one has in jail can be ended within seconds by a move or transfer. My friend Demetrius is on another wing so I doubt I will see him again. My aim though is simply to get to Italy no more - no less. Tomorrow Sarah Hall will hopefully update me.
19.02pm – The death of Margaret Thatcher has been announced, so many changes to the political world. I called my son Mike today who wants to see me. He told me that Gianni is in Palma alone. It is certainly a worry but there is nothing I can do about anything. I can do nothing about anything until I get to Italy. My feeling though is that all in all I had better get used to living life alone.
TUESDAY 9TH APRIL 2013
10.41am – For some unknown reason I did not sleep at all well last night. There is absolutely no reason why that should be so, but it is. At about 07.00am I had palpitations of the heart when I laid down on my left side. That was a real scare. The moment I rolled over it was ok. This morning I was able to read ‘Inside Time’ and I noticed a letter from my friend Jonathan King about the Chris Huhne case. It does seem that Jonathan King has not forgotten his prison experience and is an active campaigner. I was able to look at a case today involving immigration law and boy oh boy did it tire me. My thoughts now and then wonder to when I get back to Italy. Have much to do and even more to explain to Gianni. I also though very much get the idea I truly will be alone for a long time. I do have a few options and safe houses in Firenze and Genoa but who knows if I will be able to be shall we say facilitated?
19.11pm – This afternoon I saw Sarah Hall and Gary Bloxsome and it was really nice. They will come back Thursday and fast track everything. Today on the news a man mass murderer in Belgrade who killed 13 people. Funny, I often asked my wife if there existed a serial killer in Serbia. Now the answer is yes! The word has got around that I am in Wandsworth and of course many want just an informal opinion on their cases. Well I will do my best. They may have imprisoned my body but not my mind. There is however, an old saying that when you want to catch a chicken you must expect to sweat a little. This evening the officer gave me my foreign PIN so I can call abroad but I will not. I have sent my son a visiting order. I am not sure it is such a good idea but anyway I owe it to him. He is a great boy. I won’t ever forget how upset he was when I was sentenced. But I must face life - for now - alone.
WEDNESDAY 10TH APRIL 2013
09.24am – Last night had a great sleep. It is strange that one has to come to prison to get a good night’s sleep. I was watching on TV the news that the three main Directors of the Bank HBOS none were qualified in any way. Their incompetence has cost the taxpayer £40 Billion yet none of them have been charged or even investigated. C’est la Vie! This morning early I was called for a random drug test. It was actually hard to go to the toilet but after drinking some water I was able to provide a sample. The results will come back within a week. I now have access to some newspapers after almost two weeks here. Well things take time. I still cannot get out of my mind the case of Paul Bush. To think that an innocent man is in jail for life, simply to obtain a conviction for me, is monstrous.
10.57am - Today was able to go to the library and use the computer and borrow Archbold 2002. It’s ironic the 2002 edition because that is the year we won the R-v-Palmer case. I am now paying the price for the victory.
14.09pm – The only problem with the wing is the allocation of food. The servery is nearly always giving me the wrong choice. Yes choice! There is a choice of six different types and two sweets. Tomorrow Sarah Hall will come to see me again and maybe will update me on the repatriation although realistically have at least another month to go if not a little longer.
18.00pm – This afternoon I went to the library again and carried out some research. The whole point of prison is to accept the fact you are in prison. The sooner you do that the better. I did that on day one. I have not received any letters or communications from anyone. It makes life so much easier. Caroline sent me an email and once I get my stamps I can reply directly. I learned a new saying today “If you see a tiger attacking a man don’t stand there laughing or run away because it will come after you next.” How very true.
THURSDAY 11TH APRIL 2013
08.23am – Watched a film last night that finished very late but this morning was up anyway. Will try and get to the library today but there is a shortage of staff so it is not very likely. I will be seeing the immigration officer on Tuesday and hopefully things will be on the move. This morning I was reflecting on life in general. In the last 43 years I have done everything with the best of intentions. I did my job in a true and correct fashion, not giving a hoot for my family and the consequences of the “exit strategy” for each of my jobs. Yes, I always end up a winner but in this job there are no winners. How do I know that? In two weeks only Caroline, dear Caroline has actually written to me. My family, quite correctly are angry as hell and as a consequence I must face the future alone.
10.52am – Decided not to go to the library. Realised today that nothing can really happen until after the 27th April 2013 which is the day when my appeal rights lapse. Even though the immigration know I will not appeal the time must still pass. Technicalities are technicalities and must be adhered to. I was thinking about when I get to Italy. It seems that I may well up in either Florence or Genoa have not yet decided. There is a choice but I will need to know much more information before deciding. I must always bear in mind that when trying to catch a chicken I must expect to sweat a little.
14.52pm – Saw Sarah Hall this afternoon. She will come again on Tuesday. It seems my son Michael will see me on Monday. Today I saw a man with white hair and a long white beard in a wheelchair. What is the point of keeping such a man locked up? I saw my friend Demetrius today also. He will ask to come to D wing. It will be better for him.
18.39pm – Will just have to bide my time at least for the twenty eight days after the bogus conviction. There was no post today. How do I feel being alone? Just alone!
FRIDAY 12TH APRIL 2013
07.36am – Had a good night’s sleep again. A great cup of tea and time passes quickly. Last night watched an enjoyable film called ‘It’s Complicated’ Life can, if you allow it to, be really complicated.
09.01am – this morning I washed the walls of the room. It looks a lot brighter now - a cup of coffee and a peak at the news. The situation in North Korea dominates the agenda. I know a lot about the missiles the North Koreans have. They have boosters made in China that can travel not 2,500 miles but nearly 4,000! That reminds me of an old saying ‘when two elephants have a misunderstanding it is the trees that suffer. ‘
10.20am – Finally I have five first class stamps. So I can write to a few people. Today an officer came to my room and asked if an old client of mine could come to see me this afternoon. I joked and said I would cancel my lunch at the Ritz and wait for him.
14.19 pm – Was notified today that Mike will come to see me on Monday at 09.45am. This afternoon had another spring clean of the room. My God it is looking like a study. It’s amazing the ingenuity of man even under harsh circumstances.
17.01pm – Today my friend came to see me. It was truly nice to talk to another Italian. He wants me to go to C-wing but I will have to think about it. No post today either. A bit disappointed but then how can I expect anyone to write to me? and - if they do write – about what? No! I must just bide my time and simply wait the transfer to Italy. It’s not so bad here anyway. Tonight will watch another 9pm film. Tomorrow will look at an extradition case. That will tax my brains a bit. And, in the meantime - time passes. Yesterday coming back from seeing Sarah Hall I saw the photos of two of my clients – William Joyce and Ronnie Biggs. It felt strange seeing two clients photos as ‘notorious’ inmates that passed through Wandsworth. One can only wonder if one day I will have my photo also there.
SATURDAY 13TH APRIL 2013
08.39am – Woke up today at 07.13am. I have not had a nice day on this date since 2009. Well today is going to be different. In life though, you cannot simply airbrush the past. Many have tried, even I, but it is rarely successful. Today will be locked up most of the day but I have an extradition case to read so time will pass and I do seem to be able to sleep good anyway. On Tuesday my roommate ‘David A’ will go for bail. He was due to be deported and almost on the plane but having looked at his case the matter is not so simple, as it seemed. So Tuesday he goes for bail.
13.48pm – This morning I was called out to a visit! I waited in a room for about one hour but nobody arrived. In prison you must get quickly accustomed to administrative mistakes. I did though meet a very pleasant man from Farouk who was in for a massive fraud. He accepted all without any worry. He had a big smile on his face and was wearing expensive Churchill shoes. I am eating less and less each day. The food is ok just one has to get used to regular meals of light quantity.
17.06pm – Today passed very quickly. In fact time is flying by without any mercy. I wonder for a while who was the visitor who had booked to see me because I have only authorized Mike to see me. Well, does it matter? I must remember the story of the man who wants to look inside a bottle. He can only use one eye! Today though I wondered what I will do after I arrive in Italy. The last time was 1992 and I went to my village then went to Rome and then to Belgrade. My options are this time somewhat limited. I can choose Florence, Genoa in or Doha! But going to Qatar without my family seems to me a no go area. I mean why would I go there alone? It is the place for my son! It is the place that can make him into what he wants to be and I am protected there fully! The question is – ‘Why would I need protection?’
SUNDAY 14TH APRIL 2013
08.11am – I have a plan! On the 24th April 2013 my twenty eight days will have elapsed since sentence. That means that the deportation order will be effective. Once that date passes I can push to be moved and push I will. Today though I must protect Tariq Aziz and Paul Bush so I will write to his Holiness to do what he can for Tariq Aziz and the CCRC re Bush. Woke up today 07.19am – The weather is turning.
10.42am – Am writing to Silvio Berlusconi to update him on what is happening and to help speed up an already speedy repatriation. I must also write to His Holiness re Tariq Aziz who now has no one to protect him.
12.46pm LUNCH – Roast Chicken leg, Brussel Sprouts, Roast Potato, gravy – rice pudding with jam!
DINNER: Cheese salad with Panini rolls, an apple, and cheese and onion crisps!
Next week if I get to the education department will start writing new articles.
16.41pm – I was reviewing an Extradition Act 2003 on a case involving Argentina and in this particular case S.K. (c) has not been made out. Now, that would normally not produce much problem except that the person has been here for three years. Yes, three years and it looks like this coming week he may well be out. But why should it take three years? Why so long? In the case of Argentina, the government here is enticing the human rights of the country when this country keeps a man here for three years! I despair. I called Mike today. He sounded good. He told me my wife is now back in Spain. There is nothing I can do but just wait until after the 24th April. I replied to Caroline today. Thank heavens for her. I have yet to meet a more loyal and reliable friend And a talented editor! She has totally amazed me this last year. A woman driven by the art of getting it right! I hope she publishes her cookery book! Tonight there is the film ‘The Krays.’ Incredible as the project was offered to me by Lisa in 1988 and I turned it down. What a mistake I made. Well, can’t always get it right. Now and then all make mistakes.
MONDAY 15TH APRIL 2013
08.09am – This morning woke up at 05.34am and reviewed some papers in the extradition case. Make tea and watched an episode of ‘The Saint’ Still not cleared for work but in prison what some fail to understand, is that time passes regardless. So today I will go to the Library and use the computer a while.
12.44pm – Went to the Library today to research some law. Whilst there chatted with Peter W the brightest academic I have known. There was a reading group in the Library. Most interesting to see Ladies give up part of their day to teach people to read.
LUNCH: Chicken noodles, rice, chicken burger and hot cross bun.
DINNER: Fish cakes, broccoli rice, potatoes, chocolate ice cream.
The policy of the prison service seems to be to try and teach all the basics of reading, writing and mathematics. However that means those who want advance levels of education suffer. Strange policy but that is the government.
15.47pm – It is incredible how many foreigners here are in jail. It is a serious problem that must be addressed. Today I helped a fellow Italian serving 12 months for cloning credit cards. He speaks little English – so he says – but then again the cloning of credit cards requires only IT skills not language! Then there was a Turkish guy who cannot write English so I wrote an application for him. It is truly incredible how fast time passes. Maybe it’s my age!
17.31pm – tomorrow my roommate DI will go for bail. He should get bail as it’s only an immigration matter. It’s still too early for the post yet but Thursday I will start to work and tomorrow hopefully my deportation order is ready.
18.28p, - One of the problems that I will have to resolve is my eyesight. Obviously with the eyes focusing only short distance and limited colours it will be a problem but somehow I will deal with it. Today I smelt the odor of perfume on a lady officer. It was interesting. Obviously the sooner I go back to Italy the better but the timeframe must be respected or too much suspicion will fall on all of us.
TUESDAY 16 APRIL 2013
07.21am - Today I woke up at 06.05am as the Officer came to fetch my roommate David A. I sincerely hope and pray that the Immigration Judge will grant him bail. Today I will see the Immigration Officer myself to see if my deportation order is ready.
07.40am – More senseless murder by two bomb blasts in Boston at the finish line of the Marathon. When will people learn that murder achieves nothing?
11.03am– Spent the morning translating for some inmates with the Immigration Officer. It is incredible the problems people have. The regulations for Romanian Citizens, albeit being EU citizens, must find a job and pay tax in the UK within three months, otherwise subject to removal. I also talked with the Immigration Officer about my Mother and she told me she had received phone calls about me and would let me have an update on matters. However, not much can happen before my twenty eight days time frame has expired for appeal. NB.pm- Very nice lunch today.
LUNCH: Chicken Sausage, French Fries, peas, Rice and Chocolate Cake/Apple.
DINNER: Rice, Egg, Cheese and Bacon Flan, Potatoes and Doughnut with Jam.
13.43pm- I was watching “Reach for the Sky” the film about Douglas Baker. The ace pilot in the Second World War who flew without legs! I remembered that in 1970 he gave me a prize at Wellingborough School for English. Whenever there was a battle he was ready. I think I was like that, and am still like that. Will I ever change?
16.03pm – Today I received notice that Dec Cluskey of ‘The Bachelors’’ wants to see me. How very kind. I saw Sarah Hall today and she will come to see me again in two weeks. An Italian on extradition on another Wing wants to see me. I will help as many people as I can within the ambits of my capabilities.
17.36pm– David A is back. He has to prove he is drug free and then bail will be within his reach. Watched the film ‘Zulu’ strange it was the first film I saw as a boy in the cinema in 1964. Again it shows that only by fighting can adversity be achieved.
WEDNESDAY 17 APRIL 2013
07.38am- Slept like a log. At about 4am I heard some screams coming from another wing. It must have been someone hallucinating. One must always remember that the majority of people coming to prison are because of drugs or alcohol. It is a vicious circle.
10.28am- Today is the funeral of Lady Thatcher at St Paul’s. I have fond memories of having met her on no less than three occasions. As a result the prison is in what is known as lockdown.
LUNCH: Rice, potatoes, Vegetables, Chicken Sausage and Chicken Leg with Sweet.
DINNER: Chicken Kiev, Rice, Vegetables and Ice Cream
12.52pm- Today, because of total lockdown, the whole normal routine has been changed but for me it’s no problem at all. Feel a little weak today but I will be ok.
15.37pm- Received letters from Mike and Caroline. I must try and find out how to send a visiting Order because here it’s all automatic. Nothing has been heard about N. Korea for a while. What the US/UK doesn’t realize is that they have nuclear warheads. Their MUSUDAN missiles have boosters that extend their range from 2,500 mile to nearly 4,500 and Nodong rockets. The US Patriot missiles that Japan has as interceptors are no use to man or beast since there is technology the N Koreans have bought from Pakistan that blocks interceptors. I guess they will use such to get talks!
18.32pm- Tomorrow I will go to the Education Department so I will be able to use the computer all day. It will make life a little easier; though easier, what I am experiencing is quite hard.
20.14pm- Sometimes when I watch a film or TV in general I truly simply forget that I am in here. But then I have always been like that. I simply make the best with the materials I have in hand. Whilst the World around me may well be collapsing or fraught with peril, I simply ignore the peril and work through fire. Well soon I will be back in Italy and things will quickly turn around. The story will then begin to unravel.
THURSDAY 18 APRIL 2013
07.09am- Had a wonderful sleep yet again. At times I feel somewhat guilty about just how good I sleep. The whole point is that when a person knows himself he has done nothing wrong, no matter what the punishment, it does not hurt. This morning woke up to yet another massive explosion in America. Lord knows how many dead. I must this week write to the CCRC re Paul Bush. I must stop this lazy trend in me!
12.19pm- An extremely pleasant lunch:-
LUNCH: Rice, Vegetables, Fish Cake, Chocolate Cake.
DINNER: Rice, Carrots, Broccoli, Potato, Fish Haddock Pie, Cheese and Biscuits, Ice Cream.
12.25pm- Went to the Education Department today brushed up on my homophone’s, synonyms etc. It was refreshing to use the brain again. One of the not so pleasant niceties of life inside is to witness a fight which occurred today at lunch time. Completed today the ‘notice to withdraw deportation’ for my roommate David. I hope it helps.
17.28pm- Received letter from Caroline and Mike and Nicholas Wood the academic who supported me over the Tony Blair prosecution. Attended Education Department and sat a short exam. Mike tells me all is more or less stable and OK. I am awaiting my deportation papers after which I can move forward. In the meantime a good learning curve here with lots of interesting cases. I will try calling my son today but not sure if able.
18.52pm- I did call Mike today and boy was it nice to hear him. I can do very little now, but…and what a but when I get to Italy it is a totally new ballgame. Today also a fellow Italian who speaks no English, I was able to ensure he is transferred to another prison and then quickly sent to Italy. I have not yet seen how the OPC Site looks like for the last three weeks but Caroline, God bless her, is doing a great job. What an editor she truly is. It must be in the blood. Thank God for loyalty.
FRIDAY 19 APRIL 2013
07.38am- Yet another great night’s sleep. The news today is still about the two incidents in Boston, USA. Is there any connection between the Boston bombing and the massive explosion of a factory near Waco? There is more to this than has been stated of that I am sure!
12.42pm- Was all morning in the library and had a great chat with Lord Davenport, a truly nice man who has been well and truly stitched up. I also met with Emilio P an Italian auditor who was the founder of Volare Web Airline, another truly nice person. So many really nice people tend to end up in jail. I may go back to the Library later.
LUNCH: Fish and Chips, with a Peach Yoghurt and Coffee.
DINNER: Paella with Cake and Custard.
15.19pm- It was nice to receive an old friend of mine today for advice on extradition. It is a truly interesting case involving a request from Argentina to extradite a person but the Extradition Act 2002 S.78 has not been complied with and as such I doubt he can be sent to Argentina. The only problem is he has been here now for three years and lost everything he has outside – a total tragedy. In law no matter who wins or loses there are no winners only losers!
18.54pm- Received letter from Caroline and notice that Mike will be visiting tomorrow. That will be good but after that I will not take any more visits. The news today is that one of the alleged bombers of Boston has been shot dead. Well how convenient! Dead men tell no tales. Caroline tells me that the newspaper is going well I am pleased because it is truly a great concept. When I get to Italy I will deal with all those people who thought they had cheated me. It’s funny reading that the Twat with Slit (TWS) is still rambling on about me. Well what can you expect from a 60 year old ‘wanna be… would have been… but’. If she only got a job! Well she is almost of pensionable age anyway.
SATURDAY 20 APRIL 2013
07.56am-Woke up at 05.36am with the noise outside of some person, who again was hallucination or having a nightmare. This is a major problem here the mental health of people. It is also quite incredible the amount of people who cannot read or write. The education system, in this Country, must have gone to the wall over the last thirty years.
13.20pm- Nice Lunch.
LUNCH: Cheeseburger, Chips, Beans, Hot Cross Bun.
DINNER: Cottage Pie with Rice, Pear, Maze, Carrots and a Chocolate Doughnut.
13.21pm- Saw my son. It was nice and truly reinvigorating. Had a coffee and a Kit-Kat and talked about many things. I will not though see anyone else until I return to Italy. Today or at least by tomorrow really must do some work.
15.34pm- Will watch ‘Zulu’ again. The Zulu Wars really do teach a lot. They were and are a highly educated nation. Today I saw the Immigration Officer. My Deportation Order is YES ready!!
17.29pm I never tire of the film Zulu! But for me the good news is that my Deportation Order is ready. But it can’t be served until after Tuesday. That is correct of course as the law must be applied properly. Today I was talking to an Iraqi who seeks repatriation. He asked me about prison conditions in Baghdad. I told him that Baghdad central prison is a million times better condition than here – Why? Because it is new and the US spent almost £100 million in rebuilding it.
17.35pm- Watching the news today somehow reminded me of the operation I took part in 1975, in Ireland, involving the Little John Brothers and ensuring one ‘escaped’ Jail. I was very young and very scared but I did it. Would I do it all over again? No bloody way! I don’t regret 17 May 1972 but I would refuse some of the ‘tasks’ I was given. I almost feel suckered into things others would not do. Well if that is the case it’s too late for regrets now!
SUNDAY 21 APRIL 2013
08.16AM- What a sleep! Wow! Never slept so good in all my life! Last night watched the Sunderland game. Incredible all of the enthusiasm of Paolo Di Canio but he has delivered the result. This life seems to be only about results not how they are achieved. Now something about the prison system: Basic, Standard and Enhanced! Here there is a class divide. There are three classes of inmates: - Basic -means no television and is what one could say ‘low’ class. Standard means television, association with other inmates’ possibility of spending money to buy articles and that can be called ‘middle’ class. Finally- Enhanced status you can wear your own clothes; can be unlocked for an hour or so in the evening and a few other privileges and that can be called ‘high’ class. So in prison there is a class divide.
LUNCH: Leg of chicken with roast potatoes, vegetables and cake with custard.
DINNER: Cheese salad with fruit and bread rolls freshly baked.
11.11am I was reading a pre-sentence report of an inmate who will be sentenced next week. There is an amazing phrase in his reply “I am running out of life to live!” Touché!
13.29pm- It seems the politician Chris Huhne is back here from open prison. Of course the talk is why he was sent back… especially after he was favored and rushed to open prison? Well for my part philosophically prison is prison and whether you are in a stately home or locked in a Victorian Establishment like this, makes little difference. But if he is sent back for breaking some rule then it shows the UK nearly had a Deputy Prime Minister who should not have been. In fact he was not. Must be destiny kicking in!
15.46pm- Went to Church, Found out that I am soon to go back to Italy! Yes! I can also have the option of moving room to another wing where there is more liberty. We shall see!
17.37pm- I can’t help but think again of the inmate who wrote ‘I am almost running out of life left to live!” Called my son today told him regarding my pending removal to Italy.
MONDAY 22 APRIL 2013
07.24am- Did not sleep well last night as too much noise in the building most of the night. It seems the Tottenham victory over Chelsea set people off. Well, just because one is in prison does not stop the passion for sport! A wonderful cup of tea made for me makes all ok!
11.24am- Went to the Education Department today. It was good to brush up again on the short history of the World. The lack of Wars has increased the prison population, the majority of which are from foreign or poorer classes. It is good to return to learning.
LUNCH: Homemade beef and kidney pie, rice, peas, carrots, suede, and cake.
DINNER: Lamb Burger with rice and ice cream/coffee.
1320pm- It is interesting that at any one time there is a choice of seven different meals and choice of either potato or rice on the side. One vice that is hard to complain about, the food and all at the cost of the taxpayer.
17.19pm- It is quite tiring going back to education. Many economical and philosophical concepts, I had forgotten, have been placed back in my head. Tonight feel tired so will go to sleep no later than half past ten. I still have not written to the CCRC re Paul Bush. That is a sign of irresponsibility in me that I must try and shake off quickly. “I am running out of life left to live.”
19.04pm- A wonderful letter from Caroline. She truly is a wonderful person and the most terrific editor. OPC and its spirit must not be allowed to wither and it won’t I am sure. I am not certain about seeing anyone on visit! I really need to go under the radar at the moment until I get back to Italy. Tomorrow its 28 days so I must wait a day further. Tonight feel tired and yes miss my family but I try not to think about it.
TUESDAY 23 APRIL 2013
07.38am- Woke up at 02.48am with a headache but got back to sleep again fairly quickly. The mistake I made was not opening the window a little grrr! Lesson learnt! Today I will go back to Education Department for the day. It’s refreshing back to “school”. On Thursday I may take part in the play King Lear. We see how I feel!
LUNCH: Moroccan minced lamb with potatoes and chips with cake.
DINNER: Hawaiian chicken leg with steamed rice with spotted dick and custard.
12.53pm- This morning was interesting. Some law students came to lecture on family law. One Malaysian female student spoke with me and I was able to offer some words of wisdom. I hope she does well as she has a great attitude. Believe it or not all those that attended (four of us) even got a certificate of attending. An interesting situation for me! This morning one inmate had a heart attack, died and was revived by ambulance people. That caused a temporary lockdown. Oh well!
18.33pm- Today in the afternoon two other law students came to deliver a lecture on Housing Law and lo and behold another certificate. How interesting that one needs to come to prison to get certificate for law lectures! The whole system today went into lockdown simply because of the ‘death’ or ‘hospitalisation’ of a 40 year old inmate with a heart attack. I received a letter from Caroline who frankly amazes me more and more each day. I have a print out of the front page and its great…Simply great. What a totally loyal and able person and to think we have only ever met once in four years! OPC is truly maintaining the spirit of investigative journalism.
18.40pm- I have received a few immigration cases and I have to say the level of advice to inmates subject to deportation by lawyer is frankly on the verge of ‘bollocks’. Anyway, I have had to write letters for many simply because they cannot write. The situation is incredible!
WEDNESDAY 24 APRIL 2013
07.25am- Last night a person was banging his door like crazy. No one could seem to get him to stop until another inmate shouted for him to stop as people were trying to sleep. This shows that when authority fails it is the community itself that can police itself! Today is the 28th day since sentence so from today I am subject to returning to Italy. We shall see how the system works. Today back to the Education Department!
LUNCH: Breaded turkey burger and bun with rice and vegetables and cake.
DINNER: Breaded fish with sultana rice, peas, carrots and ice cream.
12.07pm- As always in prison any type of friendships can quickly be ended by one of the parties being moved. David A was bailed today on the application I made so that is a true success story. One person who was down for deportation the law saved him. So another person has been brought to my room. No problems but now is the time I can move perhaps to B or C wing. Today completed the Education Course and tomorrow will join the drama group. King Lear is on the agenda.
14.27pm- Today in the afternoon is total lockdown so good chance to catch up on my correspondence. It is interesting to note that Abu Qatada can now stay in the UK. Leave to appeal to the Supreme Court for the Government has been quite properly refused. Let’s see what they do now. He must be relieved!
17.24pm- A wonderful e-mail from Caroline. Boy oh boy thank God for her! I do look forward to the news she brings. I try not to think of my family in order to make things easier. We shall see how much longer I will wait but at heart another three weeks!
18.38pm-I have never felt like writing to my family more than tonight but I must stay firm because if one loses the plot here it can be seriously complicated. I need to think things out more and review the situation. In the meantime tomorrow is drama!!
THURSDAY 25 APRIL
07.22am-Woke up at 03.00am because my new roommate woke up. He will serve at most a maximum of two months for a fracas with his wife but with good behavior etc could be reduced to a quarter of that time. Well that is what surviving and tolerance is about. This morning drama group and it is King Lear.
LUNCH: Cheeseburger and bap with steamed rice and fresh fruit.
DINNER: Chicken and mushroom flan with savoury rice, cheese and crackers.
12.18pm- Some really good news today. I am offered a job in the Healthcare/Hospital which will make my time pass much quicker and be of major difference to the quality of detention. Today at drama was good. I played the part of Edmund in King Lear. Now will just wait to see the role and job I have to do.
15.08pm- Went over to the hospital to start work. It is really good job at last one works from 07.30am to 07.00pm at night, seven days per week and it’s a nice unit. In effect one only goes back to the room at night to sleep.
18.43pm-Tonight I feel quite hot because of work I caught some sun in the afternoon. Received a letter from Mike, he is off to Italy for three days for his treatment. I cannot quite understand why he cannot now get the correct treatment in the UK. Tonight is the Chelsea game but also a wonderful programme about bears. They are quite some creatures. This afternoon I remembered the book ‘Papillon’ by Henri Charriere. He remembers the look on the faces of the jury at his murder trial and the satisfaction they had when finding him ‘guilty’!! I must say… I also have thought of that for quite a while but I will address those issues when I am in Italy. Whether it was right to have police officers and a member of the security services on my jury? I can bide my time.
FRIDAY 26 APRIL
07.54am- Woke up usual time and ready to go to work at the hospital. Today is raining quite hard as opposed to yesterday that was sunny. Still have not done letter to CCRC for Paul Bush. I will get around to it. I must!
09.05am- One of the factors one must accept in prison is the fact that nothing is certain. As the medical staff, have not collected me yet one can only presume that the job I was offered will not now be. Once one can accept broken promises there is no problem. It is something like normal life: - nothing is certain and a god majority of people are here by a consequence of broken promises. So today I just relax and watch some film.
LUNCH: Roast chicken with steamed rice and desert.
DINNER: Fish pie with savory rice and homemade cake.
12.13pm-Mystery solved regarding work or shall we say no work today. The staff called an urgent meeting. Things here are very tense because of too much containment. It does not affect me but some who have dependencies it’s a big problem. So in the little time that one is opened there are issues to resolve. A vicious circle!
18.34pm-On the news just now my friend Max Clifford to be charged with eleven counts of indecent assault! My God… The government is going after everyone from News of the World, the Sun and now Max Clifford. But today Peter Wayne one of the most intelligent men I have met here got a suspended. He will now have a real chance, having never ever been given a chance before. I told him after reading his probation reports that a suspended sentence was the appropriate. Thank God for some correct Judges. Today has not been all total lock down with officers brought in from other prisons. I thought a lot about my family today. It’s going to be hard to keep up one defragmented mind but I will do my best.
SATURDAY 27 APRIL
07.14am Woke up at just before 07.00am. Could not help but think about my friend Max Clifford who for forty years has created the news. Now he has made it. I despair for justice. I mean ‘indecent assault’ allegations between 1966-1985? It is simply absurd. All men are at risk! I also wonder how Peter W is going to manage. It is the first time he has been given a chance when transgressing the law! I wish him well. A man whose expertise on architecture I have never met!
10.48am-Well as usual prison is about injustice. The intelligent person I wrote about yesterday Peter W yesterday received a suspended sentence. He should have been released but somehow he is STILL here and of course it’s Saturday and no one gives a flying fuck about false imprisonment. Oh well what can one do! Worse is the indifference here about genuine problems!!
10.52am-Ten days or so ago I went for a ‘random’ drug test. Today the results came back – of course negative!
LUNCH: Cumberland sausages, mashed potato, chips and desert.
DINNER: Battered fish and chips with sweet and custard.
15.37pm-Found out about Peter W! The prison has not received the paperwork from the Old Bailey and they simply could not care a less! A man has been given a chance by the Courts, and the Prison Service simply to do nothing. They are quite capable of rectifying the mistake they simply choose a policy of containment rather than assistance. Something is going seriously wrong with the system. What is worse is that the situation is the same World over. We have digressed! I despair for justice!
18.19pm-Have completed a 100 piece jigsaw puzzle called “impossipuzzle” Yes it took three days and many times I wanted to throw the damn thing away but I never surrender and did it. Of late I am missing my family but must remain strong and simply defragment my mind all the time. Now and then though it’s impossible and I just can’t help thinking. They are my life!
SUNDAY 28 APRIL 2013
07.39am-Woke up at just past 6am. The news is that Italy has a government. That will make my removal from here easier. I could not but help of Peter W stuck in here when he received a suspended sentence, a weekend in jail without lawful cause. This morning will go out in the yard for a while. The weather, I think, permits. I still have not written to the CCRC regarding Paul Bush. This trait in me in laziness must stop!
10.49am-Went to the yard today and had a great conversation with Emilio an Italian accountant, here, on extradition. Such a nice man, with a wonderful family, educated, cultured and Italian. We had a nice talk. His lawyers told him some untrue things about me but that is normal. I have no issues with truths or untruths. My sole issue is to get back to Italy at the earliest! That of course is easier from today with Italy having a government. Now we will expedite matters quickly.
LUNCH: Roast chicken, roast potatoes, vegetables, cake and custard.
DINNER: Cheese salad, fruit and crisps.
15.24pm-Went to church this afternoon. Saw Antonello and Emilio. It was great to talk my own language. I hear tomorrow I will start work but if not, no problem, I can always go to the education department. Received an email from Caroline, it was her birthday. I hope she placed the event on OPC. I would have sent her present and flowers had I been out. Well have to be belated.
17.22pm-Had a nice cheese roll. I am looking at a case involving the Fraud Act 2006. A man is accused of making a misrepresentation that he is a ‘film producer’. How silly. You, need nothing to be a film producer or a profession. No qualifications are required. In fact most film producers are just up-market conmen! I talked with Peter W who is unlawfully detained. He has resigned himself with dealing with the matter tomorrow. Nothing really more can be done.
MONDAY 29 APRIL 2013
07.02am-Had a great sleep. Will have to wait and see if I go to the hospital for work but if not will go to education department. Last week was really good rehashing old stuff. Much of the facts I had forgotten. For example DEMOCRACY is ‘people power’! ARISTOCRACY is the ‘best people!’ it’s good to refresh!
12.47pm-What a nice morning. Went to the Education Department and basically refreshed my computer skills. There is so much more to computers and Microsoft that I simply did not know. I then did the cleaning and spruced the place up. My job in the hospital is on hold which is why to expect always nothing in prison and you are rarely disappointed. Peter W was released this morning. He left a lovely note. I wish him well.
LUNCH: Two turkey burgers, rice, carrots, peas with biscuits or sweet.
DINNER: Beef lasagna with ice cream and desert.
18.00-Had a great afternoon in the library. Met Lord D and Emilio Fratto had general conversation. The time passed quickly. Tomorrow I may go to B wing with Emilio. Received three letters from Caroline and one email from Mike. Certainly Caroline has saved my sanity and inspired me to carry on. I heard from Mike regarding my family and of course I am sad but that is that. I must just forcible wipe everyone out of my mind just in case I get a betrayal. We shall see how the deportation goes. It is early days of course and I am still not settled here properly but will be OK. Next week if I don’t start really a full time job will be a bit boring but must do my best. What I do know is that the like of TWAT WITH SLIT for example has achieved nothing by the pure lies she has told but it’s OK. As I have said where the law fails to help, justice will intervene. It needs to intervene really quickly. In the meantime must just do my best!
TUESDAY 30 APRIL 2013
07.17am- Went to sleep at 10.30pm last night. Wrote to His Holiness Pope Francesco I regarding Tariq Aziz, as I am in no position to help Mr Aziz. I hope the Vatican can help him. I wonder and hope the Inter American Human Rights commission can help. That has been in since 2005. The law takes its time whilst Tariq Aziz is dying. Maybe today I will move to B wing…We will see!
11.28am- Today moved from D wing finally to B wing. First I was in B2-11 but within 30 minutes to B-02 together with a new roommate: - a solicitor for Clyde and Co serving five years for perverting the course of justice. I hope later today or tomorrow I will go down to B1 landing. What a funny thing to be with a solicitor from Clyde and Co.
LUNCH: Fish and chips with peas and fresh fruit.
DINNER: Spiced minced lamb with rice and homemade cake.
16.43pm- This afternoon in education I took the class into a short lesson in the criminal justice system. It passed the time and educated some into the realities of life and the law. Today the repatriation clerk came to see me and brought me the forms to complete. The process begins but I must still blank from my head all that is outside. I know my mail will be delayed but that is just how it is!
20.01pm- This evening has been great. Many are now writing for simple advice. One of the interesting factors for example in indictments based on the Criminal law Act 1977 s.1. is whether the s.4 has been compiled with. Has the DPP given leave? If not then the conviction must be quashed. I hope tomorrow though I can change rooms in order to work better… so many with serious problems. Tomorrow will go to the Education department and afternoon in the library. This evening I truly miss my family so much but must put all out of my mind or things will collapse Gary Bloxsome will come to see me next week.
WEDNESDAY 1 MAY 2013
07.24am- Woke up today at about 7am to the news on BBC that three British soldiers killed in Afghanistan. What the hell are the British doing in Afghanistan anyway? I have yet to receive a reply to that! Today I will go to the Education Department and use the time to brush up on my computer skills. Have to say, having looked last night at a repatriation case from Germany to England, I do begin to have some concerns. Not really strong concerns but just background issues. I hope I do not get betrayed!
11.59am-What a tiring morning! Really worked my guts out at Education! Need good lunch!
LUNCH: Roast chicken with rice and green beans. Sweet - ice cream.
DINNER: Tuna salad sandwich with orange.
This morning the Senior Officer from the hospital saw me and asked why I had not been collected to work. I of course have no idea so she said she would come to see me. I won’t hold my breath! Some really interesting cases here, a hive of learning.
17.56pm- Some shocking news tonight that William Roach has been arrested for an indecent assault that occurred in 1967??? They also searched his house! I mean what did they expect to find? My God this country is so vindictive. Bill Roach is of course Ken Barlow in Coronation Street! On a more important note the Repatriation Clerk today took my application for return to Italy. I truly hope I am not betrayed!
18.54pm- Received letter from Mike, it appears my son Gianni has taken what has happened to me badly. Anything happens to him and I will not let this go lightly. He is a lovely boy and had his life mapped out well. Instead things have gone wrong. Yes maybe I must pay for omission but the matter is not going to be left at that. Mike told me Tiina is also confused and angry. But all will be well for her. The funny thing about my life is that I can resolve all others problems but my own and those of my family. That will definitely change, I have written to my wife and Gianni. I feel better I think!
THURSDAY 2 MAY 2013
06.53am- Wrote to Tiina, Caroline, Mimi and Mike and also Jacqui West, of the Cross Border Transfer Section of Ministry of Justice. Time is still very much on my side but there are always concerns and have to say it’s getting to me. The problem is that those around me, for sure, do not understand what I have been doing and will take things out of context. Anyway I must look after myself as best as possible to survive. Then when I get down, I think of a poor guy here who has sought my help. He got life in Germany where he was a professional footballer for a murder he surely did not do, yet he is here now after being transferred to the UK. My God what injustices there are!!
LUNCH: Chicken Curry with rice/cottage cheese/Ricotta sandwich and chocolate.
13.01pm- Just heard the man who sold fake bomb detection gets ten years! Just goes to show how vindictive the Government has been to me. Also Stuart Hall the ex BBC journalist pleaded guilty to sex offences. I wonder how long he will get. I was at the Education Department today and whilst I was there an officer came to see me in my room with papers. I wonder if they were my deportation papers. We shall see! I can’t wait to get back to Italy this country has nothing left to offer, even its own citizens. What a pity. I never thought I would end my life with the reputation in the UK being worse than that of Ian Brady! Trying not to think about family… It’s hard. I have news from Caroline today!
17.21pm- Yes received nice email from Caroline. Thank God for her to keep me informed about what is happening. She is doing a great job. The officer who came today did not come back so don’t know what it’s all about. Tonight took no food. Did not feel like eating so I just had a coffee. Those who I thought loved me do not understand what I have had to do. The job in the Education Department is quite time consuming but I wonder of my age if I can sustain the physical work.
FRIDAY 3 MAY 2013
07.19AM- Woke up at 06.35 feeling today almost OK. Today I should move room again which will maybe be better but of course better implies an optimison one can never feel but it is what it is… Will go to the Education Department today, may use the computer a bit have things to do? So far in this jail I have been lucky. I am well respected by those that covert. The Conservatives lost many seats in the local elections and the UKIP won. Maybe I should have developed The Radical party of the United Kingdom…………..
11.26am-Went to the Education Department. The weather is nice. Posed myself a question, if my friend told me that in the morning he was going to kill himself with a knife, and if I broke into his house at night and stole all his knives. Would I be committing an offence? Interesting!
LUNCH: REFUSED: Only cheese and biscuits and packet of crisps.
DINNER: REFUSED: Good food but a shit day
14.25pm-Today in the afternoon is mostly lock down. The goods people have ordered are being delivered. I have nothing to be delivered so I assisted my roommate, an ex lawyer from Clyde and Co, to do a sentence variation. He is happy. As I said I maybe in jail but my mind and knowledge cannot be in-juncted!!!!
14.27pm- Ha! I just remembered - at the trial of Socrates there were 501 members of the jury!!! Interesting… He was found guilty of discriminating subversive thoughts and sentenced to death by his own hand - he drank hemlock in front of his students. One was Plato who carried on his teaching and after Plato came Aristotle what is interesting about Socrates’ is that he could have been acquitted had he wanted but he chose to carry on his teachings and thoughts! Sounds familiar????
15.45pm-Sometimes I feel life is just a suspended animation. Almost incomplete!
15.55pm-Watching film and a baby crying reminded me of Gianni and how I would go pick him up. Today, not a good day, trying hard but today is not good.
19.07pm- Yes got letter from Caroline and David A. and a lovely note from Lord Davenport. Nice guy!!
SATURDAY 4 MAY 2013
07.35am-Woke up this morning questioning why I decided to agree to this plan that involves me being in jail for a while. It is coming up to the 17 May which will be 41 years of active service! Has it all been worthwhile? I doubt it! What is important in life is not people, but family, time, and patience mixed with tolerance. In many ways I deserve any suffering but whilst I may deserve it others around me do not! “I have wasted time and now doth time waste me.”
10.47am-Things getting a little more complicated and I can now see that I am getting betrayed so I must consider using one of my parachutes. I am for certain getting what I am entitled to but no more, no less, so it’s ok from now on I wall ask for zero.
LUNCH: Burger and chips with hot cross bun but REFUSED.
DINNER: Roast Chicken with potatoes but REGUSED.
13.44pm-As I now know I will only receive what I am entitled to and no more but, maybe I can I cleaned out the room so its spick and span. I may ask to see the governor ultimately but at the moment it’s not necessary.
15.43pm-Just heard that on Tuesday things will get better and improve. Parachutes are opened!
16.19pm-Feel better but boy had to use parachute.
18.27pm- Watching film with Tom Selleck and in the film there is a dog that looks like Rufus. Oh boy how I miss my dog. I wonder if he will recognize me again when I see him. Nothing much is going to happen this weekend so will just do some work on cases.
20.14pm-Was thinking about the first operation I carried out for SIS, in 1973, in Argentina. I had to stay at the Sheraton Hotel and meet a person, collect an envelope and take back to London, via Porte Allegre and Rio De Janiero. In the meantime I had to go to Stern, the Jewelers, and also bring back some jewellery and hand over to a guy in London. Of course it was dangerous as it was the time of curfew, and military junta, but no one suspected a boy barely 18 years of age coming to see his family. I was being used and not abused as I have been again now!!!!
SUNDAY 5 MAY 2013
07.35am-Went to sleep last night after about ten minutes of watching ‘Basic Instincts’ Always a good film and it reminded me of my time at MGM when we gave that film away. We never thought it was a good subject. Just how wrong can one be? This morning some crazy man banging his door, I wonder what his name is. These places are a hive of great stories.
08.09am-The Deputy Speaker of the Parliament in custody for allegations of rape on a man! My God… whatever next? Is no one safe!!!
LUNCH: Roast chicken, roast potatoes, brussel sprouts, gravy AND rice pudding –REFUSED
13.05PM- Its going to be quite a long weekend but frankly the time is passing quite quickly. When one is a child time goes slow as snails but when one hits nearly 60 then time flies like an escort missile! This morning had a great chat with Emilio and Nasser. Still have not done the CCIS letter for Paul Bush and this is typical GDS stupidness. Obviously have not learnt any lesson!
15.34pm-Went to church. Today is the Orthodox Easter. The church service in this prison is frankly nothing but a farce but if one believes in God then I guess it does not matter. Today, don’t know why but, I feel a little dead but even if it were to come to fruition I know that my wife and children will put right what has been done wrong. The information I have received is that certain high ranking people did not want this result but when I went abroad it was for me not to come back. Well that was never an option for me. My wife and children always live in me. Have not been taking food for a few days and feel a little weak but still working regardless. Must write today to Caroline and David A. Maybe next week will hear from the Vatican regarding Tariq Aziz. I hope they can help. I have done all I could I was promised he would be cleared. He has not – yet!!!
MONDAY 6 MAY 2013
07.16am-Woke up -6.39am Am sleeping quite well almost each night by 10.30pm, just so tired, I go to sleep. Incredible really! Yesterday felt a little melancholic because it was the Orthodox Easter. Anyway, today is another day and must go forward.
09.51am-Today is a nice sunny day so went out for a while and took some sun while thinking I must do quite a bit of research and work. Feel tired as have not taken food but today may eat.
11.35am- Funny watching film ’High Noon’ I always made my children learn the words to the song by Tex Ritter.
12.50pm- Interesting comment today from one guy who I had helped many years ago. He said “Mr Di Stefano you spent all your life helping others, it’s time now you helped yourself.” How very true, and also, how very sad.
LUNCH: Turkey pie with carrots, broccoli, potatoes/sweet doughnut. - REFUSED
DINNER: Ham salad – REFUSED
18.46pm- My roommate the lawyer from Clyde and Co Solicitors has been notified of a move to The Verne. He will be ten times better there than here. This evening Emilio and Nassir came to my room and we had a nice chat and coffee. It is always sad to see someone go but prison is about quick friendships and even quicker departures. Received such a nice letter from Jonathan King, God bless him so nice truly cheered me up big time. Dear Caroline also wrote to me a nice email. Thank God for Caroline she has kept me sane! And what a great job she is doing on the paper. Checked today and as I am due to go to Italy I am as yet not categorized because of my impending transfer. We shall see. I have mixed emotions over whether I trust my people. I do, and I don’t, but I hope I can!!!
20.14pm- Sent letter to Jonathan King how nice of him really to offer to get me stamps, newspapers and books - Truly a comfort.
TUESDAY 7 MAY 2013
06.46AM-Well what a night. Have been up all night looking after Mr Rimmer who was ill. There really is no point keeping pensioners in jail. It serves no purpose. Had to call out the night nurse who basically told me what to do. Kept cold towel on his head and gave him water every couple of hours. It’s absurd keeping ill people in jail and those who are simply too old.
06.54am- Today expect visit from Gary. In the afternoon will go to Education Department I am looking forward to seeing Gary. Apparently Sarah Hall came to see me on Friday but I was in the library of course I was not told so missed her visit.
07.0am- Jimmy Tarbuck arrested for alleged sex offences over 30 years ago. This is too much. No one is safe. Yet not a single pop star has been targeted. This country has simply gone too far to the “POLICE STATE” syndrome.
11.24am- Went to Legal Visits only to be told the visit would be in the afternoon. Called my son Mike and how good it felt to hear such a lovely voice. What would I not give to hear my wife and Gianni but I must be strong. It is really hard anyway, spent time with Emilio and Nassir this morning. Hopefully tomorrow afternoon I can move to B1 with Emilio. We will see! Mike said that he sent me post but I have received nothing. Boy though how I would like to be in my own country now. Today a man came in aged 71 and he received a 28 year sentence on drug charges. I mean 28 years to a man of 71 years?? There simply has to be an alternative there must be surely! Feel weak though!
LUNCH: Chicken with potatoes. – REFUSED
DINNER: Cottage pie with vegetables – REFUSED
Mr Rimmer still quite ill I am doing my best but the lack of attention here is incredible but they do their best. It’s all anyone can do!
WEDNESDAY 8 MAY 2013
07.33am- Woke up a few minutes ago having had a really good sleep. Received a nice letter from Conor who lives in Belfast.
How nice! Saw Gary, he looks great after his operation. Today will go to Education Department and in the afternoon get on with some work. Today started with rain this has cleared the air nicely. Today, also is the Queen’s speech and just on the agenda is speeding up deportation of foreign people who commit crime in the UK!!! How convenient!!!!
12.28pm – What a shocker today, Ferguson the Manchester United Manager for 26 years has resigned!! Well I never! Working in the Education Department today and at least I will be using time. I can’t abide passing time.
LUNCH: Chicken burger with rice and ice cream
DINNER: Not hungry
13.15p- I cannot forget Giulio Andreotti the Italian MP who died two days ago aged 94. Strange because Tariq Aziz gave me a letter to hand to him. I defended Andreotti a few years ago. He wrote me a wonderful letter. He was a complicated man and hard to figure out. His death involves even more of a mystery.
16.29pm- Did not go to the Education Department in the end but stayed in, took nice coffee and read Italian papers with Emilio. Tomorrow though must go to Education Department. Received letters from Caroline and Mike. Oh boy how well OPC looks. It’s great! Caroline has done great job! Will need to get some A4 paper and really hope can get back to Italy soon. I will kiss the ground when I get there. The weather is changing. It’s why I have a kind of headache. Today discussed with guy here who is out soon about the 6 prisons the Home Office closed overnight. In Italy the position is worse. There are 11 prisons, some new that have been closed! Yet places and overcrowding is rife! Makes no sense, may have OPC write to the library here asking for stories from prisoners, and may even have a new section for them. We will see how it goes.
THURSDAY 9 MAY 2013
07.25am- What a lot of banging around last night by the workers who are painting the centre. They work at night but make so much noise putting up scaffolding. They would never be allowed to make such noise if this were not a prison. Other than that I slept like a log. Today I am in Education Department. Must write letter on computer.
12.50pm- Did a lot of work on a confiscation order. Kept my brain alive.
LUNCH: Sausages with rice and beans
DINNER: Roast Chicken, potatoes, peas, carrots with cheese and biscuits.
Found out today that there is indeed a new repartition scheme that has come into force. That is good. At least something evidencing I will not be betrayed.
17.17pm- Well it seems that the prison magazine has written an article on me. Oh well so be it. Makes no difference to me. My sole concentration is on getting back to Italy. Next few weeks Sarah Hall will come to see me and will have more information.
20.12pm- Received letter from Sarah Hall with the information I needed and the CCRC information pack. It made one person very happy. There are so many cases of serious injustice for more than mine.
20.18pm- Met today with MOSSAD Officer. All is OK! Things going well! Tonight will watch programme about DNA and historic cases where DNA resolves many matters.
It is windy as hell and that means my boiled water gets cold quickly. Today I had on my mind General S. He was near me all the time. Have not had him near me for a while but he came back finally! At least he understands the situation. Sarah Hall will come next Thursday to see me. She will let me have the necessary information. But I was glad to see the MOSSAD person. We had a few laughs!!! On Saturday its 46 days since conviction and things will move sooner.
20.20pm- My roommate the lawyer from Clyde and Co gets transferred tomorrow. He will be better at the Mount than here.
FRIDAY 10TH MAY 2013
07.28AM- Woke up just past seven. It’s incredible how good I sleep here, I wonder if the jury in my trial sleeps as sound as I do or the witnesses who blatantly lied through their teeth? The Raven and Owl have been summonsed! My roommate will be transferred today. He will be a billion times better off at the Mount than here. Seven more days and it’s my 41 year anniversary! My God! 41 years!!!!
LUNCH: Spanish paella and yoghurt.
DINNER: Rice with breaded fish and homemade cake.
11.50am- James R is now transferred so for a while I am by myself. There are advantages and disadvantages but in any case the important one is that time moves forward and stands still for no one. James R in reality should never have been jailed. I am certain that an alternative could have been found. An interesting factor has arisen:- In the UK over 700 murders committed each year. WOW! I remember when I first came to England that when there was one murder, it made headline news. What a change. In my view for the worse!
15.12pm- New roommate. Oh well just have to be able to adapt to things. What a sweaty day but all in all better than expected.
18.343pm- All quiet on the Wandsworth front. Cooking and reading in the paper a massive 100 million+ fraud. The sentence imposed on a solicitor was 5 ½ years. He got away with 17 million plus! No post yet but Friday is one of those strange days that no one really knows what the schedule is. One guy who was in a Luxemburg jail told me the whole prison is based upon the clock – namely timing! How that would be good here. Saw MOSSAD guy. All ok!
20.31pm- No post tonight. Not that there is no post it’s that no post has been delivered. Tonight I truly miss my family but I just put it out of my mind as much as possible. I hope that by next week though I can move downstairs.
SATURDAY 11TH MAY 2013
07.26AM- Watching film ‘Beyond A Reasonable Doubt’ with Dana Andrews. Did not have such a good sleep last night but that is always the same, when a new roommate comes. It takes a while to get to know someone but all will be ok. One of the biggest problems is when you go through the day it can be a phrase, a word, a film something that reminds you of things you have experienced and wham bam you think of your family. Yesterday it was a scene, watching a man take out his baby son from a pram! Must switch off!!
09.45am- Had quite a pleasant walk in the Courtyard with Emilio! It’s great to be able to talk with a fellow Italian. Yesterday I saw Antonello my friend for over 30 years. He has lost his appeal for extradition to Argentina. I will do all I can to help him and more. Such a nice person.
LUNCH: Italian style chicken with chips and hot cross bun.
DINNER: Shepherd’s pie with rice and homemade cake.
12.27pm- Still no post yet because no officer has been to collect. Oh well! Today thinking about my family. Will do some work to take mind off things a bit. Weekends always a little slow but what the heck. The OPC site is truly great. What a star is Caroline!
19.28pm- Hurt my thumb by washing the curtains out squeezing them to rinse them. The result I caused a hematoma, on my right thumb. Grrrrrrrr!!!!! Still no post! I asked, but the officer simply said there were not enough staff to collect it. One of those things. I was thinking about why I have taken the stance of not contacting my family. Well the answer is that at the moment my basket is not one that can even take one egg let alone all the eggs. But I think about my family a lot but must take life as it is. Wigan F.C. won the F.A. Cup today. Incredible they will be relegated but beat Manchester City. Just goes to show how things work out in life. It’s never easy.
SUNDAY 12TH MAY 2013
07.38am- Woke up last night at 03.34 and 05.26 because my roommate talks in his sleep. This prison is seriously breaking the law with placing remand prisoners with convicted people but then when the prison service closes 6 prisons, displacing thousands, where do you put them? It follows that corners have to be cut. WINSTON CHURCHILL was right:- a country is judged by how it treats it’s prisoners!
LUNCH: Roast turkey, brussel sprouts, roast potatoes, Yorkshire pudding, stuffing and cake with custard.
12.34pm- Looking at a high profile murder case. Today will go to church. Next week is another week! Still no post but that is because of a lack of staff. Yet how can there be a lack of staff when 3 million are unemployed? Something is not quite right in the Civil service! Weekend is always somewhat limited as is Wednesday and Friday!
16.01pm: - Went to church and did one of the readings. The letter of St Paul to the Ephesians. Saw Antonello and had a coffee with a nice guy here called Nick! Tomorrow is another day. Received two emails from Caroline. Thanks be to the Lord for Caroline who never forgets me and keeps my spirits high. What would I do without her and how she has maintained OPC and kept the flag flying.
18.55pm- One good thing about the last 45 days I have gone from a size 40 trousers to size 34!! And today I have found my way of paying back the judicial system of the injustice caused to me. It will be quite spectacular and the first blow to the judicial system will be around October of this year. Just when they think they have a case in the bag, they will find a Tiger in the bag. He will be my great payback! And it came into my lap tonight! TONIGHT thought about my wife and family but all in all will be ok. All in good time. The scene has not been set nor script written,. It was written in the stars!
MONDAY 12TH MAY 2013
07.22AM- Woke up at about 07.00am. When one prisoner who is going to court, orders a trolley to carry his belongings, the officer replied “It’s not a hotel!” Funny!! Anyway today Education Department and move forward. However, finally I have found the payback for the system/state! Today Chris Huhne will be released from prison and it’s a media circus. For me, I miss my family but I must also finish what I started on May 17th 1972!! Five more days and its 41 years!! Was it worthwhile? Not really!
LUNCH: Chicken burger with rice and ice cream.
DINNER: Turkey burger with rice and homemade cake.
11.55am- Quite an enjoyable day and of course each day is one closer to the massive injustice being addressed. Still, today, on the way to the Education Department with thoughts of my family.
13.09pm- It’s interesting to know that after so many years of biting my nails I have suddenly stopped since January. Just like that! I have also noticed that I am losing weight and more surprised I bruise very easily, for me this is normal. Anyway the health issue is of course of concern to me. I have not really mentioned this previously but whatever happens as one great man once said:- the body may die but the spirit will always be there. I will just be another star in the sky!
18.45pm:- Finally it would seem that tomorrow I will go down to B1 to be with Emilio F my Italian friend. That should make life much easier for me and more pleasant in the sense of having peace of mind. Received nice email from dear Caroline. Again thank God for Caroline who has kept me informed and safe! One of the issues in life is always that you can achieve all reasonable ends more or less. I do a good job here and take pride even in the most menial task. I may be in an English prison but I have not lost my dignity, the dignity in doing my job well not just for others but for myself. I do miss my family!
TUESDAY 14TH MAY 2013
09.23am- Woke up this morning but haven’t had much sleep because of the construction noise in the prison. They work at night. Whoever won that contract must have done well! Switched on the news to hear Roberto Mancini sacked from Manchester City. A big mistake. It is why Manchester United has been so successful. They keep consistency. Today I should move rooms to the ground level. Should be better.
11.45am- B1-28 moved down with my Italian colleague Emilio F. It is of course much nicer here and being able to talk Italian makes a massive difference. It is after all my own language! Well, some progress.
LUNCH: Sausage and chips and an orange.
DINNER: Chicken and rice with doughnut and jam.
20.47pm- Haven’t written diary too late in the night but as I am with my Italian friend things are much better. We were able to eat together on the same table – an event taken for granted normally but here it is special. Talked with my son Mike and made me feel good. The news he brings about my family is not always good but I can do nothing. Received letter from Jonathon King who sent me stamps. How very kind. Received letter from Billy C a client who is so angry of my conviction and sentence he wants to transfer to this prison to help me, if I need. How kind! Of course Caroline a lovely email. Yet again dear Caroline. Tonight watching documentary about Danilo Restivo the man I brought to justice thanks to Canale TG5! Of course my role has been airbrushed out. It was expected! No problems! Must just keep my head down and get on and get out and get my family back! I will do it. I cannot afford to fail. This time I must concentrate on the family.
WEDNESDAY 15 MAY 2013
07.28am- What a great sleep! I woke up to the news that citizens will finally get a referendum to leave the EU. I say “good riddance” Here is a laugh. If you want to go to the barber here or hairdresser do you know the waiting list???? An appointment booked today you will get an appointment mid JULY!!! Incredible! MID JULY! Today must get the window and light fixed! Boy oh boy how I miss my family.
LUNCH: Burger with rice, and shepherd’s pie, sweet -wagon wheel.
DINNER: Fish cake with rice, chicken and ice cream or sweet.
09.41am- Freezing cold. Went out in the yard and really cold. I did not think it out properly – as usual. Will work on replying to some letters and think of my family and Italy! I still hope I won’t get betrayed.
14.15pm- Today is a total lock up day but no one can detain or lock up the mind. Now and again though some form of isolation is not necessarily bad. It gives one time to reflect. Today I ask myself since 1972 has it all been worthwhile? No is the answer. It’s the first time I have not been able to justify the last 41 years! I wonder if ever I can.
16.33pm- Found a great loophole for Emilio F for any issues in Italy. Have still not done the CCRC for Paul Bush. What the hell is the matter with me? I also find I am subject to bruising very easily, will have to get that checked.
19.36pm- Spoke with Mike for a few minutes which cheered me up quite a bit. Well he is my son and my only voice contact. Thanks to Jonathan King I have stamps so I can write to a few people who have written to me and been so kind. I would love to hear my family and children but right now cannot. Caroline doing a great job on OPC and editorial policy is as if implemented by me. Some great stories. I must drop note to my mum tonight to let her know she is not alone!
THURSDAY 16 MAY 2013
07.41am- Had a great sleep, much, much better. Wrote a dozen letters to all those that wrote to me and wished me well. Today Sarah Hall will come to see me and hopefully bring me some news. The news today is that Amazon are receiving more government grants than the tax they are paying! Well they are only exploiting a law that allows it! Nothing wrong with that!
LUNCH: Italian chicken with rice and vegetables. No sweet.
13.13pm- Am not feeling too well today. I am losing weight and bruise very easily. Well after all I am 58 years of age by no means a spring chicken. Also feeling tired very easily and by 10.30ish at night I am so tired I sleep. Old age is catching up on me. I can almost say that I am running out of life left to live. Did some quite hard work today in Education Department.
16.45pm- Saw Sarah Hall always a ray of light. She has been very nice with me so professional and honest. I won’t ever forget her or Gary. Today one of the guy’s I drafted a bail application last week was granted bail. Guess who was the Judge? Yes Alastair McCreath! Sometimes a written application by the defendant is more efficacious than one by a Q.C. is my opinion though the sooner all this is over for me the better.
19.22pm- Tomorrow will be 41 fucking years of service. Tonight I do not feel so good – Did I make the right choice all those years ago? Fuck No! The result is that my choice in 1972 has affected my family, my wife and children and not necessarily for the better. But how would I have known that all those years ago? I could not! But is that a valid defence? I doubt it!
FRIDAY 17 MAY 2013
07.28am- Good morning 41 years of working! It has almost been a waste of time because the World today and its ideology is by no means what it was in 1972! Today is just another day and at 3.30pm will just have a cup of coffee and reflect upon what a potential mistake I made when I was 17 years of age. I do miss my family a lot but all will be ok so one must look forward. Today David Beckham has retired from football. Strange really one retiring, another (me) still employed, even here I’m working!!!
LUNCH: Chicken/fish with rice and yoghurt or sweet – REFUSED
DINNER: Shepherd’s pie with cake or sweet – REFUSED
12.42pm- It is incredible how I am liked and respected here, far more than I ever expected. Today is one of those strange days that makes me wonder “What If” all those years ago. Well there is really no point. This afternoon will be relax day a bit and at 3.30pm I will take shower.
16.37pm- Did not eat today but helped giving out the shopping on our wing. At 3.30pm there was an incident so it just passed like that 41 years damn it! I was able to call Mike and ask him to call my wife and Gianni at 3.30pm. I remember 2001 at 3.30pm when I called her and told her I was free. Great year 2001 but it set the scene for what was to come. Things are much easier now and time just flies by. We shall see if I am betrayed by the State but I hope not because if I am I will not hesitate to retaliate. Anyway, today so many thoughts going through my mind mostly about the last fucking 41 years! Received letter from Sarah Hall who will come to see me on the 29 May again. And so time moves on but I am staying still!
SATURDAY 18TH MAY 2013
07.58am- Wow! I wake up at 07.28am today, well late. Although late for what I don’t know. Yesterday in Cannes a one million pound diamond heist during the Cannes film festival! And, new information on the Madeleine McCann “mystery” I still have my own views on that case. But this I keep to myself. Then the Litvinenko poison murder in the UK:- the Coroner decides a public inquest is best:- Why? So evidence can be heard in secret! The Security Services have much to answer and much to hang their heads in shame and I am not that far behind.
LUNCH: Two pieces of roast chicken with chips – no sweet REFUSED
DINNER: Quiche Lorraine with sausage – No sweet REFUSED.
12.59pm- Two lovely emails from Caroline. Worked quite hard today. Miss my family so much today. Oh well!!
19.27pm- I think why it is necessary these days to talk about problems! I don’t ever talk about my problems. In any case they are healed by age and definitely time. I miss my family so much but have no choice but to continue down this path. To be quite clear, I don’t trust those that have protected me but it is now too late. If I am betrayed though rest assured that I will change my name to Samson! We all know what happened to him!! Yet again dear Caroline kept me sane and wrote two emails. How I would love to hear my families voice but simply cannot. Must not falter! It’s part of the agreement although how I would like to dream the dreams! Tonight the second film of Wall Street! As I know both M.D. and his first wife it will be nice to watch again. Tomorrow another day. Today checked the system – it looks like I have not been betrayed but only when I am in Italy will I be safe!
SUNDAY 19 MAY 2013
07.20am- Woke up with a small headache. Was thinking about when I get to Italy whether to contact any of my friends there? Last night dreamed about my family. Let’s hope the dream comes to reality. I have a funny feeling somehow I will end up like Gordon Gekko and have to re-acquire the family after seven years inside. Well, I will do that even if necessary but if I am betrayed I will definitely not take it lying down.
LUNCH: Roast chicken with roast potatoes, rice pudding with jam
DINNER: Corned beef sandwich.
12.22pm- Today has been the busiest day ever with so much to do. Worked on one case and looked at another. There is little to no real news today and I am truly hoping to start my “Letter from the Inside” today but I am tired; yes tired! Today I decided to scrub out the kitchen and then clean the room out with disinfectant. Helped in the server, ok such physical work. Tomorrow will go to Education Department have lots to do there too. I was thinking today damn it how much I miss my father and father in law. How the General always supported me and had faith in me! I owe him a real duty of care and respect now I feel I have let him down but then it’s not over yet. I can’t get out of my mind my feeling of betrayal but I always have that on every operation. Everything always depends on all the dominoes falling at the right time of the right place. They don’t always so adjustments have to be made ese improvise! I also thought a lot about my youngest son who believed in me all the time. I won’t let him down but right now I have nothing to offer but air-words well even air is vital. Without it life goes by! I live!
MONDAY 20 MAY 2013
07.16am- Woke up at 04.13am. Switched on TV for a short while to hear that Abu Qatada is applying for bail, quite right too. Over eight years in jail without having committed any offence in this country. In jail only awaiting extradition. Totally absurd but have seen here those with similar situations. I hope he is bailed but then I wouldn't bank on it.
LUNCH: Turkey burger with rice. Sweet chocolate cake.
North Korea launched three short range missiles into the sea of its east coast. Not much publicity though has been given. I received the news quite “unofficially”. Today is the 80th birthday of the great ‘lateral thinker’ Dr Edward De Bone. I attended his lectures. He is a great man almost as controversial of socretes – Quite interesting also is the anniversary of the execution of Anne Boleyn around 1536! And if my mind is still intact the day Oscar Wilde was released from Reading jail in 1897! Also in 1991 on this day my Yugoslav adventure was born by Croatia seeking independence from Yugoslavia. Oh well as a result of that my younger son would be ‘protected’.
19.19pm- Received again two lovely emails from Caroline and a letter from James Rimmer!! Nice of Caroline and James. I heard today we have hit over 10,000 tweets on my twitter feed! Incredible! I keep thinking about my family but must kee all family thoughts well out of my mind or things will not work out.
19.55pm- Am very worried about my health. I bruise very easily and it’s really of some concern. I will need to check things out because easy bruising is a sign of the old enemy coming back and with a vengeance.
TUESDAY 21 MAY 2013
07.34am- Woke up a few minutes ago, switched on TV and straight away the main news is the massive tornado killing over 90 people in Oklahoma. Why is it always USA that gets hit from natural calamities? Before the USA started violating international law natural calamities deemed to avoid the country! Can it be that some greater power (God) punishes those who impose their will on others???
LUNCH: Paella no sweet – REFUSED
DINNER: Two pieces of chicken and doughnut or sweet.
13.13pm- Today is one of those long days which never seem to want to pass. This morning stayed in to do translation for the UK Border Agency. It seems the Italian Government will have another ‘amnesty’ around August time. Nice! Fits in good!
18.28pm- Abu Qatada refused bail. This is truly ridiculous. But then there is a young lad here that is waiting ten years plus for extradition to the United States. Truly sickening! Received letter from Caroline again Yipee! Keeps me alive! Letter from David A. How truly nice of him to think of me and keep my spirits high. What a lovely friend. One thing is for certain here I have earned the respect of those fellows detained with me. Tonight I have noticed that I am not well health wise. It seems that the Big C is coming back so I will have to resolve that issue as best as I can under the circumstances. It is strange I have a greater success rate here than ever outside and my deep update on the law is without precedent. How I miss my family and children. Oh well must just do the best I can. No more - no less.
WEDNESDAY 22 MAY 2013
07.24am- Woke up few minutes ago. Today have been told to work in the Library so will go to see if the job is OK. Always nice to be asked. The weather is frankly shit I mean my God it’s nearly the end of May and no sunshine! England has truly gone to the dogs! Wrote to Caroline my editorial in Italian. Will do English version tonight!
LUNCH: Lancashire Hot Pot; Roast chicken roast potatoes and sweet.
DINNER: Chicken Kiev REFUSED
14.21pm-Things going truly well big time!
19.42pm- Today has been one of those shit days but have managed to get much done. I hope to be on my way to Italy soon. Another hurdle passed.
19.47pm- Received letter from Caroline with screenshots, Kristen Hamm and Mike. It was really nice of them to write to me. Mike sent me some stamps so did Caroline. Today did a hocus pocus, boy brought back old times.
20.04pm- The news today that in Woolwich a man knifed and used a machete on a serving soldier and killed him Baghdad style! Totally absurd situation has arisen in this country when in broad day light this kind of violence prevails. We live in a World where frankly the governments leave the citizens with no hope, no job, no money and no assets. They strip people of their individuality and dignity. That causes anger and the outbreak of violence. I feel for the dead soldier and his family but I have seen it so many times before with so many soldiers. Tonight will reply to all the letters and do all my work. To my shame I have still not done the CCRC for Paul Bush. I am deeply ashamed of myself but I hope I will remedy the situation for him. He is totally innocent.
THURSDAY 23 MAY 2013
07.20am- I am sleeping between 8-9 hours per night almost without interruption. Of course the Big C is on its way back but one has to accept everything in life with the agnosticism that the occurrence merits. The main news today about the soldier killed yesterday but also proof from the archives that the Security Services intercepted the telephone of King Edward in 1936. Of course I had written about that last year but now the proof!
LUNCH: Meatballs, fish cake, and corned beef hash.
DINNER: Salmon pie with fishcakes, cheese and biscuits.
13.11pm- Feel good today because went to Education Department and got on with my job. In life what one does is not really important. What is vital is that a job must be done well. That is why I am so happy with Caroline she is doing a fucking fantastic job on OPC with some great stories. This afternoon will go back to Education Department again.
20.16pm- This afternoon finished the Supreme Court certified points for Antonello. Tragic story his but he is my friend since 1984 and we go back a long way and I cannot allow him to be extradited to Argentina. There is a new timetable in play here but for my part I don’t give a damn. I just follow whatever regime that is imposed upon me without complaint or comment. There is still much talk on the murder and beheading of the soldier. It is a wicked crime! No one deserves to die like that and for sure not in the name of any God. How I miss my family. Not heard them since 26 March! Not much longer I hope. Must hold on tight!
FRIDAY 24 MAY 2013
07.28am- Just woke up. Slept like a bloody log since half past ten. The weather is frankly shit and cold. Boy I loathe this country for the shit weather. Yesterday I was ‘talking’ to the foreign person who is actually deaf and dumb but the UK Border Agency didn’t believe him, and thought he was pretending so he would not be deported. The result was that he tried to kill himself a few weeks ago because he has been kept in deportation detention TWO years more than his sentence.! I have got him working here and he is a nice man. I don’t know his crime and don’t care. Today the UK Border Agency and two doctors realized the guy was NOT pretending to be deaf and dumb and are running around…what to do! Disgusting! Keeping a man TWO years more than his sentence, especially a man who wants to go back to his own country!!!
DINNER: Pizza, fish and rice with sweet.
21.11pm- Started new job today so came back at about 8pm. This job keeps me working from 8am – 8pm five days per week and a little less on Saturday. I do enjoy working and I don’t care how menial the task is so long as it’s done to the best of my ability. In this World an honest approach is always required to everything! I truly appreciate the faith many have in me. I will do my very best. Today I thought about my family a lot but as I am working really long hours now it is another distraction. Tomorrow will wake up earlier and be ready. No work on Sunday although I will of course help out on my section. I want to use time not pass time that is too easy to do.
SATURDAY 25 MAY 2013
07.15am-Woke up at 06.30 today because of new job have to be ready about half an hour earlier than previous. Not much news this morning but today will be able to read Italian newspapers which will be good. Today will work half day only. Must do application for my friend Antonello to stop extradition. Well it’s a letter. He does not write in English so I will first translate his thoughts and reasons.
LUNCH: Sausage, egg and bacon with cheese cake.
DINNER: Fish pie, with chocolate cake.
20.18pm- Worked until about 4pm then came back feeling quite tired. Rest day tomorrow so will take things easy a bit. Talked to my son and tried to call my family but did not put money on my telephone account grrrrr!!!! Received letter from Mike with stamps. Thank God… as was running out. Life goes on and one of the interesting aspects of jail is the fact you think life is the same as the day before but actually you never really know what to expect. Each day is truly exciting because it is unpredictable. Out of jail more or less one knows what to expect but here it’s truly an iron jungle. Received letter from Veronica Richardson. She sent me a letter a few weeks back but it was returned ‘not known here’!!! Incredible! Oh well it does seem things are working out as planned. The Mossad Officer is going out soon. He was in similar situation as me. Tonight watching film ‘Titanic’ – again. It’s always good to see and passes a few hours of time easily.
20.27pm- Thinking of my family and Gianni. Must try and put all those thoughts out of my mind it’s hard though.
SUNDAY 26 MAY 2013
07.28am- “This is not illegal its business. This is not immoral its business!” That is a comment from a political analyst regarding tax schemes. After the murder of the soldier in Woolwich the government wants to review how the Muslims are treated in prison and what they are taught of their religious services. Very dangerous policies!
LUNCH: Homemade steak pie, cake with custard
DINNER: Tuna and ham sandwich
18.23pm- Some great success on two cases here but more important completed the letter for my friend of 35 years to stop his extradition. The story is so fucking tragic that I won’t even recount it but when I wrote the letter it almost broke my heart. I hope someone can help me IF such is needed in due course. I will be not so forgiving if I am betrayed. Received letter from Caroline with screenshot of OPC and great email. What would I do without her support? I sent Mike a VO, I don’t like visits because I hate putting people to so many inconveniences. After all I started work in 1972 not - members of my family! I am doing my best to stay cool and calm and am grateful for those here who have helped me. In return I am doing job to the best of my abilities and more. I have no problem cleaning toilets or making tea for officers. My only condition to myself is that anything I do must be done well and as perfect as possible. All people deserve respect and to be treated in a dignified manner. I will never change that policy no matter what they do to me or where I am sent. I comply with what is asked of me and obey what is ordered. Today got new plasma screen TV with remote. Grateful for their kind of concessions. The licence is paid at 50p per week. Nothing is free not even liberty.
MONDAY 27 MAY 2013
07.14am- Woke up early because went to sleep early. I guess that is logical. Have written my next letter ‘From the Inside’ in Italian. The news today is the criticism of the Prime Minister who is on holiday whilst the family of the soldier killed in Woolwich are here. One can never win in the world of politics! Today is a working day for me even though its bank holiday. It’s much better in these places to keep busy and useful. No time for passing time for me.
LUNCH: Sausage egg and bacon with toast.
18.35pm- It was nice today to work and do a good job. There is nothing that gives me greater role in life than doing any job well. Received nice email from Caroline. She is working so hard, all hours and achieving so much. Somehow today I was able to finish my Italian ‘Letter from the Inside’ with concentration on the political situation in Italy. Nothing has been resolved in Italy and the country is at an almost standstill. I hope to high heaven it changes by the time I get there. At the moment I am doing my best to keep it all together or quicker if possible. I miss all my children, I miss my dog, I miss my wife, I miss my family but what can I do? I only hope to high heaven that I am not betrayed. Bruno Contrada was betrayed as were others in my position but by high heaven if I am I will not let it go so easy. Tonight will first relax as tomorrow here long day from 8am – 9pm. It’s better that way because work is the highest aspirant of life let’s see what this week brings.
TUESDAY 28 MAY 2013
07.17am- What has happened to the summer in this country? For the past three years that I am here I have not seen any real consistent sun! So what has happened? God knows! Today the news is that the EU has been convinced by the UK to lift the arms embargo for the Syrians ‘moderate’ opposition! What a load of crap! Pure political fraud! Here in the UK austerity cuts! Soon there will be no more cuts to be made! I am also looking at the mine of deportation orders on remand in custody whether such are contrary to the Bill of Rights!
LUNCH: Chicken with mash potatoes and doughnut as sweet.
DINNER: Beef burger and chips.
20.19pm- Just came back if from work. The days fly by and each day that passes is a day closer to getting back to Italy. Received letter from Caroline. I keep saying how great she is doing and I will continue saying it because it is true. Without her dedication many things would be different. I have not called anyone as have no money on my phone credit because it was bank holiday. I had a bit of time today to think things out. Has it all been worthwhile? Forty one years of total dedication! No! I have missed my children growing up. The most vital years of their lives I have been absent. If I had achieved something worthwhile then there is a balancing out. But instead it has all been almost a complete fucking waste of other people’s lives! That is the summation of my life and it’s not good. Well it has to be stated. I have been making excuses too long. The time has come to face up to how things are! Tonight I am tired – Over twelve hours on my feet. But the time passes.
WEDNESDAY 29 MAY 2013
07.18am- Slept like a log at least ten hours. It’s incredible how in these places one sleeps well. Yesterday was rain and today no different. The news today is mainly about the 85 Afghans held by British Forces in Camp Bastion, unlawfully for between 8 – 14 months. My sympathy!! Well there are a few here also who should have been released but are still detained for reasons without explanation. No Italian papers came in but I hope maybe today. Also this afternoon Sarah Hall will come to see me. Let’s see what news she brings. The Crown should have served their reply but have not. Who the hell cares it can only delay matters for their own prejudice.
LUNCH: Chicken cutlet with potatoes.
13.02pm- The news of the soldier murdered keeps a strong monopoly of the news. As a result there are a few attacks on mosques in England the media keep the pressure on. The policy of the UK is actually racist but they are scared of saying so or being open about matters. I just wish they would cease the news because it cannot bring the poor soldier back and his death has been in vain because nothing will change. It does seem that Enoch Powell’s ‘River of Blood’ speech was very much on the ball but it was said far too early in time. There is also frightening news that surgical operations on a Friday are more likely to result in deaths!!! JEEZ!!! I keep thinking about my family and I am ashamed to say I have forgotten when my son Gianni was born. I knew it was 1995 but my God I feel like shit that the actual date is gone from my mind. December 1995 I know!!!!
THURSDAY 30 MAY 2013
07.34am- What a sleep again from about ten o clock last night. Received lovely letter from Caroline and from Billy Crittenden and Luisa from Florence. Today the news is all about the guy who killed the soldier who will invariably end up here. Yesterday Sarah brought me news that the Crown needs few more weeks to end the proceedings. That actually is in my favor because the Italian Government will initiate another “indulto” the first week of July which covers me. So although will have to stay here three weeks longer it is in my interest.
LUNCH: Beef burger with rice and cheese and biscuits.
DINNER: Pasta with basilica and pomodoro – ice cream
18,32pm- This morning at 08.34 am, I was served with the deportation papers dated 15 May. I hope I can go back quickly now. This afternoon I talked with my mother, my wife and Caroline. I of course feel really bad because it follows they are suffering but what can I do? I chose this job and I must see it through. I have no choice but the risk this time is really great in the event I get screwed over. Let’s hope I do not.
20.44pm- Just got back in and I am fucking tired as hell. It looks like I will have to move wing again to C wing because of my job as all the orderlies/trustees have to be in one wing. Not much time to gather my thoughts tonight. It’s been so long since I talked with my wife and others so it’s been quite emotional. I am sure that they probably thought I would first disappear from the radar for years. This fucking job of mine is shit not for me but for my family. I hate what I have had to do. Something I wish would just come to an end.
FRIDAY 31 MAY 2013
07.22am- Slept well but thought of nothing but my son who I have not yet been able to talk to. I guess he is entitled to be angry with me but what can I do? I was his hero and now the villain. I do not know if I can forgive myself over all of this. I should have resigned after Yugoslavia when there was an opportunity but I did not. The result is the situation as it is with my family alienating me. I deserve it!!!
LUNCH: Sausage and toast with chocolate biscuit.
DINNER: Chicken Italiana with mash potato.
13.59pm- Spoke finally with my son Gianni. He is well and all I can say is that he is a TRUE DI STEFANO. Nothing scares him and he takes all in his stride. Today he made me feel someone and be proud. To my son with love today!!
20.00pm- Just back in now and extremely tired. Spoke also with my son Mike but today I feel good because of talking with Gianni. Did not really have time to either watch any news or read the papers so do not know what calamity has hit the world! I really need to do some writing but working these hours, per day, it’s a bit hard at my age. I used to, ok, and more but I was much younger. Now I will be 58 next month. UFFA!!! Time is flying by now I have this job and I hope it continues. I miss reading news on the internet but c’est la vie. I will do on Sunday another ‘Letter from the Inside’ in English. Tomorrow it’s a heavy day but also quite fun day. No one technically should be going in and out but who knows. I will be calling Gianni again this weekend. Boy how he cheers me up. Roll on July!!!!
SATURDAY 1 JUNE 2013
11.53am- A working day today and not up at the usual time of around 7am, had coffee then made my way to work.
14.06pm- Not much real news today and will work only until mid-afternoon. Talked with family today so all ok.
19.57pm- Was a hard day today with quite a bit of work and a little delusional. No matter how hard one works in prison one must never forget the golden ride:- he who holds the gold moves the rules. In this case the gold equals the keys. In short, one must not forget that in prison one is never trusted, so when one sees example of not being trusted one must not seem surprised or upset. Well one comes to prison because society does not trust you so why should the prison trust you? Well, regardless I will do my job to the best of my ability and comply with the rules whether I like them or not. Tonight things are going well in one big murder case. Seems to me few cases are really astounding but then the system we have is not perfect but it’s all we have. Regarding my jury, and prosecution, well I bet they are not sleeping as well as I am!! Both the jury and the prosecution have violated the oaths they took. They will never sleep with such a guilty conscience and as for 9 of the complaints from 198 of my clients, they who will have no sanctuary for their conscience to find peace. They have lied and wholly misrepresented matters but it’s ok I bear no ill feelings because they also did their job. Two police officers and one member of the Security Services influenced the rest. How easy??
SUNDAY 2 JUNE 2013
07.51am- Today is the 60th anniversary of the Coronation of the Queen. Incredible and it’s raining as it was all those years ago! Slept like a log. Today is my day ‘off’ meaning no work and boy do I need it. Anyway, will relax today and hope can find a paper!!
LUNCH: Chicken with rice. Sweet: - cake and custard.
10.22am- It has been a nice day today and some great news regarding E.F. who ‘should’ be free within 48 hours. I say ‘should’ because the word is subjective. In any case if the law is the law then he should be out. We shall see. Watch this space.
18.28pm- Today is truly a great shame for the British people who have not celebrated the 60 years of the Coronation of the Queen. I would have thought there would be at least something, but nothing. The only news today is about three House of Lords who have been suspended because of ‘cash questions.’ How many more? Only heaven knows but I am sure there are so many more just they have not been caught. However, how crooked of the newspapers who set up a sting operation. A true shame on both the Sunday Times and the Sunday Telegraph in setting up people to commit crimes must be in itself a criminal offence but will it? No way! Did not call anyone today also because do not have money on my phone account. I need to wait at least two days before it’s credited. Oh well. I can’t wait to talk to my son again. He cheered me up. I truly have made a mistake in 1972.
MONDAY 3 JUNE 2013
07.26am- The weather is nice today and it would appear that the rest of this week will be sunny – it is about bloody time. I think the summer has forgotten England the last two years. I did the application for my friend AP to withdraw an extradition request. Some strange documents were found within the file that truly can be stated as a joke and forged! Oh dear- naughty boys Interpol – have got caught out. Not the first time!
LUNCH: Burger and roll – not hungry
13.07pm- Today not a good day. When people behave irresponsibly they have only themselves to blame for the consequences. I just do my job and always comply with the rules. I want and have nothing to do with any stupidness and always comply with the regime. At the end of the day one is in jail and not in a holiday camp. Today though my friend AP, sent his request to withdraw extradition. I hope he is released soon!
21.08pm- Was not able to call anyone today because of the circumstances. At the end of the day, all I want to do is to do my job and comply with all that is requested of me and to return to Italy as soon as possible. Very tired tonight. As soon as I came back a couple of people wanted advice from me. I can’t really give any advice anymore I am too tired! Mentally exhausted! I miss my family, and of all things today going out to the kitchen and laundry I remembered the last two years in Kent! Oh well! Memories! No one can take those away. I remembered 1995 when my son was born. I was the proudest guy of all. Now look at me. What a situation I find myself in.
TUESDAY 4 JUNE 2013
Another nice morning weather wise, it’s what Sinatra would call a ‘koo-koo day’. Let’s hope that work wise it’s a nice environment and better than yesterday. I have had an idea which I will put to the Governor this week. It will help many and the prison service.
LUNCH: Fish and chips with doughnut as sweet.
DINNER: Mince beef pie with doughnut.
11.49am- The day is returning to normal shall we say. It is a lovely day outside and of course I miss going out have a coffee or lunch with my wife and son. Oh well – soon things will return to normal.
20.15pm- Tonight the numbers were wrong so we all had to go back to our wings. Today the news was of TULISA being arrested for dealing in cocaine and of course it was promoted by The Sun on Sunday. It seems what is happening is that the news media are testing the system whether the police will bite when they set people up. I do not like agent Provocateur media situations. I really thought that they had stopped but it would appear they have come back again. It is all wrong! I have a new idea called PAYAPRISONER basically a paypal system for inmates in the UK. I think I can sell the idea to a financial institution. I will write to the Governor about this. I talked with my young son today. Made me happy! Lovely boy! Talked with my mother. My middle son is being offered his job back! Another good piece of news.
WEDNESDAY 5 JUNE 2013
07.26am- Went to sleep early last night but slept at least a full ten hours. Today must do a lot of work since yesterday there was a problem with the count.
LUNCH: Chicken leg with pasta.
DINNER: Mince pie with mash.
13.49pm- Cleaned the whole kitchen in the reception today. As I said I may be in jail but I have not lost my dignity or the will to work hard and do a great job regardless of the job. There are two types of people in this world.
Those willing to work.
Those willing to let them.
I prefer the first. You see most people trade upon what they are but I trade on what I can become and achieve. The place is irrelevant same rules!
20.18pm- Great news. Received letter from UK Border Agency – Am on my way to Italy deportation. Finally some sanity. I mean now finally the time frame is being respected. Anyway, right now I am concentrating on ensuring my job in Reception is perfect so that when the inspectors come in next week we are 100% clean which it is anyway. I will do my job better than better. I told my son not to come on Saturday and Sunday as I want reception spotless. I take a pride in my work. I had taken my eye off the ball between 2007 and 2010 but its back in now. Tomorrow I will call my wife and son and mum. Tonight feel good. Will sleep well don’t worry. Miss my family but hopefully soon all be ok….I hope!
THURSDAY 6 JUNE 2013
07.10am- Woke up early and had to help regarding one person going back to Hungary. It’s a nice day with sunshine galore.
LUNCH: Omelette with chicken kiev.
13.25pm- A slow day spent thinking about what I will do when I get to Italy. Spoke with Mike my son who will come with Martin Brunt next week after Thursday. Looking forward to seeing him.
19.19pm- Still working. Quite tired today and frankly can’t wait to get to bed to sleep!
FRIDAY 7 JUNE 2013
14.49PM: Woke up early but had to go to work quickly. I want as I have said to do my job perfectly. Today the news so far is of spectators killed in the Isle of Man TT Race.
LUNCH: NOT HUNGRY
DINNER: Pizza, burger and chips
20.31pm- These are seriously long days which leave me little time to be able to write my diary but regardless I will do so every day. By keeping busy as I do my time flies by but my desire to be with my family is as strong as ever if not more. I want to call them but I block it! What can I say? The days of talk are well and truly over damn it! The sooner I get back to Italy the better but that is totally out of my hands. Next week I hope I will hear something more precise. I hope anyway. The news today is all about Prince Philip and his operation. My God he is 92! The days are getting lighter and summer is arriving. Next week my son will come to visit me.
SATURDAY 8 JUNE 2013
07.33am- Woke up early but slept well – as usual. Last night watched again ‘Saving Private Ryan’. Whenever I watch such films I wonder why so much killing is in the world. I have always been against violence and continue to question the need for it.
LUNCH: AS I COOKED NOT HUNGRY
DINNER: Cheese on toast
21.21pm- Came back late tonight as I take a great pride in my work. Helped one guy here with a Defence Case Statement and will write out a ECHQ for one guy who cannot write as he broke his wrist. I will merely take dictation. Yes, I know it’s my day off but I must help those that seek my help. I did not call my family today I do feel bad when I do because I do not know what to expect. Anyway when I am back in Italy all be ok regardless.
SUNDAY 9 JUNE 2013
07.41am- So far no one has come for me to go to work so may well have day off which is good as I need one day. Dreamed of my family. It’s funny at 10 - 10.30pm I just can’t stay awake anymore! I sleep like a log. Today the scandal is GCHQ spying on British Citizens. What’s new? That has been normal for years!
DINNER: Not well - no food
19.13pm- Went to work for a few hours. The late afternoon talked with few people. Tried to call my mother and son - no luck! Will try again tomorrow. This week will be a busy week but time is passing and getting nearer Italy time.
MONDAY 10 JUNE 2013
06.55am- Up early as today is the week when prison inspectors arrive and I want to be sure my job is carried out to the very best. I have not lost my pride in what I do so I am ready. Prince Phillip still in hospital and much news about him as is Nelson Mandela who is also in hospital. Well they are more or less over 90 years of age! Must try to call my family again. Soon it is my wedding anniversary Shit!!!
LUNCH: FUCK ALL
21.13pm- Came back late tonight spoke with Caroline and my son Mike and my young son Gianni who told me he loved me. I feel it. Regardless what I have done or they think I have done, blood is blood, and it never betrays you. No post today. I did the ECHE Rule 39 Emergency Measures for my good friend Antonello. I called my mum today also and all is fine. My son Mike and Martin Brunt will come to see me Thursday. I feel things are moving forward but more important I have not lost the shine of my young son. I must resolve another matter now and quickly too. I will try and get that done as soon as possible. On OPC Caroline posted my Recitations which are being used by a few Universities. There is another case that I have almost competed which will finally close off the work I had to deal with here.
2.19pm- Tonight feel ok. Finally can see things coming to an end. It’s important all things go as promised but I am prepared for all.
TUESDAY 11 JUNE 2013
07.14am- Up at 6.30am and feel good. There is not much news around so the BBC and ITV create news. William Hague has made a statement in Parliament that GCHQ does not share its interceptions with the NSA the US Counterpart. How stupid and pure lies. GCHQ shared all its interceptions of Milosevic and Gaddafi with the NSA – and VICE VERSA! Oh well – lies, lies and public relations I guess,
LUNCH: Beef Burger with chocolate cake and full cream.
DINNER: Pizza with apple pie and cream.
20.16pm- Came in late again. Spoke with my mother and Gianni. How nice it feels to hear from my son that he loves me. I have not seen him since February. I hope soon to see him in Italy. Saw Doctor tonight. Damn it I am not well but will be ok. Must fight as much as possible. Miss my family. Heard today from Caroline, Conor from Belfast who sent me six postage stamps – how truly kind and from Billy Crittenden. How truly nice for all of them to write to me. My son Anthony is upset I never wrote him one letter. I feel bad but it has to be that way. I have to detach until I sort things out. Have I sorted things out? I hope so! I miss my family a lot but when I signed up for all this in 1972 how the fuck would I ever have imagined I would have such a great family! Anyway, it is what it is! True words. In too deep. Will see Mike soon and looking forward to it. I can’t wait to go back to Italy. This week must resolve another issue.
WEDNESDAY 12 JUNE 2013
07.11am- Am ill and last night tried to help myself with a “roadside” care and it’s working. I have not forgotten my training and my weeks in Bergin!!! Anyway slowly getting better. But what a way to have to do it! Not much news today other than the media doing all possible to attack Turkey. Having failed in Syria the attention has now turned to Turkey! What a World!
20.22pm- Maybe just maybe I could be leaving tomorrow but it’s not certain. We shall see. I will be up at 6am anyway as have much to do if I do not go to Italy. One of the, shall we say, bad things about this deportation business is that you do not know when you are leaving of course I want to go as soon possible but I would like at least a few hours notice. Oh well maybe it’s a false alarm. No post today. I shall just do my normal routine and ready for visit tomorrow. Am doing my best also to cure myself and it seems to be working. There is also, of course, tomorrow the possibility I may be transferred but I hope not even though I am ready for all. Nothing really scares me anymore. That is not good. Something should scare me but it does not. I also tried to resolve another personal matter but could not. My son today told me he loved me. That is all that counts. All else is really a bonus I look for a bonus in life.
THURSDAY 13 JUNE2013
6.25am- Up early and did not sleep as well as usual but that is because in these places things are never very clear. Anyway, I’m still here and ready to go to work and to see my son today with Martin Brunt of Sky News! The weather is as usual rubbish!
LUNCH: Fishcakes in afternoon pasta with sugo.
DINNER: Chicken with rice and mince beef
20.18pm-A great visit from my son Mike and Martin Brunt. It was really nice to see Martin. He will do a good job on my case. Mike looked really well also. I did not have time to phone the family today because there was much to do in my work. Here I have almost completed my job. Sarah Hall came to see me also. All is ok on the front too. Tonight will sleep but will sleep much better when I am in Italy.
FRIDAY 14 JUNE 2013
06.55am- Ten hours of sleep! So tired! News today is that Wendi Murdoch files for divorce. Poor Rupert Murdoch. He had a great wife and chose to divorce, money again and they gave two children. I always wanted to say something but it was none of my business. I do feel sorry for him. He will die alone(ish). The reason for the divorce I understand is Rupert’s support for Rebekah Brooks! I say no more for now!
LUNCH: Chicken and chips
DINNER: Pasta Bolognese made by GDS
20.44pm- Spoke with my wife and son and nice to be told I am loved. Even the hard GDS now and again needs some TLC!!!
20.45pm- Tomorrow will work and cook for about 10 people.
SATURDAY 15 JUNE 2013
07.54am- Had a good night’s sleep. Today one of my friends went to court. What a story that will come out later in the year. It may even have an effect on the Government. Could this case be a new ‘Profumo type Scandal’???
LUNCH: Sausage, egg, bacon, hash brown and peeled tomato.
DINNER: Steak with chips
14.14pm- Relaxing watching TV. Cooked for Officers and cleared up reception area. Need to relax a bit. Could not get through to my family but did talk with mum at least. This weekend must write to my sons Anthony and Milan.
SUNDAY 16 JUNE 2013
07.27am- Oops last night was going to write up diary but got immersed in a TV programme that closed an era – the closing of Granada TV Studios in Manchester in December last year I wanted to take over the TV documentary WORLD IN ACTION but no one knew who actually owned the name if anyone did!
LUNCH: Roast beef with Yorkshire pudding/potatoes, 3 veg and cake with custard.
DINNER: Cheese roll – not hungry
18.33pm- Not much going on today news wise accept that Iran are sending 8000 troops to Syria! Not ruddy much eh! And Russia will arm the Syrian government! Not much eh? A sunny day but did not go out. Worked on helping out three people. Cannot do much but in one case truly can be fatal for the government. We shall see though. Boy how I miss my family but can’t do much. Tomorrow is another day and another hope!
MONDAY 17 JUNE 2013
07.00am- Happy Anniversary! I should have had money credited to my phone account so I can call my family. The G8 conference is the news today. Putin has made clear his position: - if the West send arms to the Syrian rebels he will arm the Assad government! What a situation. Why don’t people just mind their own frigging business in life? But the USA needs Wars to survive!
LUNCH: Tagliatelle with sugo napoletano
DINNER: Smoked haddock pie.
21.06pm- Today has been one of those days that I have felt alone. Anyway I talked to my son Gianni and Mike. I wonder how in heaves name I am ever going to repair and make good the damage I must have done. The children are all great and none blame me but it’s not the point. I feel the blame. The children deserved my time. My wife deserved my time. Instead I chose the dedication to my job. I just really want to go back to Italy not just because I am free but to try and make good. Tonight when I got back I received a ‘father’s Day’ card from Mike, and a note from the UK Border Agency to see them tomorrow. I hope it’s my deportation order. Today I also talked with Caroline and received two emails from her. She IS doing a great job on OPC!! I never got to talk to my mother. Oh well! I hope tomorrow I will get credit on my phone account so I can do that. What news tonight? Only Prince Phillip is out of hospital…Bully for him!!!!
TUESDAY 18 JUNE 2013
07.06am- Good morning all. News today:- Hearts football club in administration with debts of over 25 million pounds and Charles Saatchi seems to be having problems with Nigella Lawson. I once went to dinner at their house and I sensed something not right and that was 2004 so it ‘seems’ trouble brewing. Oh well who knows what goes on behind closed doors.
LUNCH: Penne with napoletano sugo and cake
DINNER: Ravioli, lamb and sausage with cake and custard
09.22am- Am at the immigration surgery on B Wing and have just been served with IMMEDIATE DEPORTATION ORDER REGULATION 19(3)(b). That means I am on my way back to Italy.
20.42pm- Called my son Mike and told him. Called Gianni and told him. Tomorrow must call my mum. Someone is coming to see me at 09.32 and I don’t know who it is but it may be from the Embassy. We will see. A good day today!
WEDNESDAY 19 JUNE 2013
07.15am- Slept well. Today Ian Brady faces the Mental Health Tribunal to stop his force feeding. I wish him good luck. The sooner force feeding is stopped the sooner he dies. He wants to die and I did all I could whenacting for him to die. We shall see. After my ‘Letter from Inside’ about rogue bankers being made liable then go to jail now Parliament agrees! About 20 years too fucking late! Today will be a warm day but I am in most of the day. I just noticed I put March on my diary instead of June. What the fuck is wrong with me for God’s sake? Must be something psychological. More shite to qualify excuses for single errors.
THURSDAY 20 JUNE 2013
20.58PM- Uffa – Too busy to write up anything this morning, as a matter of fact it is going to be hard work to write up every day, so might have to skip a day or two. First thing I had to do was an urgent ECHR emergency measures application for Emilio. He has to get them posted as I can’t do all. Spoke this morning to my son Gianni, to Mike and my mum. This afternoon I saw Gary my lawyer and gave him copy of my Deportation Order He was surprised but c’est la vie!! Today though I still don’t feel well and am lacking in Vitamins damn it. Dr Osmon has prescribed me but still don’t have them. What a pain! All things going well really but miss my family. At the end of the day there is only ONE person to blame for all this and it is ME! What a situation though!
LUNCH: Pasta Bolognese and omelette.
DINNER: Paella, pizza and cheesy bake
The scandal that is about to break in the Tory Government is going to be quite something Cabinet Minister having affair with spy. They found out! So what happens next??? I won’t say – yet! One of the issues though that I have with myself is this:- How did I allow this to happen? Deal or no deal I have put my family through turmoil. Do they care about the deal I have struck with the Taliban and US Government? Who fucking cares actually. I have missed out on my son growing up and why? For fucking Serbia, Iraq, Libya, Rwanda etc? What a fool I have been. I am the holder and keeper of many secrets but how stupid of me to have put those before my family! I really need now to begin to get a grip on life before I do really run out of life left to live that is worth living.
SATURDAY 22 JUNE 2013
07.09am- Slept well but with the thought of my family always in mind. Yes I have done a great job since 1972 but at a great cost. I am doing an even greater job right now but again the cost keeps increasing. The problem is that the cost is paid by my family not me! OK get ready for work big boy!!!
BREAKFAST: Sausage, mushrooms, egg and bacon.
LUNCH: Chicken with chips
DINNER: Cheese and egg flan.
20.54pm- Finished work today at 4pm and had a chat with a few people. Called my son Gianni and again the boy makes me feel good, called also my son Antony who was with my mother today. All is ok. He also never once really slagged me off or put any blame on me. What a difference my children and their attitude towards me and the son of ‘Twat With Slit’ who does not even talk to her. The title ‘dad’ or ‘mum’ is not obtained by DNA but by actions. Yes, I may be here but my family does not blame me or loathe me. I really have not done anything wrong but what can I do when I had to comply with agreements? Spoke also with Caroline who will run the Taliban situations and the - what will be major ‘Profumo’ type scandal in the Tory Government. Tonight Italy plays Japan so my son tells me but I can’t watch it damn it. Of course had England qualified for the Confederations Cup it would have been a different situation. As it is, even the under 21s got their backsides kicked so no football on TV Typical!!!!!!!
MONDAY 24 JUNE 2013
07.07am- Went to sleep last night at about 21.30pm as I was so tired. It shows that working 12 hour days do take their toll on anyone. Feel good today. The news this morning is that Nelson Mandela is critically ill. He is labeled as a ‘revered statesman.’ Yet for 26 years he was a dangerous prisoner who could have been released at anytime if he had renounced violence as a means to achieving politically motivated goals! He was on the world terrorist list! Well just goes to show how things can change and how easy it is to go from terrorist, or crook, to leader!!!
12.35pm- WOW – The UK Border Agency came for me in Reception to sign the first papers for removal. It is ironic that now I am subject to a Deportation Order and its final I could even ask for bail pending removal! Funny or what?
LUNCH: Steak and kidney pie and cake
DINNER: Turkey and corn pie
19.26pm- Still at work. Today will be a long day but no matter.
21.32pm- Have not been able to contact my son Gianni today so I am quite upset especially as tomorrow he will go to Madrid and in two days his mum to Rome. Things have got a bit out of hand and unfortunately the timing has got screwed up quite a bit damn it. Normally no problem but as it happens it has upset the apple cart quite a bit as have to start again in Doha. Anyway that is for another day. At the moment as I have said I will get up every morning and breathe in and out all the time until it becomes a habit I cannot give up. What a life!
WEDNESDAY 26 JUNE 2013
07.00am- Great sleep again. The news today is all about Ian Brady. It would seem the decision as to whether he is sane, or not, will be tomorrow. What is troubling is the questions asked of him: - “Is he allowed to say what he wants?” Incredible. It would seem the only country that applies guarantees on international law is Russia and China who stand up to the USA. Tomorrow will be three months I am here. I wonder!!
LUNCH: Chicken and Rice.
DINNER: Pasta and Pizza
20.34pm- Today I saw my box brought down and thought I would be away in the morning but in fact it is a mistake as it is Southwark Crown Court for a pre-fixed ‘intention’ Called my mother today and my son Mike. How I miss my family.
THURSDAY 27 JUNE 2013
06.06AM- Early morning and maybe I will have to take a small trip to Southwark Crown Court but Sarah Hall is booked to see me at 3.13pm. We shall see!
09.10am- Wow how heavy the day is. Called Caroline in Spain as I don’t have enough money on my UK phone account to call Mike. Grrrrrrrrrr!
12.05pm- Feel quite tired. Tonight I must tell NK about me and what is being done. I will leave work early tonight.
20.13pm- Saw Luke of the Border Control today. He smiled at me. Called my mum. Hope tomorrow can have money on account.
LUNCH: Sweet and sour pork with rice and chocolate cake.
DINNER: Chicken and chips and sponge cake with custard.
20.15pm- Feel tired. Sort out few files then early to sleep.
SATURDAY 29 JUNE 2013
07.17am- Good morning all! Slept well but had a real weird dream. Let’s hope dreams don’t come true! Today the Head of the UK Military said that the UK/US should have entered talks with the Taliban years ago! Well we will and soon! Get ready for work now!
BREAKFAST: Sausage, bacon, hash brown, egg, beans and toast
DINNER: Sausage and three glasses fresh orange juice.
21.04pm- Came back around 4pm today wearing Dolce Gabbana jeans and Ralph Lauren shirt. One Officer asked if I was going out drinking tonight! Funny! Have done three small cases helping people write letters no more, no less. It is interesting to note that the Government Minister who is about to be exposed in the ‘Profumo’ type scandal has kept very quiet of late. He knows its coming. I am worried about my health here, missing proteins and vitamins, I must find a way of getting some supplements. Dr Osmon has prescribed me vitamin C so I take those each day. Tomorrow is supposed to be a lock down but I think I will work. We shall see. It is getting close to my fucking birthday, fuck it and I’m still here! I just can’t get work out of my system.
21.10pm- Damn tired though. It’s been a difficult week and I miss my family. Saw Lord Davenport today. How the system is trying to screw him up without real good cause. Oh well! I will actually try and help him. He is truly a nice guy!
MONDAY 1 JULY 2013
06.42am- Happy Birthday to me!!!! Yet another Birthday, Anniversary, Xmas, New Year away from the family. Of late I am beginning to question my own judgment both past and present. I should have been in Italy already but as usual had not yet quite completed what I have to do! How many more times do I do this? The point is that I can’t start a job and half finish it. Simply beyond me but the point is that it’s my family who suffer! Oh well!
09.50am- Angela from Border Control served upon me the Deportation Order to leave with immediate effect. What a nice birthday present!!!
12.32pm- Had a nice lunch.
LUNCH: Rice with Italian sugo and sausage.
13.21pm- Today Croatia join the EU. It will be their birthday also. Nice one!
13.47pm- UK Border Control came to take my fingerprints: - The old fashioned way of course. They said they would give me details of my flight to Italy. We shall see!
17.31pm- Spoke to Caroline and to Mike. Things going in right direction. The Taliban will go to peace talks but on terms and may be ready for the ole-commission arms but again on terms. Hope soon can get back into the flow of things.
20.40pm- Came back at about 7enish and had a nice tea with Nick K. At least a soul saved I hope. Let us see what tomorrow brings. Received letters from Caroline and from Mike. All the children sent me birthday wishes. How nice! Do I deserve it I doubt it frankly. This way of life is for sure not correct upon my family. None of this should have happened.
FRIDAY 5 JULY 2013
07.14am- It’s 65 yeas today since the NHS was formed and initiated. Does it work? Maybe! Had some really strange dreams of late mostly about my father! God rest his soul – I will bring to justice ALL those that have played a part in his murder with all meaning that!
LUNCH: Tagliatelle with meatballs/apple pie and custard.
DINNER: Fish and chicken with pasta.
21.28pm- Moved to B1-05 which makes it much easier for officers to open up for me in the morning and at night. Emilio cleaned the room out so hard. Feel tired tonight. Moving is always a stress!
SATURDAY 6 JULY 2013
Good morning from my ‘new’ quarters. Slept well. Ready for the day. Not much real news but then I must wait until I get to ‘Reception’ to watch Russia Today news or Al Jazerra TV to see the other viewpoint. Weather wise it’s going to be nice.
LUNCH: Sausage, egg, bacon, hash browns with Sherry trifle.
DINNER: Fish and chips with doughnuts and custard.
22.11pm- Came back at about 3pm and worked on a case which truly has disturbed me. It exemplifies what is wrong with the legal system today and that system convicted me of not doing my work properly! Incredible hypocrisy! No post today. Well no post was delivered. The system here regarding the post is totally inefficient if not unlawful. The trouble is that the post room has no prison officers! They are needed but they are too underpaid and have no motivation. This is the fault of the Ministry of Justice. They are useless!
SUNDAY 7 JULY 2013
07.24am- Good good good day! The news today.- After nearly ten years Abu Qatada is finally deported to Jordon Note he is deported not extradited. He is deported on the same grounds that the Secretary of State has used for me. Well, we keep an eye on this, Qatada was my client for a while.
19.49pm- Well Abu Qatada has finally been taken to Jordan. He will be in detention for a few days and….wait for it!!!! He may well be released on bail!!
LUNCH: Chicken, roast potatoes, broccoli, carrots with cake and custard.
DINNER: Cheese sandwich toasted.
Murray won Wimbledon the first ‘British’ to win in 77 years! Of course he is ‘British’ because he won. If he had lost he would have been Scottish. Sad to see Monaco Chief of police, Andre, dead! The CIA have much to answer!!!! Did not call anyone today but had a relaxing day. Have been open all day and it’s quite nice. But then I do work and comply so at least I take a pride in what I do, and do it well. Miss music and recording. Oh well can’t have it both ways! My friend Nick and Emilio both keep my spirits high and so far so good. Today has been hot, hot, hot but I am inside not outside. So it’s another day. My own fault! I have chosen this way! Miss my family a lot but again must be patient! There are so many people in worse position than me but right now how I feel frankly I wish time could fly! I actually have done nothing wrong but it is what it is.
MONDAY 8 JULY 2013
07.23am- What a nice morning for once weather wise! The news is all about Andy Murray winning Wimbledon. Of course he is now British not Scottish. How the media can spin! Abu Qatada may well get bail in Jordon soon. That really will be incredible. Let’s see how things go for me this week. My son Gianni truly needs my presence.
LUNCH: Steak and kidney pie with yoghurt.
DINNER: Cheesebake with mince and ice cream.
20.17pm- Spoke with my mother today. It was so nice to hear her voice. Poor mum – will she ever understand what I do? Who knows! My father was killed because of me but I will get my revenge for that! All in good time! Tried to call Gianni but no success! I miss him. Also was not able to talk to my wife. Spoke with Caroline. Told her about J.G. former Scotland Yard Detective who was having an affair with Jill Dando! Was she killed because of him???Who knows! Of course the news is still about Andy Murray who won Wimbledon. That will drag on – yawn yawn! Much going on behind the scenes with the Taliban and discussions. Nothing on the news regarding the NSA still spying on the EU! Well what do we expect?
20.22pm- The day flies by actually and I sleep really well, more because I try and forget what happens outside these walls. But rest assured I am really not happy because I have done nothing wrong, yet because of my work I must be away from family. It’s really getting to me and soon I don’t know how much I can, or will take.
TUESDAY 9 JULY 2013
07.03am- Slept well as usual. I am sleeping each night at least 8 hours and have not as yet had a restless night! Incredible. Today my ex-client Jeremy Bamber will know if his “full life” tariff is legal. It is clearly not in my view but we will see. One thing is for sure he has killed no one. That I proved and his lie detector showed. But when the state wants to cover up a murder then there has to be a full gag!
10.58am- Just heard on Sky news that Jeremy Bamber has won in the European Court that full life tariffs are in breach of the convention. What conquering of the judgments is another matter? I know one thing- Bamber did not kill his family! He was the fall guy for what was an SIS operation against five people in Europe of which Neville Bamber was one.
LUNCH: Fish and chips with chocolate doughnut.
DINNER: Risotto with mushrooms.
20.54pm- Yes, managed to talk to my son Gianni! You don’t know just how happy I am when I hear his voice. I love and adore all my children but Gianni is the youngest so he gets all of my attention because he is the youngest but I love them all. I have not heard from Anna or Milan for three months plus. I hope soon! I heard that “Bebe” an Italian alleged Mafioso man has been arrested in Bogota and sent back to Italy within 24 hours! That is how it should work! Today I was told that I could be sent back to Italy this week! We shall see. Tomorrow I have Sarah Hall, God bless her, coming to see me. No post today. The Taliban are waiting for talks. I hope not too long. Tomorrow is yet another day in this ongoing saga!
WEDNESDAY 10 JULY 2013
07.32am – Watched the Nat Fraser murder trial last night frightening how he was found guilty over zero evidence. That is always the danger of trial!
LUNCH: Chicken and chips/Pasta napoletano
DINNER: Fisherman’s pie
11.00am – Just met with Sarah Hall. It’s always great to see her. Nothing much new: We just must wait until the Border Agency decides when to send me.
20.15pm – Did not call anyone today. Have nothing new to say to anyone. Don’t feel well anyway so must just relax. Two emails from Caroline. Bless her!
THURSDAY 11 JULY 2013
07.25am – Feeling better today, had a good sleep. Here the Ramadan so many are not eating at the usual time. The news today is of the conviction of the SAS soldier convicted after a retrial for possession of a gun and 350 rounds of ammunition. The defence??? He was depressed and also did not know what he was doing when he smuggled the gun back from Iraq! Totally absurd defence! The very people who should not have guns! Oh well!
LUNCH: Rigatoni with basilico sugo and sausage.
DINNER: Ravioli with chicken
21.11pm – Tonight was late getting back. On the news a massive fraud by ‘Serco’ and ‘GS4’ the people who run some of the prisons and tagging. They have falsified things and people tagged. Incredible!!!! Did not talk to my son or wife or anyone. I bitterly regret 1972 each and every fucking day. I feel I will be betrayed, I have no confidence in those who promised me so much since 1972 but I have a voice and an outlet and will use it!
FRIDAY 12 JULY 2013
07.13 am – I am up early each and every morning as a matter of habit now. Nothing has changed. Sometimes I just don’t even want to write though I know I must because I have said I would. What is the value of a person’s word? Well, to me much. One of the TV companies that want to interview me has already spoken with some of the ‘victims.’ What a load of total crap! Victims! There are none! Anyway, let them say what they want I will deal with all in due course. All was pre-destined and that is how it had to be but victims? No victims in my case. Victims of the state? Millions!
20.02pm – Came back early today. In the afternoon Border Agency told me I will go back to Italy next week. If so all well and good but we wait and see. Only post from dear Sarah Hall who is coming to see me on Monday.
SATURDAY 13 JULY 2013
07.22am – Slept well again. Let’s see next week if agreements are maintained. So far so good and timing is more or less on the ball. Working today, cooking breakfast. Funny when one cooks one is rarely hungry.
18.57pm – Came back to B wing about two thirty(ish) spoke today with my son Mike and Caroline. All is well. Finally Mike can now have his treatment on the NHS and does not have to travel to Italy every month. News today: - 4201 people awaiting deportation. I guess I must be the 1!!!!
SUNDAY 14 JULY 2013
07.31am – Slept so well got up late as today is effectively my day off. News - more violence in Northern Ireland. Well what can one expect! Yesterday spoke a little with Mossad agent here. He said Mi6 guys came to see him but he won’t talk. You see there are standards kept in this job from all over the place. He is a good man! I wrote to Justin Penrose at the Sunday Mirror - wished him well. He had been arrested in the phone hacking probe but all allegations dropped! I wonder who helped. Well done! Justin is a really nice, nice, nice guy! He will have great career!
LUNCH: Roast Potatoes
DINNER: Cheese sandwich
20.24pm – Today Antonello came from C Wing to see me and Emilio and it was nice to spend some time with fellow Italians. Imagine three Italians having a coffee in an English prison. Funny… No post and nothing spectacular on the news. Feel very tired because have not eaten for last three days hardly! Just lost my appetite especially as I do not know which day, if any, next week will go back to Italy. Prison is a cauldron of talent of all sorts and a hotpot of crime. However, each and all work hard every day at the most menial of jobs. If only those inmates worked hard outside. Oh well? This week will be heavy and may be complicated. Will the agreements be kept? I hope so. Tried to talk with Mossad agent here but he is truly professional and refused to speak. Not an easy job. Here also is the guy who broke in the Queens bedroom years ago! What is he doing here? Returned to crime? Who knows!
MONDAY 15 JULY 2013
07.04am – Slept well gain. No real news and the whole of England are waiting for the birth of Prince William’s child the heir to the throne. It is supposed to be any day. In the USA yet again law and order is thrown to the wind. A jury verdict of ‘not guilty’ is not appreciated by the community, so riots galore! When will people simply accept the jury system or failing which elect politicians that lawfully alter, or change, the system? It cannot be stopped! Yet another lonely day.
A lovely day today. Took some sun and did some work. No news regarding day of departure but I doubt before end of week.
13.07pm – Still no news about the Royal baby.
13.18pm – Will go and see Sarah Hall shortly who is coming to see me. Soon there will be revealing news regarding the case of NK who the state had intended to totally ‘stitch up’ like Bamber. But the media are all out for the Minister involved and his departure will occur. Some say he can survive the scandal but I doubt it. Prison is a funny place. It makes you reflect on life in general. It is not necessarily a bad place but if used properly can be instructive. The problem is that 99% of the prison
Is full of those who are simply broke no property and no outlook. Rarely do the rich come to jail. What does that say of society? An awful lot.
TUESDAY 16 JULY 2013
07.05am – No news today, so the BBC upgrade ‘events’ to be news! - Interesting concept. Not for me or for OPC. I will upgrade the ‘Profumo’ style event soon. It is shocking to see the length that the state will go to protect the immorality of its ministers! Received emails from Caroline I like the direction she is taking with OPC some great stories.
DINNER: Sausage roll
20.56pm- Yet another hot day but it passes quickly. Came back at about 7.30pm and had nice chat with Nick K. I do believe things will now break in his case especially after ‘our people’ put some pressure on the police to affect the proper disclosure! There is now a statement from a police officer identifying the ‘person’ who is supposed to have been murdered in April. The identification was in May! But then this case is not about murder but about ‘cover up’ except it is not covered up. Those responsible will pay for what could have been a miscarriage of justice. Anyway, on the news point – nothing of any real interest. Received letter from Caroline with the news we put on our paper. That is real news. I miss my family a lot. I am, after all human. I have not called anyone because I have little to add or say. I must just wait! It is annoying because one never knows if there will be a betrayal, but rest assured if there is I will arrange myself during the time I have to spend for what I did not do! And rest assured I did NOT do anything wrong. It was all pre-conceded this. Anyway we will see.
WEDNESDAY 17 JULY 2013
07.03am – Went to sleep last night at 21.15pm and woke up at 06.38am. All through the night a sound sleep! My friend Emilio cannot sleep so well and does not understand how I sleep so well. The news today is that terrorism is on the increase since September 11 attacks. What a load of crap. There is no such organization as Al Qaeda! It simply does not exist! Never existed!
DINNER: Rice Biryani – small quantity
20.10pm - In this fucking job right from day one on May 17th 1972 I knew that at any stage I would have to be ready to drop everything and to move on and forget. But in 2013 how can I forget the souls of my family, my wife, my children, my relatives, even my dog Rufus? At what price can I say ‘enough’? How the hell do I know that I will not end up getting fucked over? Well I don’t but I have an exit strategy in any case but one that will be a Sansone type! The Chillistines resistance won’t last if I get fucked over! Tomorrow Gary is coming to see me at 3.15pm. Looking forward to taking coffee! Was not expecting him bus so so so glad he is coming. Tonight the TV is on the blink! Only three channels working. How sad eh? When some people can’t even afford a TV I can’t complain. Not feeling so well partly because of the reduced food intake. But will be OK I hope. I drink a lot and sleep well. The day passes quickly. I water the flowers outside reception three times a day - very reminiscence of the guy in the film ‘BLOW.’
THURSDAY 18 JULY 2013
06.54am – Slept well. The Taliban are trying to accommodate peace talks but as usual the US/UK wants to try and rewrite history. Hardly anyone knows that they were the legitimate government of Afghanistan until the US/UK invaded for totally false and fabricated reasons. The result is billions thrown away in a war that is futile and only increases one thing – the amount of deaths all of which could have been avoided. This morning, thinking about my youngest son. Let me say clearly – I will not let things go, if I miss much more of his life. What I know will make Assange and Snowden seem minuscule. Betrayal was never a factor that I was trained to accept lightly. We shall see!
07.34am – In prison terms it’s called a ‘spin’ but in real language it’s called a full search of my room. The order to strip naked and the whole room searched including a drug dog. At 08.05am all OK, signed the disclaimer that I have no complaints and it’s all over. The task of putting all back together will be with me tonight. That is for another time.
LUNCH: Toast with cheese
DINNER: Cheese flan.
20.27pm – Came back in to face the task of having to remake the bed and put the room back together, Emilio has done what he could but he too has been busy. No problem. One must never forget that this is a prison and although I have a trusted job I am not in a hotel. The sole state pays my room rate of £1,153.84 per week. Yes the cost of keeping me in jail is about £60,000 per year plus. Not a bad rent. Can get great apartment in Monte Carlo for less than that and a great room in Madrid or Palma de Majorca – even Paris! What a stitch up this Criminal Justice System is! Oh well I did not devise it and don’t even agree to it but it is what it is.
FRIDAY 19 JULY 2013
07.05am - More news in the Nick K case and what will be a ‘Profumo’ scandal when or if it breaks. The most important factor however, is that an innocent man is not jailed for eternity for what he did not do. All else is irrelevant! Can’t stop thinking about my son Gianni. I think about all my children but Gianni is on my mind. It seems all has gone to pot in this matter but that means one thing: - I have nothing to lose anymore and if I get betrayed all bets are off.
DINNER: Cheese bake and penne bolognese
18.26pm - Good news re my dear friend Antonello – his hearing that we did the appeal for is now listed for 2nd August 2013. His ordeal will come to an end soon. He deserves it. Over three years in jail, his wife passed away, and his minor son looking after himself. Yet dear Alessandro has come through with flying colours. I hope my son too comes through. He should do but who knows. But as I have said I have zero to lose if things don’t go as they should.
20.02pm – Just came back from an easy day. It passes really fast the time. Today it dawned on me that I am with an organisation called ‘The state.’ I can’t fight it! I just have to go with the flow. I called my son Mike and Caroline. What would I do without her help, expertise, dedication, loyalty sheer hard work? Who knows? I just know that the Raven and Owl are anseions to strike and seek justice to be done. I am having a hard job holding them back and soon I will be too weak to hold on, let me see what happens and hope for the best.
SATURDAY 20 JULY 2013
06.48am – Went to sleep at 9.20 last night and of course I am awake now. I could even have slept another hour or so but I have to work today so ‘no can do’ as Sinatra sang. Talking of Sinatra I dreamt about him last night. Wow! Such an honour! Looking at BBC news this morning and comparing it with the screenshot from OPC boy oh boy there is a big problem with the BBC in allocating news. The Government really do blackout real news in favour of what I call events! Looking back over 40 years I have been involved so many times in real news! The price was paid by my family. Well, as I said I have nothing really to lose now so it seems all bets will be off soon. I will give it until the 3 August! Martin Brunt was asking after me this week. How nice of him!
LUNCH: Bacon sandwich
DINNER: Rice only
21.08pm – Came back into the wing about 3pm and have just shut my door. Helped my friend Emilio to clean out the staff room, as I have always said a job must always be done well – any job. All the work I do helps distract my mind from other issues. Received a letter from Martin Brunt who eagerly awaits news on the ‘Profumo type case.’ It will come soon. I have almost decided to form a ‘Prisoners Union’ based upon Act.II of the ECHQ. Although I have not yet decided upon a name. I talked to Lord Davenport today and he wants in! We shall see! First I will draft the objectives after which will consider the name and other matters. A letter to the prisoner’s newspaper may help. At the end of the day it does not matter. Who cares so long as it gets done? I miss so much my little boy. Well he is 18 in December and I miss all my children and wife but I hope wrong will be put right - soon!
SUNDAY 21 JULY 2013
07.46am- Went to sleep late last night watching a film called ‘The American’ but did not finish it. Result: - Woke up a bit later with a movie called ‘Split Second.’ Would make a good play! The weather has changed a little for the worse normally its cooler thank God.
DINNER: Cheese sandwich
19.21pm – Today has gone quite quickly, as much, mostly because here we are only really ‘closed’ when necessary but then we all work very hard and co-operate with the system. The prison Service is entirely dependent on co-operation of the inmates. That must always be the case. I will always do my best and comply. I did not call anyone as usual. Have I made a mistake? For sure because I miss my family so much but I must do it this way and must maintain the faith. Of course it is so much easier if one doing my job is alone, has no one, but that is not the case here. However, rest assured that I did not do anything wrong and if I am betrayed I really will take action and not let things go. But I have faith in my people and all will be OK. The question is – one of time. E = MC2 Where E is Energy; M = Mass; C2 is the speed of light squared. Still no news of the Royal Baby! I remember when Prince William was born. Diana’s death? Well read my story on her.
The Sunday Times today has almost zero news! Yet there is so much out there, it’s just that real news is not allowed to be printed. What a fucking world we live in.
MONDAY 22 JULY
07.06am – Back to the normal routine of getting up at 06.30am. The weather has cooled down and there is still no sign of the birth of the Royal Baby! I remember how anxious I was when all of my children were due to be born. They were the happiest days of my life waiting for the children to enter this World. What a proud man I was and now my eldest son is 34 etc etc. And what about my grandchildren? I don’t even know when they were born! Total disgrace! My parents were real grandparents to my children. No wonder I refuse the title! Oh well let’s see what the future beckons for all of us. A feste the clown sings in Twelfth night.
What is love? 'Tis not hereafter.
Present mirth hath present laughter.
What's to come is still unsure.
09.55am - I spoke to soon. The Duchess of Cambridge has gone into hospital to have her baby.
16.24pm – Well it’s a boy! England will in years time have yet another King. After the Queen there will be the King of England.
20.48pm – A lovely letter from Caroline with the screenshots of OPC. Caroline is just incredible! Tomorrow the Border Agency will see me. Let’s see if I get had over or not but anyway one way or another I will not let things go so easy.
DINNER: Rice and chicken
20.51pm – The weather is hot hot! Tomorrow is another day. In Kabul the Taliban are waiting in the wings in Iraq nothing has changed and conditions are shit. In Libya also a big mess. In Serbia another mess. All countries that I have worked - in a mess. It seems so is my life.
TUESDAY 23 JULY 2013
06.57am – What a night weather wise but I heard nothing because I sleep like a log. Thunder, lightening, heavy rain to baptize the new Royal Baby I guess. The BBC call it ‘lively’ weather. Makes no different to me because I will be inside an air conditioned building! Other news – the body of a woman has been found in a suitcase in Hendon near a sports centre. Watch this space. My gut instinct tells me foul play.
DINNER: Cheese flan
21.15pm – The reduction in my food intake is now causing me to be uncomfortable and not well. The heat does not help either. It is a choice that we all must make in life. I have not heard my young son now for some time. I have not talked anyone. Only Caroline I communicate with. Not heard any news on the name of the ‘Royal Baby’ yet. Jeez I can remember Prince William being born and Charles and Diana holding him out in their arms outside the hospital. A lot of water has passed under the bridge since then! Time has passed and what have I done with 30 years? Well, Serbia, Iraq, Afghanistan and Libya! Then Sierra Leone and Rwanda and a frolic with Liberia! What about all those so called ‘terrorist’ groups? Well those just come my way and will always come my way! I guess sooner rather than later something will blow – not the film although I feel like that! Today I did not water my plants outside ‘Reception.’ The rain did the job for me. Tomorrow I have someone coming to see me. Tonight early night. Also feel tired because of limited food intake.
WEDNESDAY 24 JULY 2013
06.56am – Slept well just continual pain in my left arm which is continuous. I would not want any problem whilst here. After all at the end of the day I would like to depart this mortal coil – if one must – in my own country not here. No name yet for the Royal Baby. I bet on the name ‘Philip’ don’t know why just have a feeling. We will see.
LUNCH: Spaghetti Bolognese
20.19pm – Another day over and nothing remarkable has occurred other than I am still around. Received such a nice a letter from Conor, from Belfast with 12 first class stamps. How incredible certain people who are so nice to me. Do I deserve it! I miss my children so much and my wife but what can I do? I had such a nice meeting with Gary Bloxsome today. It was so nice. No news regarding the name of the Royal Baby but my bet is still on Philip! Today the CPS charged a guy over the murder of a police officer Keith Blakelock over 28 years ago. I mean 28 years ago? This country really likes to gamble with justice. They charge people for alleged offences 50 years ago on old sese allegations. It’s really bizarre. The Taliban have stepped back from peace talks for the moment. We must wait! What does my work have to do with my family? Well they are paying the price for the state of affairs today. I succeeded in Serbia/Iraq and Libya but the price is paid by my family. It is truly not fair and probably one of the greatest miscarriages of justice!
THURSDAY 25 JULY 2013
07.01am – Dreamed of my family. The name of the Royal Baby is George Alexander Luis. Well I got it wrong I really thought that ‘Philip’ would get a look in. In Spain over seventy dead in the worst rail crash ever. Of course I am worried about my son who is in Madrid. This job I do really has no space for family but I have family so what can I do?
20.20pm – Change of plan. Considering all the factors I am better on a repatriation course for reasons that will become obvious later. That will, or may, delay matters a couple of months but not more. I will call my son tomorrow and tell him.
FRIDAY 26 JULY 2013
06.47am – Today another political appeal being held in the Court of Appeal – Stuart Hall. Let us see how intellectually dishonest the Courts are! Another nice day weather wise. Must try to call my son today. The Nick K case is coming to a close in his favour. In the sense that the man did nothing wrong in the first place but that really does not seem to matter.
LUNCH: Egg on toast
21.03pm – Well the intellectually dishonest Court of Appeal increased the sentence of Stuart Hall from 15 to 30 months! I say no more. Was going to call my son but did not. Don’t know how to explain to him and my family the choice I have had to make. I know I will end up losing a bit but the best is yet to come and I have faith in myself.
SATURDAY 27 JULY 2013
07.12am – Woke up to the news of Egypt under fire with a number of deaths. All of this is US/UK engineered. In Spain the train driver is under arrest for ‘wreckless driving.’ Incredible how society has turned into a ‘blaming’ manner. If anything goes wrong and it’s not the fault of the government then that person or some person must be blamed. If it’s the fault of the government then it’s forgotten or buried in the rubbish news, UFFA! What a bare society!
DINNER: Sausage sandwich
21.03pm – Tonight I think of my family and my wife jeez, for once in my life I could have, touch, feel someone I only dreamed of and look now what has happened. Of course, if any of the ‘Twats with Slits’ who lied through their teeth got the inkling that I was remotely suffering, how happy they would be. Strange really that professional liars take comfort only in the suffering of others!! Spoke with Caroline today and also with Mike my son. I’m not sure I really want to see anyone still, although I need to talk to Mike I probably think it best for my own peace of mind to be alone. After all, my job I work alone and for years now without back up. I miss Gianni and all the children but I doubt I will be able to see all the children together in one place again, probably ever. Pity - great shame. That I guess is my real sentence. I dreamed and worked to have all my family together and now I will be lucky to even see one again. Today feel a bit weak but what the hell. We move on – always ahead!
SUNDAY 28 JULY 2013
07.13am – What a strange dream I had. I dreamt an auntie of mine had a ‘partner’ a word that is nonexistent in Italian. Last night it rained big time and it cleared the air. Watching a film with George Saunders. Great quote: - ‘I told a lie and it happened to be the truth.’ - Some great films in the 50’s.
LUNCH: Rice pudding only
DINNER: Cheese on toast.
19.15pm – Finished the work on the case of Nick K and the murder that never happened. Did not call anyone again. Don’t know what more to say and the letter I was going to write to Border Control I have not done out of pure apathy. But it will be done eventually. Neither have I replied to anyone who has written to me. Arghhh…I am a nightmare at times with correspondence. But they will all get done! Tonight I will enjoy watching a film about an old friend, Alan Wicker, who died recently. Not many know but the filming on the murder of Mussolini was filmed by Alan Wicker. It is kept in the archives of the Security Services and the CIA! For some odd reason I feel quite confident about this week. Something tells me I’m into something good as the song goes. But what about my family and wife? Well when one talks of love and deep affection: - it’s never too late! So not withstanding all of this and the distance love has no boundaries and can even cross the sea of silence that exists. In fact as Peynet says:- ‘love is all!’
MONDAY 29 JULY 2013
07,03am – Woke up to the news that 37 people have been killed in Italy with a bus falling down a ravine. The passengers were pilgrims on their way back from Telese in the Deep South. Poor people! More tragedy in this shit world of ours.
15.38pm – Robbery in Cannes involving diamonds now estimated to be 88 million plus. I have an idea who could have done this but at the end of the day who cares! It’s not my business and invariably there has been help from ‘the inside!’ Tomorrow Silvio Berlusconi’s case comes up in the Supreme Court in Italy. The case was placed on the ‘expedited list! What a joke! The man is a Saint not a sinner.
21.39pm – Today a friend sent in the Corriere Della Sera! (Italian newspaper). Ah, what sentiment to be back in Italy. At the end of the day I am an Italian and nothing will suffice other than to be in my own Country. It’s called a ‘nostalgia’ for Italy. But soon I will be there! Once there I will deal with the injustices of what has happened. Received letter from Caroline. Yet again dear Caroline how great! This week I have much to do and I must get on with it. All very good my resolving other people’s problems and cases but I must also concentrate on my own too. I miss my family and wife so much but soon I will be in Italy, all will be resolved quickly. After all, Italy is my home regardless.
TUESDAY 30 JULY 2013
06.59am – Usual wake up time. No change! Today many people leaving jail for other jails around the UK. The news today? Too much internet fraud! But in Italy the lawyers for Berlusconi are in the Supreme Court for his appeal. Today I must do some correspondence.
LUNCH: Tuna Sandwich
21.08pm – Now for all those wondering about why I am not eating as I used to, it is not because there is no food, quite the contrary, I am in the privileged class that can have the best food but I chose not to eat or I did. I must just keep my eye focused on the ball. Today I was hoping that the Berlusconi trial appeal would be dealt with but it was not. I hope tomorrow. Instead my dear friend Emilio F received notification his asylum request was refused. That means he will now go to Italy. I did not call anyone today.
21.12pm – The post came and dear Caroline. Thank heavens for her. A lovely postcard from Dec Cluskey from the ‘Batchelors’ saying’ thinking of you.’ How nice. Tomorrow I really must write some letters to thank all those who have written. Tonight I feel tired and my head spinning a little. Maybe tomorrow I’ll eat just a little to keep my balance. In Iraq a car bomb kills 60 people. - Since April of this year over 3000 civilians have died because of bombs. That is the legacy of Tony Blair and George Bush! I have witnessed their crimes and consequences. As a result I have been persecuted but I don’t care.
WEDNESDAY 31 JULY 2013
06.59am – A great night’s sleep. Let us see what happens today regarding Silvio Berlusconi in Italy. The judgment of the Italian Supreme Court will be vital for Italy.
22.09 pm – Today I talked with my mother and also with Caroline. Not feeling too well. - Must eat more.
THURSDAY 1 AUGUST 2013
07.00am – A great night’s sleep. Last night I was really tired. I am still waiting for the Italian Supreme Court ruling on Silvio Berlusconi which is truly important. What I think could happen is, that the Court could send the case back to the lower Court but in September the whole case becomes time barred and the matter ends there. Let us see. Tomorrow is the hearing of Antonello in the High Court and Emilio F has lost his asylum request.
13.26pm – Emilio F has gone to Italy. He will be OK. At least he is in his own country.
DINNER: Potato bake
22.09pm – Tonight for the first time I am alone and will now have a single room. Emilio F is tomorrow on his way to Italy but could even be back for a week or so. We shall see! Well finally today Silvio Berlusconi has received a first definitive sentence and that is not good for the Italian people. He is guilty of nothing but the communists in Italy are too strong and there is not much that can be done against such strong historic groups. Injustice to the hilt but that is the word of the day. I talked with my son Mike today and Caroline. All going well. Tomorrow is an important day for Antonello. He will be ok.
FRIDAY 2 AUGUST 2013
06.54am – Had a restless night with acute colic! Now that is incredible because since I am eating very little how can I have colic? Anyway, today will be busy but stomach ache or not I go to work and do my best.
DINNER: Chicken with rice no sweet.
19.27pm – Today has been a great day. The Court of Appeal will re-open a case on their own motion and granted great order for my friend Antonello. He is so happy and so am I. Am particularly proud of my son Mike who went to Court and reported to me. Such a good boy. I miss all my children so much. Am done now and it’s much easier in many ways especially as not feeling well. Emilio F should be in Italy by now and I hope by Monday he will be home. Today the Mossad agent also was moved from this place. I say no more for now.
20.03pm – Just received notification that Gary or Sarah will come to see me on Monday. This weekend I will write to the Border Agency regarding the timetable of my departure to Italy. In theory I could even go to Serbia but I think Italy is the best bet. Today I was really proud of Antonello’s case. I have not lost my touch. I will continue to help as many people as requested. I must also write a few articles. Hopefully may even be able to do one this weekend. The Nick K case is also ok. Today the CPS had a case conference and I hope that by next week the matter will settle. In fact I know it should. I miss my family a lot but I am using my time not passing time. I may even enter politics in Italy. Now that would be fun!
SATURDAY 3 AUGUST 2013
06.36am – Slept well from 9 o’clock last night. Boy I needed it. As I had pain in stomach THE other day and not slept it caught up with me. The news today? Yes Robert Mugabe has been re-elected President of Zimbabwe. Over 30 years in power. Incredible because only a few years ago there were plans to attack Zimbabwe. Way back in 1984 the British were disillusioned with Mugabe which is why I became involved in the Zimbabwe Banking Corporation. I guess one day I ought to write the real book.
LUNCH: Bacon sandwich (totally against Doctors orders)
20.47 pm – Some good news from Italy. Silvio Berlusconi will of course not go to jail and he will rebuild his party FORZA ITALIA. It’s incredible because I got a message to him to say to start his party back again. I still have my party PARTITO NACIONALE ITALIANO! Watch this space when I get to Italy!!! Spoke only with Caroline today. Tried to call Gianni but could not get through! Today I heard a great song that I wrote to Dec Cluskey of the ‘Batchelors’ to re-hash.
‘You’ll never get to heaven if you break my heaven if you break my heart.’ It was in the charts in 1964 when I was nine years of age! I will try and re-orchestrate it also and smooch it up a little! Tonight I must motivate myself to reply to the people who have written to me. It’s the least I can do. Nothing much in the news except that an ‘unknown’ threat ‘could’ occur ‘possible’ by Al Qaeda!!! What a load of rubbish. Anyway some people do believe a load of crap. I must also do the article on Rudolf Hess! So much not said about him and its time!
SUNDAY 4 AUGUST 2013
07.50am – Woke up today much later than usual but then this is supposed to be my ‘day off.’ Today I must write to Border Control. No more delays. I reviewed a murder case yesterday and found serious negligence, on the borderline of criminality, in the conduct of solicitors. They have filed a Defence Case Statement which is wholly in contrast and unsupported by the defense medical evidence. The case is Thomas K and its incredible how this boy, who concedes the facts but NOT the intention, is at real risk! I think to myself of all the cases I have seen how solicitors have acted by far more ‘criminal’ than I ever did but c’est la vie! The difference is that I am Italian: - a foreigner and I as a foreigner have embarrassed the government. Anyway all of this will be put right when I am in Italy. Right now I must just sit tight and smile!
LUNCH: Potatoes, roast beef, Yorkshire pudding, sweet custard and cake
DINNER: Fuck all.
18.45pm – Today has flown by. I was hoping that Antonello would come to see me but lack of staff prevented any movement. Never mind another day gone. I have written a four page letter to the UK Border Control. We will see what happens!
20.28pm – The news is HSBC has asked 40 consulates to close their accounts for fear of money laundering!!! Ha!! The biggest money launder is HSBC in Monaco! Talk about putting Count Dracula in charge of blood banks!! Tomorrow I will fax the letter to the UK Border Agency that way they will get it quick! Quick! That will surely put the rats amongst the cats!!!
MONDAY 5 AUGUST 2013
06.53am – ‘Weather wise it’s such a kookoo day’ as Sinatra sang in ‘come fly with me’! Here it’s raining but about 23 degrees. Still I am in T shirt and tracksuit bottom. Silvio Berlusconi has appointed Mariana Berlusconi as his heir! I know her. Not well, well, but I know her. At 47 it’s a good time to go into politics! Interesting thoughts that it is his daughter he has chosen – Good choice!.
DINNER: Burger with mash potato
20.58pm – Found out today that Emilio F is in Italy but not known if in jail or home arrest. Most probably in home arrest. I will write to him this week. Called Caroline today she has posted some good stories. Received letter from Italian Film maker who wants to do documentary on me, - we shall see! Sent fax to Border Control and took letter by hand to their office.
21.02pm – Today Andy Coulsens lawyer came to see me about June 2005. I hope that Sarah Hall comes soon. Tonight there is a shouting match outside between Muslins and Polish prisoners. What a racket! Spoke to my son Mike, could not talk a lot because limited credit on my account. Friday will have more but in the meantime must limit calling. There is a great deal to be had with Cyprus Airways. It would be good if Qatar Airways took a stake. Great deal. Thought a lot about my wife and family today but for now it’s all I can do – think – soon! Very glad that Berlusconi will revive FORZA ITALIA I will offer PARTITO NACIONALE ITALIANO to him too. It’s a better name and has clean history!!!!
TUESDAY 6 AUGUST 2013
07.11am – Another great night’s sleep. Should I feel guilty because I sleep so well? What is there to feel guilty about? I have done nothing wrong and simply carried out my job? So why feel guilty? The news today is that owners of dogs who attack people and seriously injure or kill will face life imprisonment! Incredible! This country in a hundred years will have 10% of its population in jail!!!
LUNCH: Chicken and Chips.
20.07pm- Not eating is taking its toll especially as I am working a full 12 hours a day and with joy too. Today at 11.45am Angela from UK Border Control came to see me. I cannot say the news first just that things are moving in the right direction. I will of course write to the Agency again tomorrow. Spoke with Mike and Anna – my lovely daughter Anna!!! How nice to hear her. I do miss all the others and am grateful for those that are here. Things though are moving in the right direction. When I arrive in Italy I will revive thePARTITO NACIONALE ITALIANO and move forward. I tell you this boy am I glad to be Italian. There was a time when I was young I would try and hide the fact but now it’s great great great. I have always been proud of my nationality always will.
20.12pm – Can’t stop thinking about my young son. All will be OK just need time. Will he ever forgive me? He will understand!!!
WEDNESDAY 7 AUGUST 2013
07.17am – Went to sleep at about ten o’clock before the news. This morning nothing really on the news because of course, the BBC does not really provide ‘news’ to the ‘common head.’ Have written to the UK Border Control; - Let us see what happens now!
09.01am – Today is the 50th anniversary of the Great Train Robbery. I will have Caroline post my story on the Great Train Robbery.
09.02am – The letter to the Border Control has been delivered. We shall see!!!!
DINNER: Spanish stew with rice and ice cream.
20.46pm – The whole point of prison is the question of waiting for the right event to happen. If you can do that without losing patience and faith, then no problem. I can. I have good job and position at the toughest jail in the UK if not in Europe. I am simply waiting for the Government to send me to Italy. New legislation has come into force that is truly incredible. So it’s best to just do my job and wait and within myself smile. Received email from Mike and spoke with Caroline today. It’s the 50th anniversary of the Great Train Robbery. It was 2005 that Biggs was released thanks SOLELY to me and he is still alive. God bless him. May he live to be one thousand. This afternoon I was thinking about my son Gianni. Boy do I miss him. I hope he does not think I have let him down. Still watch this space and just see what happens as soon as I get to Italy. Also I understand the Raven and Owl has been released and is looking for justice and/or to right wrongs! Good night all – for now!
THURSDAY 8 AUGUST 2013
07.04am – What nice weather today, yet again. Have good feeling about the next few days. I will step up the disclosure of vital information these coming days. In the news today it follows that the US has cancelled talks with Russia because Russia has given ‘temporary asylum’ to Snowden rather than extradite him to the US. Talk about babies throwing toys out of the pram!! Have feeling the Julian Assange situation will also break very soon!!!
LUNCH: Burger and bun.
20.41pm – Today in came a so called top mafia Don wanted by Italy for the past nineteen years. He has a seven year sentence that awaits him in Italy. Tomorrow he will go to Court and I guess he will make his own decision but he is a true polite, educated, well mannered gentleman. Prison is a shock for him but so it is for all but it will be ok. When you get over the first week and survive it then it’s really no harder than boarding school!!! No post today! I was rather hoping Sarah Hall would have attended me by now but she has not. I guess I must be patient! Today I tried hard not to think of my family but it’s impossible. I try to work hard so time passes quickly and it will. I saw ‘Angela’ from Border Control today. I will have some information ‘shortly.’ This is just a question of a small amount of time. Have to remember that I am only four months into this job! Have a good feeling action before 20 August!!
FRIDAY 9 AUGUST 2013
06.59am - Lovely night’s sleep yet again. The news this morning is about the ‘Mafioso’ caught living at Uxbridge for the past twenty years. Interesting how the media quickly allocate titles to people before a word of evidence is actually heard in a court of law. Justice today is very much infected by the media.
13.09pm - Domenico Rancadore walks free from Court owing to a massive fuck-up by the Italian Judicial Authorities.
15.03pm – Well as usual this country is by no means what I call a gauranteist state! Mr Rancadore should have walked free today but as usual he was remanded in custody because the Italian Government issued a new arrest warrant for him. I had a chance to think what the Italian Government would do and they did it, except that they have 90 days to extradite him otherwise he walks.
DINNER: Fish and rice.
20.42pm – Had a long interview with Border Control – went great. This evening Domenico R came back. He seems a nice guy to me. Is he Mafioso? What is a Mafioso? I mean too many frigging labels put on people. I do wish that were not the case. I sent him a note saying all will be fine! He is my friend of over thirty years! We all have the weak moments. Even Jesus Christ had his moment of doubt! Still the most important issue is to surely wake up in the morning and breath! Stay alive! No post tonight – well no post delivered! Tuesday Sarah will come to see me. Spoke to my son and Caroline. Tomorrow another day - Miss my family!
SATURDAY 10 AUGUST 2013
06.35am- Woke up early today. Nice cup of coffee and a film on BBC2 about 70 years old. – Getting back to Domenico R it is incredible. I was looking at the facts:- He was found NOT GUILTY of mafia type offences in 1993 and emigrated to the UK in 1999, in his absence (a violation of Act.6 HRA) he was convicted and sentenced to seven years. I mean bearing in mind if he returns to Italy he won’t spend a fucking day in jail, what is the point of it all? It takes the media attention away from the real problem of Italy!
20.40pm – Worked only in the morning. - Tired today. - Reviewed the whole of the NK case. He is in good hands with Gary! Spoke briefly with Mike and Caroline. Miss my wife and children but one must move forward.
SUNDAY 11 AUGUST 2013
07.04am – ‘Not only did SIS murder Alexander Litvinenko but in 1984 they killed Yuri Andropov newly elected Russian President after the death of Brezhnev by the same poison Polossium 201. I will write the story soon – very soon. Had a good night’s sleep - Things going well.
LUNCH: Chicken and roast potato desert cake with custard.
DINNER: Cheese on toast.
19.25pm - Spoke with Caroline and asked her to update my twitter feed. A thoroughly pleasant day, I worked on a couple of matters and tonight will relax and write up a political direction regarding trials in the criminal courts. Will read most of the papers and I will have all ready for Tuesday for Sarah Hall. Let us see what news she brings. I will be writing to the Border Control again this week.
MONDAY 12 AUGUST 2013
07.02am – This week I must push hard with the Border Control and I know the button to press. Not much news on the BBC or ITV but then the news service is hopeless in this country. I must also pursue hard the question of the National Union of Prisoners UK. Soggy day today. It may well rain quite a bit.
20.46pm- Received letter from Repatriation Clerk who has sent me ‘again’ a form to fill in but will process on urgent basis. I have written to the Clerk saying the date upon which I have to be sent to Italy is 20 August 2013 as this is what the law requires. We shall, of course, see but in any case the matter is moving quickly now! Of course, I know the trip and journey will be inconvenient but no problems I can handle that. Spoke to Caroline today. Tomorrow will call Mike and try Gianni but I prefer to stay under radar until I am in Italy!
21.05pm – Have just made my bed. Yes have a new duvet with great cover. Now under normal circumstance who would give a fuck about getting a duvet and cover? But here it’s a true result and makes the bed a better sleep! I do work hard and considering what I had when I came here the end of March, I have worked hard to attain my job and standing. That is done not with bollocks or chit chat but hard work which I never shy away from!
21.09pm – Tonight have headache. Perhaps it’s because I am not eating enough but I feel OK and am able to do a full twelve hour day. My mind though is constantly on my family. Well why would it be otherwise?
TUESDAY 13 AUGUST 2013
06.59am - Woke up half an hour ago and feel good. Things going in the right direction. - Nothing nicer than a cup of coffee, the newspaper, the TV on in the background and a pleasant day ahead. Today Sarah Hall is coming to see me, will be nice to see her. Things to do today:- Get some stamps.
13.13pm – Went to Legal Visits to wait for Sarah Hall but she did not turn up. Oh well OK so be it!
LUNCH:- Fish and chips desert chocolate cake.
13.39 - My documents are now being rushed so that hopefully I get going soon within the prescribed timeline! This afternoon spoke to a boy who came back from Romania – horror story. Soon anyway all foreign prisoners are returned to their own country. Under the Compulsory prison Transfer Directive/Agreement.
20.58pm – Not feeling well so went to my room early!! ill !!!
WEDNESDAY 14 AUGUST 2013
06.58am – Still ill! I guess when one gets to a certain age one must be careful. I wonder if one day human beings will have to have an MOT after a certain age.
20.26am – Ill all fucking day. Have taken about 2000 mg of paracetamol to get by and it’s certainly helped a lot. This evening still feel ill damn it and can’t afford to be ill.
THURSDAY 15 AUGUST 2013
06.50am – Nice cup of coffee with Nick and some toast first thing in the morning. This morning must quickly send to UK Border Control letter giving them until 20 August 2013.
11.04am – Letter sent to UK Border Control at 08.20am. We must now just wait and see. In the Nick K case its incredible there is absolutely no evidence against him, at all, not even circumstantial evidence. Totally bizarre!
DINNER: Fish cake
19.52am – Came back early. Received two emails from Caroline and an incredible card and letter from Nadine Milroy-Sloan an ex client. She was totally ‘stitched up’ and was involved with the Hamilton’s! Totally fabricated evidence against her but I was not allowed to help her although I tried hard, I found all the doors shut in my face. It is very nice of her to write. Spoke to Mike and to Caroline. I heard that Emilio Fratto is a bit depressed but will be OK. He is at San Vittore. I will await to see what UK Border Agency do before I take Court action or perhaps go through the Council of Europe – maybe more effective! Miss my family, my wife and my son Gianni – miss all my children. Well fuck it I am human. I have replied to Nadine. Hope she is well over all the injustice she had to suffer! Today I have been here 143 days. It’s nothing really and time has flown so quickly. The reason is that I know what is to come and must just get on with living. The secret is never to despair. Just carry on living!!
FRIDAY 16 AUGUST 2013
06.59am – The family of Abu Qatada have voluntarily left the UK and dropped their legal challenge to stay in the UK, wife plus five children all gone to Jordan. Well once the father is gone it leaves the family open and subject to risk. Good decision. Received letter from Sarah Hall who will come to see me on Monday. I think this weekend will prepare letter to European Parliament.
LUNCH: Spaghetti cooked by me with Calamari, desert Ice cream.
20.14pm – A very busy day today. This morning had a chance to talk with Domenico R who I repeat again is a true gentleman. He said something very respectful and kind. I asked if he needed anything within the limited means I have he replied he only wanted to be near me as a fellow Italian and friend! Incredible - nice reply. I was taken aback with such kindness. Another act of kindness, I cooked spaghetti today and I received an equal plate! Incredible - nice gesture. Very humane! When I came back to my room received legal visits, one on Monday at 9am the other at 11am! I think Andy Coulsons lawyers coming to see me again. Feeling a bit better but still ill. Need 1000mg of paracetamol per day, must now try and reduce it. Next week I must be ready for anything but will need stamps for the petition to the European Parliament. Have all in my mind what I must say and may well publicize it all. Don’t know yet! Can’t stop thinking about my family – my wife and children. Oh well! I must also pay for putting my work before my family!
SATURDAY 17 AUGUST 2013
06.59am – Had a good sleep last night but had a strange dream! Oh well means I got my brain still. If you can dream it then it can be achieved. Of course the word ‘can’ is always subjective!! The news today? Big problems in Egypt! All the result of USA/UK sponsorship of regime change. Pity they were not found out years ago as it would have saved many people’s lives – Serbia – Iraq – Libya etc!
Have been talking with Nick K for the last two hours, just general things about the World and events. Have looked at papers in an alleged sex case. I see time and time again throughout this prison the deficiencies of lawyers. They simply do not do their jobs and basically should be in prison here! But you can’t indict the whole World! Not yet anyway. Received letter from Emilio Fratto he’s at Open prison in Italy. Oh well!
SUNDAY 18 AUGUST 2013
07.01am – Sixteen years after the murder of Princess Diana and the police now assess ‘new’ information. My story on the murder of Di has hit home!!!
21.16pm – Did an awful lot of work today and again the weekend has flown by. Antonello came to see me this afternoon. What a lovely time we had over a cup of coffee talking over the old days.
DINNER: Cheese on toast
Tomorrow have two legal visits. Must try to get an early night! Miss my family!
MONDAY 19 AUGUST 2013
07.06am – Woke up at 04.36am thinking about doing a duet with the song ‘Dolcemente Bambina’ an old song by Santino Rocchetti whom I first met in 1967 – Wow how many years ago that was. Tomorrow is the deadline I have granted the Border Agency to remove me. Have good plan on this. There is no escape from a Deportation Order!
14.19pm – Saw the Solicitors for Andy Coulson and they brought me some documents to review. His trial is in three weeks! WOW! Saw Sarah Hall – thank heavens. She brought me an advice on appeal; and the Judge of my trial’s legal direction to the Jury! Total misdirection’s but I will deal with that in Italy. Tomorrow I am told I am ‘honoured’ with a visit by Len Smith QC, Nathaniel Rudolf and Gary! Wow!
Lunch: Tortellini cooked by me desert muffin and ice cream
20.45pm – Received letter from Border Control – on my way back to Italy fast fast! So soon back home! The best news ever! Spoke to my son Mike and Caroline. - All good. Spoke with Domenico R today he is on my section. What a polite man. Tomorrow I am seeing Gary, Len, Nathaniel and Sarah Hall in conference. So this situation soon comes to an end. When I am in Italy I can of course organize matters. Nice letter also from Caroline today!
20.51pm – Miss my son and children a lot and now finally can see the light. In the meantime must fill in some loose ends on a few things.
20.56pm – Will have nice cup of tea. Tonight feel good. All has been promised has been done.
TUESDAY 20 AUGUST 2013
06.49am – Woke up early today but also went to sleep at about ten o’clock. Have prepared letter to the Border Control which strangely now simply call themselves the Home Office. Incredible how by changing titles people think things change in Government. Let us see but at least now the position I face is so much easier. I will still file petitions with the European parliament as the law allows! Well why not!
LUNCH: Burger and chips
20.25pm – It was nice to see Len Smith QC; Nathaniel Rudolf; Gary Bloxsome and Sarah Hall. We had a good chat. I told Len that we had actually won our case not lost it. He was a bit baffled but I guess he understood. Anyway as soon as I get to Italy I will of course put a big wrong to right. I have a feeling though that my time is very limited here. We shall see! Tonight have blasted headache so had to take pill. Sometimes the day to day life, and living in suspended animation, is a bit too much but I guess I have to do my best. People like the ‘Twat with Slit’ loves this kind of life in hurting people but I do understand those type of people who actually have nothing in life just the belief that life owes them a living! Anyway, today the Raven and Owl are on the loose and I know what that means! I miss my family so much and my children but must move forward.
WEDNESDAY 21 AUGUST 2013
06.50am – Had a good sleep as was not feeling well last night. Perhaps a few too many decisions to have to make. I mean it’s not that coming to glorious HMP I have stopped working! In fact the job here has been a billion times harder than if I had been out also because, in the meantime, I do a twelve hour day on my feet! Well, it’s what I trained for in the past 42 years! The news today? Two English girls arrested in Peru could face 15 years for drug smuggling! Big fucking deal! If they were accused of the same here its double that! And as for Peter Madden, whom I know well, saying he criticises the prison conditions in Peru, well get a fucking reality check and try prison conditions in the UK111
LUNCH: Burger and rice desert Ice cream
18.4pm – Came back early this evening as I don’t feel well. Tonight will just relax as need to unwind. This is a twelve hour day I do. Now regarding the info that Snowden gave to the Guardian paper let me say this:- The Guardian are not the ONLY paper that received the US Spy network and other information. But since the information truly does place people ‘at risk’ then it is not in our interest to publish these! No post today and none yesterday. There is post just that the Officers have not collected such! This place is at boiling point I can tell you! Miss my children, my wife. Well I must just keep my blinkers on and move forward it’s only a matter of a short while.
THURSDAY 22 AUGUST 2013
07.01am – Last night wrote the story of the true reason the US/UK attacked Iraq - Will be interesting to note the reactions. Today many children in the UK will receive their GCSE results. Well here is an admission – the style of life has totally annihilated the academic capabilities of my children. Yes, Mike and Milan are the lucky ones. They got their degree from Cambridge. Anthony works in Italy and Anne is married to Doctor. But Gianni – well it is entirely my fault his situation has been destroyed. I hope he can get back on track. But as for blame – well it’s really all my fault and any punishment for such must come to me. I deserve any punishment solely for having screwed up the education of my young children!
07.05am – Have prepared timetable, letters to the UK Border Agency will deliver today.
LUNCH: Penne with tomato and basilico sugo desert bread and butter pudding.
SUPPER: Chicken and chips.
20.31pm – Spoke with Domenico R today, Such a nice man! Called Caroline and gave her my twitter feed. This morning faxed letter to UK Border Agency and sent by hand copies as well as by post. Need stamps really but what can I do? Must wait until they are sent by some kind soul. Have feeling that today the Raven and Owl was prowling again. I try and keep them under wraps as I bare no malice to anyone. Even liars and those who perjure themselves must answer to God at some stage, so I leave that to God. For my part I must be patient!
FRIDAY 23 AUGUST 2013
06.47am – Slept well last night, feeling much better but still quite weak. Must try and eat more. Yet all that see me say how well I look and how I look ten years younger than my age. Yesterday received another letter from Emilio Fratto who is in Open jail. A lot of complaints about prison conditions being ten times worse than here - Well prison is prison and that is that!
LUCH: Cheese sandwich
DINNER: Penne Bolognise desert ice cream.
20.49pm – What a night. One guy climbs on to the pipes so the whole jail on strict situation until he comes down. Result? Late night! Today spoke with Dc.S he hinted that I am due to leave here soon – but of course how soon ‘soon’ is will be seen. Honestly, since there is a strict timeline I also feel the time is ripe. We shall see what happens next week.
20.55pm – The last few days all I have thought about is getting to Italy myself. What is good for good old GDS. What else have I thought about? Work, work fucking work. How clever I have been sorting out the Nick K case and putting the CPS and British Government in a corner. OK he is an innocent man but so are many! So is Paul Bush but I let him down. And what about my son Gianni? I have almost screwed up his life. So what thoughts do I have for my family? Lots according to me but why then do I always put my fucking work first! I don’t know but it has to stop and it has to stop now! I have not talked with Gianni for over a month. Why! Because of how I fucking feel! Always me!
SATURDAY 24 AUGUST 2013
07.09am – Great sleep yet again. What is it that one has to come to jail to sleep well? Today will cook breakfast for a dozen people, or so, in Reception. Maybe I should suggest to Caroline that I also do a recipe book haha??? Bank Holiday weekend but I am working! The Courts have no respite!
BREAKFAST: Sausage, egg, bacon and hash brown
LUNCH: Steak and kidney pie desert chocolate cake.
DINNER: Hamburger desert bread and butter pudding.
20.43pm – Did some work with Nick K just tidying up matters. The officers here are truly very kind, considerate and humane. They do all they can to accommodate the inmate. Incredible. Totally opposite to the situation in Italy. Miss my children and wife and family.
SUNDAY 25 AUGUST 2013
07.26am – Well every now and again an extra half hour in bed won’t do any harm. Day off today so will do some work here. The weather is shite – rain, rain, rain but then as I am not going out who cares! Miss my children a lot and my family. Oh well, let’s see what the week brings!
LUNCH: Chicken, Roast turkey, potatoes in oven desert cake and custard.
DINNER: Cheese on toast.
20.14pm – Phew – finally in my room. It’s a long day even on my so called day off! Why do I work so hard? So I can forget what is happening outside I guess. I miss my little boy – well not so little I guess now soon to be 18! Seems only yesterday I held him in my hands when he was born in Italy! Well I hope I can make it up to him.
MONDAY 26 AUGUST 2013
06.52am – Was it not the poet Dryden who wrote ‘Even victors are by victories undone.’ Well that is how I often feel. So many victories in cases and situations that seemed impossible yet I succeeded but the net result is that my family is undone and what I have to do is to now fix all and get it back together.
14.36pm – Slow day today but with the Notting Hill Festival there will be some incoming people in Wandsworth. Thinking over things must now make real plan with real timeline to unite my family. Once that is achieved frankly what happens to me is irrelevant. History will see me as I wish history to see me because I will write it. Tomorrow Sarah Hall is coming; she has been a tower of strength.
LUNCH: Breast of chicken, roast potatoes desert trifle.
DINNER: Cheese on toast.
17.38pm – Came back early. Brought down lawyer James R who was solicitor at Clyde and Co to share room with me because we are full to the brim tonight! Of course the fucking Notting Hill Carnival has attracted many arrests and as such many new elements. Oh well it’s OK. James is nice person and will be good for him but of course it’s always best to be alone if possible. Soon all will be back to normal.
18.51pm – I have looked into yet another case by stupid solicitors who have not done their job correctly. Thank heavens that not all lawyers adopt a ‘could not care less attitude.’ The situation in Syria is now in crisis. Oh well here we go again!
TUESDAY 27 AUGUST 2013
06.50 am – Change of routine has not prevented me from sleeping well. I dreamed about me owning a football club again – Oh my God – that won’t ever be again. I’d rather stay in jail for life rather than getting involved in a Club again. I guess that part of my life I do regret even though it was exciting but never ever again.
13.27pm – Waiting to go to Legal Visits whilst the news is that Parliament is recalled to debate Syria on Thursday. It seems the decision has been made weeks ago to attack Damascus and now it will happen to the detriment of all of us. Thank God I am here as I am fed up totally of this man killing!
LUNCH: Sausages and chips desert ice cream
DINNER: Pasta – no sweet.
20.48pm – Had a great meeting with Sarah Hall and she will come back on Thursday again with an affidavit for me to sign. Don’t know what will happen in the next few days but I do feel something in the air. Tomorrow I will get ‘single’ status from the medics. This fucking prostrate C is always on the horizon. Let’s hope for the best. Have not called anyone today either. I desperately want to hear my son Gianni but cannot find the words what to tell him. Must do this step by step. - First to get to Italy, and then resolve all. Anyway, tomorrow is another day. I worry about the Syria situation. How stupid are the US/UK to accept all the rubbish from what are rebels! But there we have it. Seems to me much of war looms over us again!
WEDNESDAY 28 AUGUST 2013
06.47am – Last night there was a lot of commotion going on, it was hard to sleep. All being well, today a document will arrive to restore me to single room. The result of all this hoo-haa is that I woke up with headache, damn it. The US/UK war machine is going into overdrive. My God here we go again!
13.27pm – Just took a shower. I am quite tired today and can’t wait to go to bed to sleep. The news is still very much centered on what will be an attack on Damascus. What a pity the World has come to this.
LUNCH: Chicken with rice desert muffin
DINNER: Fish cakes
19.44pm – Came back and again in my room alone. I also now have certificate from Doctor that ‘owing to my medical condition I need to be in single room’. The day went quickly and my mind is now quite settled. Tomorrow, dear Sarah Hall coming to see me. I hope I am here as I really need to complete few matters before I leave. Tonight will write to Emilio Fratto and reply to his letter. Nick K is a bit down tonight. All will be OK but of course until it is, it’s easy for the likes of me to say it will be OK. The man is facing a life sentence for something he did not do. Anyway it’s just a matter of time. Not much longer dear Nick! I am working so hard just to take my mind from thinking of my family. It’s getting harder. There are so many distractions before they run out. Soon it’s my wife’s birthday and I am not going to be there. But next year will be different. It’s time I got my personal life together and be quick about it.
THURSDAY 29 AUGUST 2013
06.19am – Woke up early because a night officer has been talking to someone since 4am and of course it’s hard to sleep whilst someone is talking but then one must never forget this is prison, and Wandsworth. The news today is that the Labour party – Yes the bleeding Labour Party as Alf Garnett used to say – won’t vote with the Tory Coalition on an attack on Syria so although Parliament is recalled there will be no vote on any attack until the UN Inspectors have reported. Why the fuck did that not happen in Iraq??? Other news – well I knew about three months ago:- Catherine Zeta Jones and Michael Douglas have split up! Why? Well I know but can only say it’s not about the age difference!!!
20.57pm – Had good meeting with Sarah Hall. The time is passing really quickly. I just wonder if I am doing the right thing not calling my family? Have not even called Caroline. She has sent an email asking what is wrong with me? Well what is wrong with me? I want to do so much but am so tired and not feeling OK. Tomorrow will see the Doctor. Trying hard to put out of my mind the family but not succeeding. Yesterday wrote nice story on the EU! Those who read it will be amazed! Tomorrow though must call my son and Caroline! Got to get the family back on track really! The fact I don’t know much and the silence is good in one way but hopeless in another. In the news the Syria situation is rife! I wonder what the UN Weapons Inspectors will report! My bet is that as in Sarajevo market (Markale Massacres) the attacks was caused by the rebels themselves. In fact I know it!
FRIDAY 30 AUGUST 2013
06.46am – Well as Cameron has stated last night: ‘The British people have spoken. I get it – We will play no part in any military campaign in Syria.’ When rebels bomb their own supporters to gain international support then they deserve no support. The West got stuffed in Sarajevo and they are now very hesitant to be fooled again.
LUNCH: - NOTHING.
DINNER: - Fish and rice.
20.48pm – Today not feeling well. Called Caroline who will put up the story I wrote the other day. You know in here although I know my fate and what I will do, at times it gets too much. Has the sacrifice been worthwhile? No! I knew in 1999 that I had to get out and could have taken my chance in January 2000 but NO fucking GDS (idiot) wanted ‘just one more job!’ and after that ‘just one more!’ What the fuck is the matter with me? Now what do I do? I attack and start revealing all the secrets I know! Every day I am here longer than necessary yet another secret and attacks! Yes it will hit home but must I really behave like Samson and the Philistine? I mean even they had resistance – Eventually my own will turn on me and each day I am here in the UK I am at risk and in danger so what must I do? I don’t know! I will just write more stories! Tomorrow is my wife’s birthday! Yet again I am not there. I would not blame her if she just gets fed up and tells me to fuck off! I also have to face another fact I am 58 and soon reaching the big size O!!!!!!
SATURDAY 31 AUGUST 2013
07.08am – Had a good sleep. Happy birthday to my dear wife. I keep saying it every year but I hope next year will be different. Anyway, must get on and move forward, cannot live with the regrets of the past but with the expectation of the future.
19.26pm – Received lovely letter from Nadine Milroy Sloan. How truly nice of her to remember me in such a positive way. She was never guilty of blackmail – no way - and of course, both Neil and Christine Hamilton made their careers’ out of her conviction. Truly absurd but anyway so nice of Nadine. Today it’s my wife’s birthday. I hope she can find it in her heart to excuse me – again because I am finding it harder each day.
SUNDAY 1 SEPTEMBER 2013
07.01am – Well that is yesterday over and done with. The USA now will seek the congress permission for a strike in Syria. If only they had done that for Serbia, Iraq and Libya!! In other news it appears ants are the next generation of antibiotics!!! Oh well that will be a new meaning of having ‘ants in your pants’.
14.01am – Relaxing day but must work a little. ‘The lion never sleeps’ as Judge Peter Kelson once said of me!
LUNCH: Chicken, roast potatoes and rice pudding
DINNER: Lasagna and cheese on toast.
19.47am – Phew finally in my room. Each day is a full day. Certainly I won’t die of boredom or lack of work. Called no one this weekend which is silly because it’s the cheapest time. Tomorrow will call Caroline and Mike. My stars say this weekend is a good one. We shall see!
MONDAY 2 SEPTEMBER 2013
06.55am – Good night’s sleep – yet again. Sometimes I feel a bit guilty how good I sleep but that is how it is. You see I feel life is like wanting say fish n chips or caviar or spaghetti or a bottle of Pinot Grigio wine! If I want I just get my arse off my chair, get in car and go out and buy it. I don’t fucking think if I get hijacked on the way or if I have an accident and die or kill some innocent person on the road. It’s possible that one out of 100,000 may get killed or hijacked but that is how it is. I just think of the Pinot Grigio, spaghetti, or fish n chips. Yesterday David Frost died aged 74! He went to my old school. Nice guy. I knew him – not well well but met him a few times. This week is supposed to be a good week for me. We shall see.
20.16am – Came back to my room to find GREAT note from my doctor here that I am leaving for Italy and he has to give me a ‘fit to fly’ certificate. So the time has nearly arrived and I think probable in the next few days. I also have my Deportation Order in Italian for my arrival in Italy. Today I saw Hannah my probation officer here. What a wonderful person. Truly lovely person also has been very kind to me. Have to say all officers have been great to me during my stay here! It’s great weather in the UK as I leave the UK as I arrived back in March 2011 – with nice weather. I miss my family – soon…………….
TUESDAY 3 SEPTEMBER 2013
06.34am – Did not sleep so well last night incredible: - the closer to leaving the UK the worse the sleep at night! Arghh! Today will see the Doctor and get ‘fit to fly’ Certificate. In the news well David Jacobs has died. He was a great TV present and DJ. Great music he played.
20.47pm – Today has been a shite day and feel tired.
WEDNESDAY 4 SEPTEMBER 2013
06.47am – Feel better because had a good sleep at least nine full hours. The news in the US is that Obama now wants regime change in Syria and that is his plan. Well it was his plan all the time it’s just that as usual honesty is not in the game!
20.27pm - Another difficult day but must do the very best possible. It’s not always so easy having to deal with illogical matters but must do what I can. Today I sent letters to UK Border and the Transfer Clerk here. Let’s see what happens. Did not talk with anyone yet but will call Caroline and Mike tomorrow. The news today: - regime change is the name of the game in Syria! Who wants to be in politics? Well maybe, just maybe I might in Italy???? Received email from Caroline! She sent me song I wanted and which I had recorded Dolcemente Bambina! It was a favorite of mine since the late 1960’s or early 1970‘s!
20.44pm – Well a nice cup of lemon tea from Fortnum and Mason – boy doesn’t it feel good. I had better get my mind in motion for return to Italy because that is when the real work starts. Until then better just get on with it. Tomorrow dear Sarah Hall is coming to see me!
THURSDAY 5 SEPTEMBER 2013
06.57am – Good, in fact, great night’s sleep. Ready for whatever the day brings and places before me. The G20 conference is in Moscow today and of course Syria will be top of the agenda. Seems that the US are hell bent on some kind of attack but what interests the US hold is beyond me. Today Sarah Hall is coming, looking forward to seeing her. Let’s see what news she has regarding matters.
14.54pm – Just heard that am required at Southwark Crown Court tomorrow. Was not supposed to go but what the hell so be it if I must. Today not a nice day but we get through it.
FRIDAY 6 SEPTEMBER 2013
07.11am – What a fucking night. Some fucking stupid idiot was banging his door all fucking night and totally destroyed his cell!
20.33pm – Phew what a day today has been. So tired because of lack of sleep owing to that fucking prick. Tonight I have to sleep well need it. Never got a chance to call anyone today as too busy. Nick K was in Court today. I mean what is it with lawyers that they all want a trial so that they can show how the fuck good they are? Oh well let’s see if common sense prevails. There is no need for a trial in his case. England are playing Moldova and all are excited because they are winning. 2.0! I mean, it’s Moldova for heaven’s sake. I can agree if England were playing France, Spain or Germany but Moldova? They are no better than Zimbabwe at football. Anyway a win for England boosts moral but that is all it boosts. Did not call Caroline or my son or my wife or my little boy – well not so little. What is it with me? Why do I always put my fucking work before my family? Recently I have been thinking a lot about my father – how he was killed but I will get retribution and justice in a spectacular way in due course I will!
DINNER:- Pizza nothing else.
20.42pm - No post other than a notice have legal visit on Monday but I don’ think its Sarah Hall it could well be Andy Coulsons lawyers again. I will always help when and if I can!
SATURDAY 7 SEPTEMBER 2013
06.5am – Good morning all!!!! Slept well because of course the night before those two fucking idiots decided to keep us all up with their antics. Anyway, no noise last night. Today it’s the breakfast club and will work hard and cook breakfast. The news – well nothing has changed re Syria except that Russia has sent a warship to the area. I really hope there will be no attacks since I know for sure that chemical agents were not used by Bashar Assad and the Government.
LUNCH: Egg, bacon, sausage and hash brown.
20.27pm – Making cup of tea, will read the papers and watch some television. Did not call anyone today either. Is that correct? Maybe not but that is how it is! Does it make my attitude right? For sure as hell no but I just can’t seem to change. What I will do though is to prepare letter to CCRC re Paul Bush! Good night! Tomorrow another day!
SUNDAY 8 SEPTEMBER 2013
06.58am – Good day to all! I see John Kerry has arrived in the UK to try and convince, God knows who, to attack Syria! My God how humans love war. Since 2000 (probably since the world began) there has not been a fucking year of peace!
17.44pm – The day has gone quite quickly. I have finally written the letter to the CCRC regarding Paul Bush! I hope it helps him get an appeal because the man is totally innocent of anything and he has lost everything. Wicked what the system can do to you if you don’t swim with the tide. Tomorrow let’s see what happens.
MONDAY 9 SEPTEMBER 2013
06.51am – Goooooooood morning! Slept from 9pm till 6am straight. Was very tired yesterday even thought did very little. Today have what I will call ‘interesting’ legal visit which I am looking forward to very much. Ooops my second pen which I use to write just ran out – what a prolific writer I am! I think the reason I slept so well is finally I did the letter to the CCRC regarding Paul Bush – I must reiterate a totally innocent man! Feel good!
DINNER: Burger and bun.
18.45pm – Had to come back early tonight not feeling well. But, yes spoke to Mike and Anna and finally Gianni. It was great hearing his voice. After I felt low as I miss him so much. Spoke to dear Caroline tonight. All going well the paper is doing well. Having problems remembering things of late, names, faces, and even what I am doing! Must be going crazy! It’s a horrible feeling forgetting for example whose dinner I am cooking and who has ordered tea or coffee! Must just try and stay strong and keep myself in order. No visit today as it was cancelled. Tomorrow dear Sarah Hall is coming in the afternoon. Looking forward to seeing her.
21.23pm – Went back to work and only just came back in. Very tired tonight and not feeling so good but must just pull myself together and get on. Must call Gianni tomorrow. Lovely boy. It’s the best thing I have done to raise him as he is!
TUESDAY 10 SEPTEMBER 2013
06.59am – Good day to all. Well the US President has kind of backtracked accepting the Russian initiative to keep any Syrian chemical weapons under international control! This though has thrown off the real issue: - Why did the UK/US sell to Syria chemical agents and who was responsible for the alleged attacks last month? Those two questions seem to have been lost in translation. The weather is getting cooler, if not colder and I must start wearing a jumper instead of T shirts. Today is the 168th day I am here and boy how time has flown. Tomorrow will have my medical and then just wait for the flight to Italy. One thing is certain about this prison here: - an Englishman sure as hell feels in the minority and I wonder if it’s the same elsewhere in the real Europe? I say the ‘real Europe’ because of the twenty plus countries that constitutes the EU only seven are real European members! Oh well, such is development
WEDNESDAY 11 SEPTEMBER 2013
06.41am – Good morning…Good morning! Well Syria has 1610 tons of sarin and 720 tons of other chemicals all sold to Damascus by the UK/US and France! No wonder they are the three countries that wanted to attack the country! But now things are on hold – for a while. Yesterday ‘Kevin Webster” of Coronation Street was acquitted of sex charges. I am totally against these kind of historic allegations as there really is no real evidence to substantiate or refute sexual crimes. I would like to see a statute of limitations on such offences. Today is the 30th anniversary of discovery of HIV! Interesting!
DINNER: Sausage roll and desert ice cream
20.04pm – Today was an interesting day. Went to the clinic for my ‘fit to fly’ certificate or control and I hope all is now ok. I had the chance to go back last month and did not take it. I hope it will be OK soon but you know what I have found I really can absorb anything and I mean anything that is thrown at me. Sooner or later I will be in Italy and then the return of gas starts wherever I am! Spoke with Gianni today even though have only .64p left on my phone and God how nice to hear him. He made his own Ragu sauce. Great boy he can do anything. All will see that my fate will be good for him and as far as I am concerned it has been worthwhile. Had email from dearest Caroline – what a great editor and friend. She has been invaluable to me and completed a hard job dealing with all my stuff. The paper is good – great! Miss my family but must move forward!
THURSDAY 12 SEPTEMBER 2013
06.41am – Went to sleep at 9ish last night. Don’t know what is the matter with me of late feel so tired but then again I am doing a 12 hour day and of course doing my best to help as many of those who ask for my help. Received letter from Conor Stanage from Belfast with 24 first class stamps. How truly very kind. A real act of kindness and the stamps were most welcomed! This weekend will do good few replies to people who have written to me.
DINNER: Chili con carne and rice desert Ice cream
20.51pm – I am told today that my medical was ok and I am fit to fly. So now just have to wait. Have major trump card in my hands. Today had letter from Emilio Fratto in Milan and he attached a letter from a guy who I thought was on good terms with me. Well this is prison and never take things on face value! I forgive all! I also had a letter from the British police!!! I am a possible victim it appears in another phone hacking case!!! Oh well! So fucking what! I don’t give a fuck not now, not then, if News of the World hacked my phone. They are my friends and I don’t betray my friends ever. Today and each day feel stronger. Spoke with Gianni today for few seconds because little money on my phone account. Never mind hopefully tomorrow will be better and money goes on my account. Have much to do this weekend and I have feeling may be last weekend in UK – Maybe!!!!!
FRIDAY 13 SEPTEMER 2013
06.47am – Good day to all - Five years ago Lehman brothers went down which caused RBS and Lloyds to go broke yet no one has ever been arrested! Trillions stolen yet no one ever brought to account! Today is the dreaded Friday 13th the so called unlucky day – we will see. I have prepared enforcement letter to SSHD!!! Friday 13th for some!
Well today is over and just another day. Did not have money on my phone so could not call my son Gianni damn it. Never mind! Monday may be ok. Watching programme about Amalfi and remember lovely trip I took there to Hotel Saraceno. Was truly nice time!
21.05pm – Watched a little of the Elton John tribute and realized that there comes a time when all ‘great’ people must retire. I say the same about Paul McCartney. Both – and many others – simply do not have the voice any more. I will think it over!!!! I think it’s time for a new direction that may or may not include music and writing. What if I really start doing my job properly? What if I start following order? What if I put all my effort into it even when I don’t agree with policy? Serbia was my Waterloo! It showed me that what I had been doing, and sent to do, was not right! However, I met my wife and as a result had my son Gianni! Now that is the best thing I have done for a long time. Now is the time to finish what I started.
SATURDAY 14 SEPTEMBER 2013
07.09am – Nice sleep but then I was tired – with the job I do here there are times when one really does forget where one is! The weather is turning as usual for the worse and the nights getting darker. Who was it who said ‘in each and every life a drop of rain must fall’? Today is the ‘breakfast club’ and I am the cook. The people here with and without uniform are all more or less really good. The problem with crime and punishment is that the punishment part never throughout history ever taught anyone anything other than retribution and vengeance society. The result of which there is a cycle in the human being which will always turn full circle!!
21.36pm – Had an interesting day today and enjoyed cooking breakfast. As it was once said though ‘Once one is consumed with power one can never distance oneself from its base.’ Could not call anyone still the fucking finance department have not put money on my phone account because they are short staffed! Well that is bollox really because this is a public service. They can in future wipe their arse with Colgate and that will give them a ring of confidence. No post today either – well no post delivered because again short staffed! Soon this place will be run entirely by those inside and with guards placed only to man the gate and the walls! It would be much better and cost less to run. Talking of costs incredible my case cost the taxpayer over 5million pounds!!! Southwark Crown Court trial costs the taxpayer 1,890,000 alone plus legal fees for all the lawyers which is in the region of about £1,000,000! So all in all the total cost was about £8,000,000 to prosecute me for what I was clearly not guilty without doubt. Anyway we move on!
SUNDAY 15 SEPTEMBER 2013
07.01am – Good morning all! It’s incredible I can’t sleep after 06.30am and so tired after 10pm! Well, now I will let you into a big secret. All think I am in Wandsworth prison well they are wrong because I am not! I am actually in Wandsworth Hostel because this place may be for sure called HMP Wandsworth but de-facto it is no more than a hostel and 82% are foreign Nationals! I am not complaining because I am one myself but as one great philosopher said the size and state of our prisons reflects the society we live in. How true!
LUNCH: Chicken and roast potatoes desert cake and custard.
Dinner: Cheese on toast.
20.07pm – Spent most of the day considering what action I will take regarding Italy. Few nice options. Could not call my son Gianni as money not on my phone account because of staff shortages. One lesson to be learnt in life:- pastime is a virtue. Here I am now in my room – not cell – with flat screen TV colour of course with remote – kettle in room, sanitation (Twylords of course). The weather outside is cold and I bet that there are a good few million people who cannot afford the basic essentials of life – electricity, gas, heating and water! Here – No problem. Seems perverse that one must transgress the law to be guaranteed what in essence ought to be an offer to those who do not break the law!!! In Italy amnesty and mini pardons are on offer – all will apply to me of course. You could not make this up. But then again the real loss here is the contact with family. That is a punishment that has no replacement and cannot be compensated.
MONDAY 16 SEPTEMBER 2013
06.57am – What a lovely sleep last night. The weather is now much colder so no longer can I wear just a T Shirt and track suit bottoms so must wear jeans, T Shirt and shirt. Maybe if it gets colder even a jumper! Not much on the news today well of course the news as the British sees things. Will prepare some legal documents for the UK Border Control have one card to play!
DINNER: Asian mince beef with rice
20.46pm – Came back late tonight. Nice email from dear Caroline. Was able to make copies of interesting legal cases I may use soon. No post but I think the Post office is actually on strike if I am not mistaken. I tell you something time is flying and at times I just would like to stop. Tomorrow or Wednesday will use my trump card and hope that shortly will be in Italy. We shall see! The news today is of another man shooting in Washington. When will this type of situation stop? Throughout my life – 58 years – there has not been a damn year of peace. Yet we have made so much progress!!! I once wrote a poem that was published in the Evening Telegraph called ‘Which way to the Egren!’ Happy days! This afternoon I was partly watching a film called ‘The Way Ahead!’ World War II film. Even in War time the nation was happy. All that has been lost to progress! Was it worthwhile? I doubt it! Spoke today to my son Mike. He is in Italy. I have to make some hard decisions soon and when I say hard I mean hard!
TUESDAY 17 SEPTEMBER 2013
06.29am – It just seems I cannot stay away much longer than about 10pm but then thinking about it objectively I am actually working twelve to fourteen hours per day and thoroughly enjoying it. Today Gary Bloxsome is coming to see me and I think Sarah Hall tomorrow. Must must must do some letters tonight come what may.
LUNCH: Fish and chips
20.47pm – Came back late again but enjoyed great cup of green tea with Nick K and today even though it was a hard day I do feel quite pleased with myself. Why? You see all this rubbish case and conviction really has hit home (not to me) but to many who once deplored my work but now support me! In essence of mind the judicial machine has gone into overdrive and as such has had a pyrrhic victory. Of course I knew it would be so but you can’t tell them can you ???? Spoke today to my son Gianni – ‘I have faith in you dad 100% and will stand by you.’ were his lovely words. Well that is spinach to pappy!!! Today Gary Bloxsome came to see me. How nice to take coffee with him. He is and always will be a dear friend. Tomorrow Sarah coming. Great! She has been a tower of strength both professional and personally. Received so nice letter from Emilio Fratto and Caroline and a draft written statement from Andy Coulsons lawyers! I will take copy to Sarah tomorrow. How nice of Andy to ask me to give witness statement.
WEDNESDAY 18 SEPTEMBER 2013
06.36am – Gooooooooooooood morning allllllllllllllllllllllllll!!!! Nice champions league game last night. I was too tired to watch past 10pm but watching the news can see some great games. Am enjoying a great cup of Italian coffee and a chocolate muffin – OK ..OK I know I should not because the doctor has told me to watch my diet so I will follow his advice – I am eating the muffin in front of the mirror so I am watching my diet. The news today well despite twelve people murdered in the USA two days ago it’s out of the news today. That goes to show just how fickle murder has become today. Instead the BBC main story is whether the heating should be switched on ‘yet’ or ‘not’! Well here there is not that problem because it’s warm in winter and cool in the summer. No issues. Today a person here will go to court to find out his tariff on his murder conviction. Frankly his legal team was hopeless – imagine! They only met him days before the trial and he has been here one year! It’s incredible how they ran a defence that was not supported by the medical evidence! I would say that 80% of lawyers defending people here simply abuse their position in taking money from the state yet not doing the necessary work to justify the money and their excuse is that Legal Aid pay is now approximately 42.50 per hour! Well if my conviction for the same is anything to go by how many other lawyers should be here? We have 1240 people here and 80% equals 992 lawyers which deserve to be in here with me – maybe more! But as even I should not be here we can just let that argument go. But you get the point I think. Time to get ready for work!
THURSDAY 19 SEPTEMBER 2013
06.40am – Well last night AC Milan beat Celtic 2-0 which will keep my son Gianni happy. On a serious note yesterday my friend of more than 35 years Antonello was taken to hospital with a heart attack. He is unconscious so let’s see what happens. I had the task of telling the family in Italy – at least such awful news came from a family friend and not from strangers. I saw Sarah Hall yesterday and hope she can notify the Courts and set him free. I hope but in this country I have witnessed five men in wheelchairs – two with amputations – refused bail because of fear of flight Grrrrrrrrr!!!!!
11.46am – Well it would seem that Antonello is ‘on the mend.’ Thank heavens. The important thing is that my friend is OK all else is irrelevant. Am getting a little tired and feel a cold coming along which is damned inconvenient but must do best I can.
20.33pm - Came back early tonight and received letter from Repatriation section. I will not say the contents but we move forward. Today received email from Caroline who spoke to my son Gianni. ‘I am his world’ so must stay strong for all the children. I do my best and of course the likes of ‘Twat with Slit’ will relish in the immense suffering carried to my children but it’s OK because at least my children do care for me – I did nothing wrong but I did take my eyes of the ball. Here, I repeat, 99% of lawyers representing those here the lawyer deserves to be here serving their sentences. I will write more on this for OPC later.
FRIDAY 20 SEPTEMBER 2013
06.53am – With all the woes of the World, rising crime, unemployment and banks professionals stealing billions without recourse what is the main theme today on the BBC news? Smoking in prisons! Yes 4 out of 5 people smoke in prison and the Government are worried by a class action from the minority! Incredible!
LUNCH: FUCK ALL
19.31pm – Came back quite early. Things are indeed moving in the right direction now. That is all I can say. Spoke to my son Gianni – how lovely to hear his voice. He is truly a darling boy so full of life and spirit. Boy can’t you tell he is an Italian and a real Di Stefano.
19.47pm – Drinking a wonderful Fortnum and Mason cup of lemon tea! There is nothing better. It invites sleep and tomorrow I have a long day. Really must try and write to a few people tonight tired or not tired. So many write to me offering support the least I can do is to reply. But how can anyone understand I really am tired when I get back. I have literally been on my feet twelve hours! This fucking BIG C is making a comeback but the war is well on and it’s a WAR I will win. I can tell you that being here has in effect saved my life and working has eased many concerns.
20.15pm - Thinking about Italy. You see this game is about steps – you must make your move in steps. Now each step can take a minute a day, a week, a month or even a year but it takes you to the next step and then home and clear.
SATURDAY 21 SEPTEMBER 2013
07.23am – Gooooooooooood morning! Lovely day today. Breakfast Club here in the morning and Chef Di Stefano at his best with the least facilities prepares for all!
DINNER: Egg sandwich
20.05pm:- Called no one today. Received lovely email from Caroline and letter with screenshots from OPC. Truly great. I say this – never ever ever give in and when I get to Italy there will be a good few shocks for some. Miss my family but each day I get stronger, stronger, and stronger.
SUNDAY 22 SEPTEMBER 2013
07.27am – Woke up ‘late’ this morning. Last night had some great ideas which I will put into motion this coming week!! The Government will truly not expect what I am about to do. Wrote to a few people also last night!
LUNCH: Chicken and roast potatoes, brussel sprouts, desert rice pudding.
DINNER: Cheese on toast, desert doughnut with jam.
20.31pm – An easy day today. Did couple of skeleton arguments and advised one person to stay clear of lawyers and courts unless absolutely vital! Good advice what I am about to do will catch many ‘on the hop’ but the law must not always be used as a shield – I am a little pissed off defending:- it is time to use it as a sword and attack. There is no better form of defence than attack and today I am preparing an attack of a legal nature. Was it not Henry Adams who said ‘Chaos often breeds life when order breeds habit!!!!’
MONDAY 23 SEPTEMBER 2013
06.45am – Well I’m ready and rearing to go this morning. Have prepared all the notices and letters and will get them all off shortly. Had a good sleep. Little stomach ache but then that is just age. Arghhhh! Am I getting old? Jeez I am old! The news?:- Yet more rampage killings in Kenya this time in a shopping mall in Nairobi nearly 70 shoppers murdered! Why? Fuck knows. You see, many so called terrorist organisations have lost the power of speech and the written word and turn direct to the bullet. Lack of education is the problem. Incredible!
DINNER: Fish fingers, desert ice cream.
20.25pm – This morning sent out letters to the European Parliament and others. Now we wait. Now for the shock no one will expect in due course, sooner, rather than later my conviction will be quashed – overturned – and no retrial ordered!!! This afternoon tried to call Gianni a good few times but nothing he did not pick up. Must have been on the phone. I miss his voice. It sees me through the next day. No one will really know how it feels like to be here when you have done nothing wrong and it has all been pre-ordained!! But the trouble is: - who the fuck do you trust? Yes, I am following orders and I know I am being tested but it’s all getting too much and by the way I am working a twelve hour day…But I follow orders and move on.
TUESDAY 24 SEPTEMBER 2013
06.58am – Good night’s sleep. I shall call Caroline today and have her put on my twitter feed that owing to new evidence ultimately my conviction will be overturned! Must try and call Gianni again. I hope my victory does not become dynamic??? The news today is more about the book written by Damian McBride on the Labour Party than what has happened in Kenya!
LUNCH: Burger and chips
DINNER: Sausage roll
20.31pm- Came back early but of course never get a chance to really do anything or relax because I am so fucking tired!! How the fuck can I not have time even to watch a film when I am in a prison???? Anyway it is what it is. Today had a really good chat with Lord Edward D! What a truly truly nice man. He is out next year and why he is in jail is only because he bought the title ‘Lord’. The system targeted him and the Court are as always intellectually dishonest. Spoke today with Gianni and Mike. How nice to hear my little boy Gianni. It charged my batteries. Received two lovely letters from Nadine Milroy Sloane. She was truly also targeted but her inner strength was so great she prevailed and got over all her troubles. I take my hat off to her and will always be so grateful for her kind support. Caroline sent me a lovely email. What a lady is Caroline and what an editor!! Great Great Great! So many nice people supporting me.
WEDNESDAY 25 SEPTEMBER 2013
06.46am – Had a really good sleep last night. Just one observation. When I woke up in the morning I had difficulties focusing my eyes!!! Must be old age catching up. People always say things like ‘Anthony Quinn had a baby at 82’ but I bet he still had a problem focusing his eyes in the morning!!! Age is a matter of administrative law and cannot be appealed!
LUNCH: Chicken Burger and bun.
20.44pm – Sent letter to UK Border Control and at 20.05pm met by chance with Angela and Luke. She said she would come to see me in the afternoon but as usual did not come. Antonello came back from hospital thanks be to God. I was very glad because as a friend of 35 years he felt that I may have brought him some bad luck but great luck getting his case back on track. Very sad!! Well the most important thing for me is that he is ok and recovered. No post today. Spoke to my son Gianni so a great day. Hearing his voice makes me go on. There are times when I question my own resolve and wonder if it is all worthwhile! The news today – actually not much but I must do the story on the RJ12!! What is that? Wait and see!! Things going very well with drafting my appeal when I get to Italy. Gosh how few going to be shocked!
230.56pm – Feel tired tonight – well every night I just can’t seem to stay awake after ten ‘’clock. Miss my children and wife but must move on!
THURSDAY 26 SEPEMBER 2013
06.57am – Been up since half past six. Wonderful Italian coffee and a muffin plus of course my daily dose of medication. As you get older it becomes necessary if not vital to equi-balance the deficiencies of the human metabolism artificially! Well, after having g swallowed not only my pills but also a dictionary I start the day! The news:- not much really only about a town that has abolished selling alcohol. Yes, there is one more:- Richard Branson is advocating the discrimination of drugs! Makes sense! Don’t know if I fully agree with it but by God it makes fiscal sense!
22.07pm – Heard from Caroline and my wife. Feel sad but must move forward.
FRIDAY 27 SEPTEMBER 2013
07.06am – The weather is getting colder and today I will only work half day cooking breakfast. Funny how when one cooks one is rarely hungry!
LUNCH: FUCK ALL
DINNER: EVEN LESS!!!
19.15pm – Not a good day! Best to leave things be because in places like this my training in the past 42 years is tested to the maximum. Talking to Domenico R today what a lovely person he is. True Gentleman. I don’t give a fuck what the press say they don’t know him. No post because the person responsible has clearly not been able to walk twenty yards to collect it!
SUNDAY 29 SEPTEMBER 2013
07.05am – Nice cup of coffee and watching great black and white film. Nothing more pleasant. You know they say that dreams can come true because whatever you can dream has a story, history or possibility.
LUNCH: Chicken, Roast potatoes, brussel sprouts, desert cake and custard.
DINNER: Cheese sandwich
20.38pm – Quite tired tonight. Been a busy lazy day. - Did much about nothing. I see that the Stephen Ward case involved in Profumo is about to be reopened. See my story on how Mi5 killed him! The case of Domenico R comes up next month re his extradition. Such a nice man… so nice and a wonderful family. Talking of family miss mine so much. Will they ever understand? No more than people understood Van Gogh until after he killed himself. I won’t do that of course but am getting older by the day. Anyway, we breathe on.
06.39am – Slept late last night but as usual great. The news today:- We have a new ‘most wanted’ in the world. A woman!!! Well a change I guess must have been necessary.
LUNCH: - NOTHING
DINNER: - Fish and rice.
20.45- A very busy day. The question I must ask myself: - for fucks sake but do any English people come to an English prison? Why? Because 85%, if not more, people I see come through the gates are Eastern European!! Incredible! One English guy asked the UK Border Control to deport him to England! Haha ! Letters from Caroline and Nadine Milroy Sloan. Caroline is my rock!! Spoke with Gianni today. Miss him.
MONDAY 30 SEPTEMBER 2013
06.58am – Another day – well at least I am alive and breathing, warm and busy! Cup of Italian coffee and watching remote controlled TV for which I pay £52 per year! Still I would prefer to be in discomfort in my own country than in ‘luxury’ in someone elses!!!
LUNCH: Chicken burger and bun desert ice cream
DINNER: Haddock pie
20.30pm – A rather pleasant day. Wrote to Karen Todner, Professor Nicholas Wood and Neil Forsyth of the Guardian Newspaper. I Must pursue that interview request. I mean when the Guardian refers to my case as a potential ‘miscarriage of justice’ then boy oh boy it is progress. Did not call my son – have little to say. You see he makes me feel good but how do I make him feel? That is the question. I have always been concerned with how I felt, what I did for anyone, when would I do this, that and the other! Always how!!! bloody !I! My job for the past 42 years has not been about my following orders it’s been about how I would follow orders and I get the result that the state sought. In Serbia, in Iraq, in Afghanistan, in Libya, in Rwanda, in Mali etc etc. Unfortunately, I have only just realized this. I have wanted to shine by fulfilling all what was given to me. I did not really care how I did it, just that I did – Slobodan Milosevic died, Arkan dead, Saddam Hussein dead, Muammar Gaddafi dead and the list goes on and on. Yes I achieved much along the way and even here I am under orders but is it about me, or my masters, or the task? That is the question.
TUESDAY 1 OCTOBER 2013
06.42am – Yet another day and it follows that for Italy a real political crisis. What will the vote of confidence bring? We must wait and see by what Silvio Berlusconi has done is tested his party. A clever move but it may cost the country much! Tomorrow Sarah Hall coming to see me and in the US it is a political shutdown. Now what I find incredible is this: - the US cannot agree a budget and cannot afford to pay 700,000 Federal Employees but they can afford to attack countries that pose no danger to the country!!!
DINNER: Rice with Argentinean beef and pasta bolognaise
LUNCH: Burger and chips, desert ice cream.
20.30pm- Well today was enlightening. All my letters to the UK Border Control have brought out considerable bitterness and now they have made a massive mistake which I am quite justified to exploit both professionally and via the media. It is self evident that the policy of deporting foreign criminals applies to all but not to me – well mine will be delayed a few weeks which actually means I can see through my final job here. Today I spoke to my son Michael and daughter Anna. How nice. Tried to call Gianni but they have not credited money to my account so could not. Will file complaint tonight. Tomorrow the Italian Parliament calls for a vote on confidence of the government. Silvio has done a great thing by flushing out the traitors of the party – great move. This week will work on some stories for the paper. Miss my family but soon all back to normal.
06.43am – Today will be an important day for Italy but whatever happens, Silvio Berlusconi has flushed out those who are not loyal to his political party. Rest assured that those who do not follow the party line will not be re-elected at the next general election. Look what happened to Gianfranco Fini; Casini; Di Pietro etc etc. When one is in a party one must follow a ‘party line.’ My own party in Italy ‘PARTITO NAZCIONALE ITALIANO’ will certainly be effective when I am in Italy. The time is right!
LUNCH: Rice, hamburger and chicken.
DINNER: Chicken pie.
21.04pm – A truly great day today! Some excellent news regarding my appeal which I will deal with when I get to Italy. The evidence I sought has come in and thus the time is almost ripe/ Spoke to Caroline. Could not get hold of Gianni but will do so tomorrow. Now talking of tomorrow I am seeing Andy Coulsons lawyers. I wonder why they think my evidence is so important. But I will do what I can anyway.
21.32pm – The more I think of it, the more I can see that I am being ‘helped’ by time. The question is… whether I can trust the outcome. If one really has done nothing wrong in the first place. it goes against the grain really to accept any form of punishment but then can anyone call this punishment? I doubt it. I do my job with pride and to the best of my ability. I have not lost my dignity, I just carry out my task diligently and with the same onus of care as if I was the employee of a business, and what is more, under the circumstances, in these places one must adapt or it really becomes punishment!
THURSDAY 3 OCTOBER 2013
06.18am – Well yesterday Silvio Berlusconi withdrew his non support of the Italian Government but how stupid some people can be, who thought he was serious. He was just testing the loyalty of those who are in his party. Italian politics have become a joke, almost, and Silvio has been personified as the joker – yet he is the brightest and most competent. Why? When all others will be de-selected or lose their seats, Silvio will still be a billionaire! Who is the silly one then? Today FIFA meets to decide if the 2022 world Cup will be changed to the winter. We shall see!
LUNCH: Chicken and rice, desert Ice cream.
What a day! Spoke twice with my son Gianni. He will go and stay a short while in Italy. Talked with my eldest son Mike – Hope he passes his FIFA exams – and he will come and see me next week. I must ask his advice on something. Spoke with Caroline also, all ok. We will be covering a major trial next week – if it goes ahead, today so busy forgot to take shower – damn and blast. I am re-writing the manifesto of ‘PARTITO NAZCIONALE ITALIANO’ – a small update.
21.42pm – This weekend I really must write up some stories and I am also thinking about writing a book ‘The First 100 Years of HMP Wandsworth’ and write up about some of the turn of the century inmates. It’s a good idea that can apply to all the famous prisons. Will research it out. Must also reply to the UK Border Control. Ah tomorrow will write about how I live here. It’s actually as I said almost a hotel and the majority are foreign – so I am not out of place. Miss my wife and children but as ever in this job must move on.
FRIDAY 4 OCTOBER 2013
06.43am – What strange weather this year. Warm, cold, hot, rain, sunshine, all very odd and since 1961, that I have been in this country, never one quite like this year. The news today – ‘Black widow spiders on the loose in the UK’. In Italy a day of national mourning because a ship full of asylum seekers has sank, killing over 300 people! Yes, well I feel sorry for them, of course, but who allowed the ship to leave a Libyan Port? Anyway in these days of political correctness, it’s all really too much.
LUNCH: Cheese sandwich, desert yoghurt
DINNER: Fish with rice.
21.37pm – Another particularly good day. It’s great to know that Karen Todner will be coming to see me on Tuesday morning; it will be nice to see a bright and able lawyer. I hope Sarah Hall will also come this week. I called my son Gianni today. He wants to hear me every day, bless him. What that boy has been through, alone the last four months, is totally incredible. Let me say that the curse of the Raven and Owl has been reinforced against all those that have wished me ill and misrepresented things. But the Court of Appeal will prevail and be a billion times better than those two birds. The law will always prevail. It will always seek out justice and direct it in the right place. Did not call Caroline today as for want of credit on my PIN phone account, must call tomorrow though! The weekend will be important for many this weekend! I miss my family but all here, staff especially, is truly kind to me and I won’t forget that!
SATURDAY 5 OCTOBER 2013
07.03am – The best thoughts, and memories, are for me early in the morning. For the past twenty years – maybe slightly less, the so called ‘War On Terror’ that was carried by ‘the George Bush administration’ was actually a psychological war that was impregnated in our minds. Human beings in the West were made to believe by so many news articles, TV news etc that a war was actually in progress. Yet nothing of the sort occurred but we were all made to believe it because it was in print. It was a conspiracy to make believe we were in danger and whilst we lived in a state of fear, the government was able to pay loans, do things that they would never have been able to do. Those, like me, who knew what was going on, were ‘stopped’ any way possible. But time, in this case, is not a healer but one that will soon relay the truth.
18.36pm – Came back from work today around 3ish but wanted nothing to eat. Spoke to my son Gianni who told me his dreams had been shattered and has accepted it, but as I said you can only shatter dreams when dreams become extinct, or illegal, and if they become illegal then they become a real commodity because all people want things that are illegal. Look at alcohol in the US: - It only became popular when it was illegal.
18.43pm – Watching, strangely ‘Strictly Come Dancing’ and was thinking of an Italian singer Nicola Arigliano who died three years ago. I produced a duet of his called ‘E Quasi Alba.’ Great singer of Swing! Funny, a few years back I was being considered to be a contestant on ‘Strictly’ but did not do it. Don’t regret but feel sorry that I did not!
SUNDAY 6 OCTOBER 2013
07.13am – The weather is keeping OK(ish). The news today is the US just sent its special forces to Libya and captured a wanted person No permission sought just in out and take out a wanted man. Well there you have it! Again no respect for International law. If Assange had been wanted truly by the United States don’t think for one moment they would not have entered the Ecuadorian Embassy in London and taken him. In fact Mi6 and Mi5 were asked to draw up a plan to take Assange out but then it was shelved.
16.22pm – Early relaxing night! Tomorrow my dear friend Nick K goes to ‘trial’ if in fact there will be one. We shall see but it’s highly unlikely. This week I will help on visits from 06.30am – 08.00am. The officers are truly correct to me and have shown much kindness that I have not seen outside four walls. I can only speak as I find.
LUNCH: Chicken, carrots, roast potatoes, broccoli and desert rice pudding.
DINNER: Cheese sandwich
18.29pm – Need to check a couple of matters that may have an impact on my case.
19.02pm – Have now researched the law well. It does seem the Judge has made two massive mistakes. But surely Alastair McCreath cannot be that distracted? Two massive errors in law and one in sentencing, maybe two! Did he want me to appeal? Well I won’t. Until I get to Italy and submit to the Court of Appeal the reasons! On another note I see that my story earlier this year on the killing of Princess Diana has flushed out ‘others’ involved, and a number of papers have carried the story! No post collected today, damn it. Oh well tomorrow another day.
MONDAY 7 OCTOBER 2013
06.16am – Woke up early because I care this morning for my friend Nick K who starts his ‘trial ’today. In the news the birth of the NCA (National Crime Agency) in what is termed the UKs answer to the FBI. What is the just thing they have done? Asked for volunteers to assist with their work!!! The weather is still holding out and limited, if negligible rain. In the business world most businesses want to expand: IKEA; Tesco; Ryanair with enhanced staff training. We shall see!!
DINNER: Rice and mince pie with ice cream,
20.54 – Very tired tonight been a long day. Tomorrow I will see my son Mike, and then Karen Todner later. Spoke to Caroline and my son Gianni who will go to Italy mid-October! Noticed that Vicky Price is writing – has written – a prison diary. It does seem that many also enjoy copying me. Never mind the more the merrier!
TUESDAY 8 OCTOBER 2013
06.20am – Had an interrupted sleep. It’s incredible how when the State wants to protect its wrong doing, the levels it will go to prevent justice! The trial of Nick K is but one example. Not a scrap of evidence of any kind yet it seems it is to proceed totally perverse!
20.17pm - It’s been a long old day but quite productive. Saw Karen Todner and I think she is the right lawyer for those who need proper representation. I was honest with her and she was astounded by my sentence. It was great also to see my son Mike. Truly nice. Blood is blood. Tomorrow will have to see the doctor as have some problems. Did not call Gianni. Miss him a lot. Oh well must be patient.
WEDNESDAY 9 OCTOBER 2013
07.03am – Been up since 06.05am and already working forty minutes. The weather is great again today. Some mundane chores to do then move forward for the day. Will see the doctor at 10.30am today.
LUNCH: Roast Chicken
DINNER: Madagascar mince with rice and potatoes
20.49pm – Today was an interesting day. I attended the doctor and fucking hell - lo and behold - I have again mild Ischemic arterial disease and have been referred to a vascular surgeon. That will obviously be in Italy as the waiting list here is about eleven weeks!!! Meanwhile at the Old Bailey my friend received spectacular disclosure that may catapult any trial. No more on that one yet we shall see! Later in the evening my friend from Cyprus comes back and brings the Italian paper Corriere Della Sera – lo and behold in Italy an amnesty and ‘indulto’. Good news. You see in Italy with 68,000 prisoners and only 48,000 capacity, the government must act. In this country the government simply doesn’t give a flying fuck. The capacity here is about 60,000, but nearly 100,000 turnaround!
20.56pm – Received wonderful letter from Prof, Nicholas Wood who has supported me and was in fact the first to write to me in March! Caroline and Mike sent me lovely emails. Did not call Gianni and perhaps I should have done. Was a little upset after Mike came to see me, something that is occurring in Italy but I will deal with that later. Nadine Milroy-Sloan lovely supportive letter and Emilio Fratto wrote to me. Tomorrow another day!
THURSDAY 10 OCTOBER 2013
06.44am – Had a damn good sleep. The last two nights woke up a couple of times but last night just great. Norman Baker MP has been made a Home Office Minister. That is good news, only he and I agreed that Robin Cook was murdered! Will write to him. In Italy good news re the government. Have a good idea regarding the costs of incorporation. Will put it down on paper and write to Baker!
LUNCH: Sweet and Sour Pork desert ice cream.
DINNER: Haddock pie and roast chicken.
20.14pm – Interesting and pleasant day. Tomorrow will be important for my friend Nick K. Let us see what happens. Today I spoke with Mike about MS. I read in the Metro that maybe, just maybe, there could be a ‘cure’. There is not a fucking day I don’t ask why the fuck should he get MS? And why have I been so fucking impotent to help? I spoke with Caroline who is doing great job and spoke with Gianni who will be in Italy next week. The heating has come on in this place. Is it needed! Well in any government institution it’s all about dates! It goes off x day and comes back on y day, regardless of whether! Communism!!! Need good sleep tonight as am on early rise in the morning! Received letter, via email, from Aiden Sikora from Kent. How nice. Also on the ‘STOP PRESS’ new evidence has just come in that will be probative to my appeal but I won’t do it until I get to Italy. One thing for certain time moves on!
FRIDAY 11 OCTOBER 2013
9.31am – Tonight are the World cup games and what a pity I can’t see Italy play. Oh well! The government here wants to rise the age of driving to 18. In the United states its 16! What a difference. What the government should consider is the age of voting. I’m inclined to allow the vote from the age of 8! Yes 8! After all if one can be held accountable in law to any crime from the age of 8 why not the vote??? Radical but logical!
LUNCH: Chicken and rice
DINNER: Cheese pizza
21.22pm – Got back at about 8ish and of course it’s the World Cup Qualifiers. England are winning 2-0 against Montenegro!! Remember it’s a country that has only been in the World cup since 2007! Today in the Nick K case the Crown opened their case. It’s always the worst day (a) When the Crown opens their zone and could sentence if found guilty. After that it’s all downhill because unlike some views from so called victims, in certain cases time does move forward!! Today I was so damn busy that I did not get a chance to call anyone. Tomorrow will call my little boy – I say little – he is 6 foot tall and in December 18! Rest assured there will be a justice against the liars and fabricators, and that justice will be the very law itself!
21.28pm – I was thinking today what constitutes a smile or sorrow. What is a smile was sorrow and sorrow a smile! Who decided that a smile was a smile? On a more present front – Montenegro just scored so its 2-1!!! Post script: - President Charles Taylor arriving her next week doing 50 years!!!
SATURDAY 12 OCTOBER 2013
21.02pm – Yes that is the correct time I am writing this – Why? Because today I was the one to get up at 06.15am, but was so fucking tired that I slept in until 07.05 am and then wham bam thank you start work. Went to Reception and carried out my duties. As usual some great stuff working and was a very peasant morning. Came back and spoke with my friend Nick K. He was all over the papers today but it’s to be expected. However, I just despair how the state can try a man when there is not only no evidence against him, but exculpatory evidence only. Frightening in this country. If this country wants to get back on track, it just needs to sort out its immigration policy and employment prospects for its neutral citizens. This is the same actually for Italy also, although Italy is not yet quite so fucked up as the UK. No wonder the Scots want Hadrian’s Wall to be the border and to separate.
DINNER: Cheese sandwich
21.09 pm – I note also that the United States is still ungovernable and the government is still. And this is the country that wants to rule and police the world!! Thank God Russia has 5788 nuclear missiles pointed West!!! And yes I’m glad that Russia has Putin, because he has the courage to press the button!! Have not called anyone today because of the time I got back, too many people around. It’s incredible how in prison one seeks to be alone! Quite the antithesis of what one would expect.
Unchained Melody Giovanni Di Stefano